To you Mr A
You reminded me in one conversation why I am loving my life as a single woman.. I have yet to find the right way to share this with potential suitors, better than I do.. yes.. that is true! But for this very moment.. I have to thank you! You will be my reminder for months to cum too.. ;P
I LOVE being single.. I LOVE the whole freedom of it! I have been able to do so much in my personal life because I dont have some man that I am toting around.. I am not bitter.. I am just a realist.. I have been attached to a man for longer than I have not.. It is time for this Wendy to sail her ship on her own.. I am letting my freak flag fly freely (say that 10 times fast
I am single and I know it.. I am single and I love it.. I am single and I do not need a man to help me with it.. haha..
When you have been in two marriages... one lasting 18 years.. one 5 years... And you are only 41... I think anyone would agree.. that this adult needs some time on her own!
Now.. the kicker.. that no one is able to grasp... The NON sexual side of me.. I know.. silly Wendy.. being on a porn site and not wanting to be involved with the sexually hungry folk...
Well to help explain this better... mostly so when I am chatting with someone and they get all upset with me for being here and not wanting to virtually suck their cock, they can read this blog.. I wont have to waste my time explaining myself to anyone again, I will just direct them here
I am here for the ego strokes I get when strangers and friends either vote, comment, bookmark or follow anything I place on this site! This is the main reason I am on NN.. EGO repair!!!! A very close second is... I get amazing comfort and companionship from the friends I have made on here.. even the ones I only chat with here and there.. I value everything I gain from this site!
I am NOT interested in sex because it hurts... plain and simple.. I dislocate.. all my limbs and bones do not stick together.. I have to go to the hospital for one sexual session.. and I am in SEVERE pain for three weeks or so.. sometimes longer.. so.. would YOU be wanting to jump into bed with someone?? If you felt my pain even after a gentle sexy time.. you would be feeling the same way as I! Even the thought of someone inside of me.. makes me cringe with memories of all the pain I have endured... yuck!
As for the online fun.. gross.. it is only for the man.. let me repeat that ONLY for the man.. Some women love it.. and I beg you to go find them instead.. for me.. I dont get aroused online.. ever! never have!! At the end of it.. It is still just me, touching me.. so.. what is hot about that.. idk! I am not submissive! Allowing some man to get off because I did what he told me to do.. bahahahahahaha never would happen.. so.. why would I place myself in a position to help?
A very strong reason behind my choices is... Where the F is my O.. haha.. I went 38 years of my life before a man gave a shit enough to make me have a O during our sexy time... I vowed that day.. unless I get my O.. I am not going to actively help a man get his.. IF he wants to get aroused by my pics.. words.. and so on. have at er.. I am just not going to play along in conversations.. I will exit stage left if I start to feel uncomfortable..
With all of the above shared.. I do declare that when I say I wont play online.. Date or Fuck to fuck (gross!) I will be believed! Fuck ya!!! to be believed.. would be a dream cum true!!!
I have decided that I will just keep going along like I have been.. eNNJoying the fuck out of life!! Seeing the world through the eyes of a NOT crying all the time gal! What a beautiful change for me! To stop having to say all those negative words about myself.. and explaining myself for everything I say.. do.. think.. want.. crave.. desire.. and need.. grateful am I!!!!
Hugs for you Mr A.... and each and every single other NNer out there.. even Jr..
HUGS!!!!!!