I left work early today. To be honest, I'd wanted to leave early on Thursday overwhelmed with stress frustration and my cold symptoms.. the only reason I hadn't was due to my daughter being in class, and having my car... all that after the accident she'd witnessed...
Last night I'd spent time with Tall and Lanky since it was kick off, the huge plates of nachos at the Royal were 1/2 off.. We shared a plate and just enjoyed being out. We'd picked up my kid with his car.. first time he'd ever driven BOTH of us somewhere. It was a weird thought to realize I've trusted him enough to treat my daughter with respect and decency... yet, he does just that. He's often mentioned how enviable my relationship with her is.. same regarding mine with my love. Nods.. perhaps they are both enviable to others... but to me I love these two souls more than I've loved any others. I'm grateful for their loyalty and love, and I'm someone who does what I can to show that appreciation in my daily interactions with them. Anyway, the two most important people in my life are both plagued with challenges at the moment. Today we had to address a possible denial of my daughter's worker's comp due to the inability of her case worker not being able to reach her. I took off from work to both destress and to assist her in this... plus, she asked if I'd please take her to her Dr appointment as a followup to the last two she's had due to her injury. Destressing is seldom achieved by me, in reality... but I try regardless. Yesterday I'd thought things to be challenging, thinking my baby girl avoided and accident by being slow and steady as a driver... add worry over cancer, and then another time watching other people getting recognition for their hire date anniversaries and mine yet again being dismissed... I'd melted and started crying right there. When I told my boss how close I was to completely losing it she'd acted stunned that I felt slighted, under valued, unappreciated and not at all wanted as an employee. I'd told her I'd believed it was a accomplishment to hit that second year ann.. but not any longer. My work there no longer has no meaning, and that I felt they've no appreciation for my loyalty to the company and the project, representing the health insurance company. It wasn't easy but I wanted someone to understand how close I am to walking away and praying for a temp job.. anything to fill in that space and replace that pay.
Today I take my kid to her urgent care Dr for another followup.
My guy's been dealing with continued metastasized cancer spreading in amazing speed. The curious thing is that this is a gentler form supposedly, yet it's doing all that it can to consume him. Anyway, they took care of three newly found tumors in his brain yesterday. He's had a long and powerful dose of radiation to them, in addition to the ones to hip and brainstem... I'm foreseeing regular CT and MRI scans every week at the rate things are going. He needs to consult a dietitian to help him prepare for the 16 weeks of chemotherapy he's scheduled to start soon. He sounds drained and can barely speak above a whisper. God knows I love and cherish that man. Oh how I want the best for him... and for my daughter. | 
