thehawke's blog post - Not sure anyone need your oppinions...please

Monday, May 1, 2017, 5:02:54 AM

Well I told my S.O. about having an account on here. He say he would check it out. But according to his profile on here he has not. Yes he has been a member since 2004. I have been on here since 2014 and upgraded about three weeks ago.
Not sure if he is being invissible to us when he signs on or if he just did not need too.
Confusses me so much. I do love him. He woke my sleepy soul. And I know he loves me. He has been busy with issues. Maybe thats all it is.
Sometimes I just get scared. I had an outstanding marriage. But befor I met my husband, I was hurt badly. Then became widowed. Lost over hafe my heart when he died.
So when I say he woke my soul... well he really did. I never thought I could learn to love again. And threw him I did. I think he feels the same way I do.
I am scared what he will say or feel about my profile on here along with my pictures., and videos.
He has yet to look at them, or even say he is in a relationship with me. Just not sure how he feels or how to ask him about it.
Should I run and hide or should I hold my head up high and be proud???

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Others Have Said:

Artistic on 1-May-17 8:48:28

you can not log in without showing
its on IM you can chose to be offline/invisable
if my S.O told me off account id be very curious

theMermaidHunter on 1-May-17 11:01:23

I find it off that he has not checked out your account

theMermaidHunter on 1-May-17 11:01:50

Actually i find it odd ( not off )

SunGod_dess on 2-May-17 18:19:27

One belongs to no-one but yourself and ones happiness is your own responsibility as well as
one's freedom ... sometimes one must guard
against reading too much into things ... the safest
for oneself is to ask the question directly ... ones mind can be tricky at times ... you have nothing
to feel bad about Hawke ... because you like
what you are doing here and you are enjoying
yourself and as far as I can tell, you are doing
it fairly responsibly. I hope I'm not coming forth
confusing ... xxx

thehawke on 3-May-17 2:39:33

Hsnk you all so much for the comments.
Sun God_dess .... you srr a wise lady.
I do know what you mean about our minds.
I do over think some of the times. I also do not have much confidences in myself. As a child my step dad beat me on a daily bases.
I wrested him to keep his hands out of my pants. Took years to forgive him . And once in a while I shake in fear.
Thank you