willow01's blog post

Sunday, December 28, 2008, 6:42:40 PM

Sometimes, something happens that makes you sit back and take stock. Today was one of those times for me.

I got talking to an old friend (well she aint old, but we have known each other for years). I found out how well she has done with her life and if I am honest, I am really jealous of her. I was always the smarter of the two of us all through school and the years after it. But, she really has sorted herself out and now after talking to her - I feel a real dissatisfaction (is that a word?) with what I have settled for. She really has given me an unsettled feeling in my stomach with what I have...

I don't mean my kids or anything like that (my kids are probably one of the few things right in my life!!)...but what I do mean and what I have been thinking about tonight is, lacking any other word for it....dreams and aspirations...

When did I stop trying and striving to do better and when did I give up on all my dreams? My eyes really have been opened up to how laid back I have become lately! Like I said, I have a weird feeling in my stomach again today which I haven't felt in a long time.....I just hope it is for the better!

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just_looking123 on 28-Dec-08 19:15:58

I'm having this feeling quite often.
It's driving me nuts to be honest.
Restless, a feeling of running out of time to do totally different things, maybe better things, things that I maybe should have done, maybe things I was made for...
I'm trying to ease this restlessness with *something/someone has other plans and directions for me*
Doesn't always help though :(

Tallguy2nite on 28-Dec-08 20:11:14

The grass is always greener. I would bet your friends achievement didn't come without costs. We usually only see only the success, not the sacrifices.

mdguy on 28-Dec-08 22:46:03

She's probably done well for herself because she was in a really dark place, or is still there.

If you think you settled, then you can look around and see if there are some dreams still to pursue. It's not too late for that.

imalilhothead on 29-Dec-08 15:37:11

*runs in and throws purple paint all over you and smiles*...sometimes we have to put our dreams aside until we get settled...there is always time to make changes and go for the rainbow!!!...just be patient and go for one color at a time...you already have purple :) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Star'sKnob on 29-Dec-08 16:16:09

willow dont beat yourself up second guessing, you are who you are and if you want to change you make the change but dont feel like you need to measure against others..........I found myself in that thinking and once I broke it I found myself in a much better position career and life wise