Hello gang,

I simply had to blog to thank everyone who participated in whatever way in my impromptu looney disco on cam session last night. All down to the cam performance I watched of Pipster20, thank you mister!!! After he had stopped broadcasting, I wanted more to so I started my own broadcast...I was utterly amazed at how many actually came in, then stayed to dance with me and you all moved very very well lol. I cant recall many nicknames but recall some real names so...Graham, Luke, Dave, Davey, Mike, Steve, John, Adam and Pete the main ones who danced with me for sometime, some nicknames I can remember...Beat, Djones, 000max, The Voyeur, UStrucker (nice of you guys to pop in) Hey and Lioneyes long time no see sexy!! As you will all know I have been in the lost world for sometime but last night thanks to the many, I had such fun, I never stopped laughing, so a big sincere thank you to you all for reminding me why I love this site so much.
I do like the new cam feature very much, I would love to know how many people actually came into witness my lunacy last night, I know I lost count!! I like the booting out option if you misbehave, which in all honesty, I only had to use twice and that was because the answer 'no I am not getting my tits out' didnt quite get through, for the most part you were all very very well behaved. Also with respect if you know my posts you should know that is not my vibe anyways, it is never going to happen. So I ought to apologise if you came in expecting to see some breast action and surely my cam still would have given you an idea of what was happening.... But overall I had a blast last night, I have to reiterate that without the generosity of the Srebbew (who popped in to your ace mister and a lovely mover) In the first instance to allow me the freedom of premium membership I wouldnt have been able to enjoy all the benefits I have had these past few months.

As for my health ((thank you all for enquiring) I have had the medication upped, which has stopped my head/shoulders from rocking, my heart isnt 'banging' within my rib cage as much either, I am still getting breathless also palpitations but I have improved somewhat which is good suppose. The only draw back is the higher the dose (I am taking 5mg you can go up to 20mg) The worse the side effects seem to be, one of which is freezing feet, toes, hands, fingers also called 'Raynaurds syndrome' in fact I was wearing some rather fetching fingerless gloves last night which were commented upon (on one could see the four pairs of socks I wore)!! Lol. I suffer with insomnia too now, despite being so fatigued throughout the day, I try to sleep and the Brain says no chance sister!! But I am certainly feeling brighter than I have in the past.
There are so many important people in my life, in my NewbieNude family who bring sunshine to my darkness, you all know who you are and without whom my world would be a very cold lonely place. I love you guys xoxoxoxoox

It has been some time since I posted any tunes (big sigh of relief I hear)!! But I simply adore this one. I posted the video with the lyrics for you so you could sing along, now here is the story board... Booshaka!!!

Hello gang,

Gosh, I am so blown away by all the messages, emails,flowers and even some sexy pants I have received from you kind lot. I was moved to tears that so many really cared about me and my heart problem. So an update is long overdue apologies for causing some of you to worry for me.....

I have now had an Echocardiogram and I also had to wear a twenty four hour Heart monitor. I dont have the results of the monitor yet, but the Cardiogram appeared normal which is a relief, the only thing they could tell me was my Heart is still beating far too fast and it can beat once then miss four or five beats in between. I am still getting the palpitations, still I get very breathless with the smallest of exertions, but I have been told to keep taking the medication which is a Beta Blocker called ' Bisoprolol' and the Aspirin the prescribed and any change I had to return to Hospital. The medical professionals are unable to tell me the cause, but the Cardiologist I last spoke with, he agreed I had most probably had something cruising my body from when I fell over, but nothing can be detected in my bloods now, like I have said, the thing has done the damage and buggered off!!

I am about to post some pictures we took over the weekend which I hope give you a smile, just some pictures for fun for Halloween, my busiest night of the year for bewitching!! lol. I have lost some of the weight I gained with the nasty thing that invaded me, as you can tell. I am rather more curvy now which I dont mind at all. I shall also post something alittle more sexy for you all during the week to enjoy. I know I have some catching up to do with you all. I have missed and thought of so many of you deeply.

Hugs a plenty to my Newbienude family, I would be so lost without you all xx))xxx

Hello people,

Those who know me, know I like to know whats up in the sky at night and one of the exciting things as well as the mighty Jupiter we can see, we will be able to see the Space station for a few minutes, on certain nights for a few weeks. I have attached the times/duration for my area, but if you use the 'Realtime Data' section you can enter your own Country/Postcode/Zip code and it will give you the times/duration of everything flying over above you, cool hey?? Here you go... [url]http://spaceflight1.nasa.gov/realdata/sightings/cities/view.cgi?country=United_Kingdom&region=England&city=Preston[/url] Enjoy and take care xx)xx

I may have freaked a few of you out this morning.....

As you will know from previous blogs, I m having some heart trouble, then this morning I could not stop my heart from beating so fast, so hard that I mentioned it on the status page, no doubt scaring some of you, so if I can recall..... Justhorneyforyou, Wordweaver, Auswob, Anotherguy, london36male and the only other one I could recall, Noirty, thank you so very much for your support early this morning, you all put me at ease and helped me a great deal. I went back to see my Doctor were he increased the medication I have been prescribed and I do feel overall, much better these past few days even hours since the dosage was changed today and since taking the meds full stop. The biggest thing I have seen is how much weight has just disappeared from my stomach and hips in a matter of days which can only be a good thing!! I will certainly let you know when I know more myself. Can I just thank everyone who has gotten in touch with words of support, your all superstars and I love you all. Take care people BIG hugs xoxoxoxooxox

I have spent sometime today trying to find out what could possibly have happened to me when I collapsed last week and going on what I know so far, I think I have it. We all now know about this infection I picked up when I fell over breaking the skin, then allowing something really nasty to get into my blood stream. it caused my whole body to swell up as it travelled up through me from my toes to my nose. It then never left my legs/calfs, itt then moved internally onto my hips and eventually into my arms, chest and Lungs Then into the most important reservoir where it could hide, my Heart. But having looked at all the information regarding heart failure, all the classic symptoms I have been exhibiting, yet no one picked up on it. It is looking, sounding exactly what has happened to make me collapse caused by this nasty thing poisoning me within. It would seem probable thats what was happening to me over the past few months, hence the rapid weight gain, feeling bloated all the time, needing to p so often at night and feeling so fatigued, being so depressed. Makes me feel so sad that I was once again failed in some way and had to fight my own battle to solve my own puzzle once again, just reminds me how much I am really alone. I am not about to wallow in self pity, I have made it through I think so that is the important thing. It all makes sense now but is it just my vivid imagination??? I just wish I could identify the organism responsible at least I have an excellent understanding of how it behaves, see its all good now xoxoxoxooxoxo

Hello gang,

I know I have been MIA for a week or so now and apologies to those of you kind enough to get intouch with me to inquire how I am that I have yet to contact, hope this helps to explain..........

I must admit to being rather down of late placing myself in that self imposed isolation and darkness where depression can take you. Then last week my eldest son came down to get ready for work to find me on the floor, xxxxxxxxxxx, unresponsive and frothing at the mouth. He tried to bring me round, but apparently I was lapsing in and out of consciousness. I woke briefly were I was completely disorientated for a few minutes before lapsing xxxxxxxxxxx again. So my son then placed me in the recovery position called for an ambulance. I brought myself round apparently, sat myself on the sofa, totally oblivious to what had happened. I was taken off to hospital, with my youngest son accompanying me I was then immediately placed on a heart monitor (ECG) For the rest of the day, for some reason my heart is beating far too fast, working far too hard and no one knows why. I was allowed home some hours later after further tests with Aspirin and a drug called 'Congescor' which is a beta blocker the drug should help my heart return to a normal rhythm, but three days later it is still racing, my upper body is rocking and I am scared. I have to return for more tests, I am trying not to worry if the doctors didnt think I would be alright they wouldnt have let me home, so I am trying to think positive but admittedly it is not easy.
I have a theory, I am utterly convinced it is connected to that hideous infection I had that traversed through my whole body/system earlier in the year that has stayed with me for months and that I can still feel flowing within my chest. Yet still nothing is showing up in any blood tests so therefore, I feel I am looked upon like I have a very vivid, active imagination, nobody has taken me seriously at all with regards this nasty organism or whatever it is, so I guess it made me feel even more alone, retreat even further within myself to suffer and to battle on in silence not complaining.

There is not a whole lot more I can tell you, I am searching for a silver lining, trying to stay positive its difficult to be frank and I have to go with this no matter what anyways so se la vie people, I will update you all when I know more about the puzzle. I am still not smoking, it has to be nearly a month now so thats something to feel extremely positive about! I feel good about myself for maintaining that one anything is easy once you tell yourself what you need to do, anything can be overcome if the urge/need is there its mind over matter.

I just wanted to explain why I have been absent to the many who have written to me, thank you to you all who did take the time to write to me )) Things have a habit of coming together in the end and I am the eternal rubber ball after all....

I will be back when I have more to tell you, hope all is well in your part of the world and take care people xx)xx

I want to say a HUGE thank you to my friend Srebbew for being so generous and giving me a gift to allow me to be a premium member for the next three months. I am so blessed to have NN friends who are generous with their time for me, support who genuinely care about me as much as I genuinely care for them. The list is endless of very important people to me.

The timing of this gift was impeccable too, I had been feeling a little down of late, I am day two of my giving up smoking campaign which is good. I also realized I was the odd one and old one on the site. Someone mentioned I was rather vocal with regards the menopause I am suffering with. So that got me thinking...I then picked up the 'I am boring ball' and run very fast with it in no particular direction, so it brought me down. I was thinking I dont use this site appropriately do I, in so much as I have never talked sexually, or been sexual in anyway really, even my pictures are rather tame in comparison to others who are far braver than I, who I so applaud. My blogs have no sexual reference at all either I simply use them as a platform to tell the world all about my dull, boring life, talk about my troubles, my menopause symptoms, the cycling I love and now I am just banging on about rugby, which is not everyones game and certainly not something you really discuss on an amateur porn site is it??

I will leave it there, I have to go now Tonga are just about to play Japan in the live RWC!! lol. You special people involved in my life, should know I think of you often, I love you guys, you have all helped shape me into the person I am today.

I dont want to moan at you, just not me is it?? lol I just wanted to thank my friend for his kindness and I am so looking forward all the premium benefits now. BIG HUG Srebbew xoxoxoxoxo

Hello people,

I clicked on the members section by accident earlier and I found to my shock then surprise as the page told me my premium membership had ceased on the 20th June of this year...I had absolutely no knowledge of that whats so ever and it must have been in force when I had to take some months way as I was far too ill to sit here and participate. Worse still, who ever the generous person was, I shall never know now as your message/notification has now slipped onto another page, beyond my humble freebie reach (I can only see the first fifty messages).

So I simply, sincerely want to thank you my mystery benefactor for his/her generous gift and would they please accept my apologies for not doing so sooner, I was quite simply in the dark. I am totally overwhelmed with the thought someone could be so kind to me, if it is you, please let me know so I can find a suitable way to express my gratitude to you.

The sun is still shining brightly in my world, thoughts of others with their cloudy days and my candle burns. Hugs people and take care xx)xx