Hello gang,
I know its been sometime since I have made my presences known and I have a good excuse too.....You recall I had this infection back in febuary and no one could tell me what it was?? Well it never actually left me, it stayed in my legs for ages, I rather foolishly went back to work but far too early, I thought I was clear of it, but this nasty thing then travelled back up through my body again but internally, it settled in my chest, stayed in my heart for about a month caused havoc, then moved and stayed in my hands and arms. It was rather debilitating to say the least. It was also a very terrifying experience and still despite four separate blood tests, seeing six doctors not one could tell me definitively what I was enduring why I was itching so much, peeing so much at night, feeling so pissed off all the time. So I did my own research the thing that kept popping up was this 'staphylococcus' bug, what a nasty, but very clever little blighter!! I am not totally sure but I then discussed what I had found with a micro biologist friend I know (he actually got a nasty leg infection as a younger chap found no answers from any medical professional so decide to find out himself, hence a qualified micro biologist now) He agreed with me that this organism was most probably the culprit. I feel totally let down by my own medical service too, I think they thought I was delusional until I mentioned it to the last doctor I saw and she concurred to a degree with my hypothetical cause but still I have not had a decisive answer I dont suppose I ever will really know. It taught me a great deal though, about myself, my friends and my life. things are much more positive in my world, although sadly the dynamics with one or two friendships have changed, I have to remember while I was an addict life kinda stood still for me, while everyone else continued to live to move on, I just got left behind and I completely understand. My whole ethos towards what I put into my body and how I live my life, what I want from the rest of it has changed so much, partly down to being completely free of my former life as an addict my eyes are very much wide open, I regret the money,but money isnt everything, its the years of time I wasted walking that path I regret time I will never get back, but I have to take something positive from it, it cant be a total waste, so my plan now is to get to college, start that long dream I have had to work with troubled kids off to a start, in the hope my life experiences can make a difference to someone and be of help, if I can prevent just one person from travelling down the same path I did I shall be content. I am also on a massive health drive too, my whole diet has changed, I take so many vitamins, supplements everyday, I eat foods that will help my body to be strong, stay strong help it to recover from this long battle with the little critter. Also, the big thing for me is I am so close to stopping smoking too, I just think its time to give this old vessel a break and prolong my life somewhat be free of any unnecessary drugs in my system.
I have to say, I was so totally emotionally overwhelmed with all the caring messages I have received from you all, I am trying to get round to responding but I am not the quickest or accurate typist (I think my typos are legendary now)!! lol
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I want to sincerely thank each and everyone of you for all your support one way or another, I feel rather humble I am indeed blessed to have so many who care about me, I need to do some blog reading to catch up with you all. I only have one problem.... I gained an extra two stone in weight whilst with this thing, so I am slightly more curvy now, not the skinny minny anymore, but I still have plenty skinny minny pics for you, then perhaps when I have finished posting all of that series then there ought to be slightly less of me for a new set of picture taking.
I am looking forward to catching up with you all I have most certainly missed a great many of you and I am so happy to see my favourite girls and boys are still here playing, takecare people you superstars xoxoxoxo
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