At work the other day and was on the phone with my hunny. Instead of calling him 'baby' I called him piggie lol.

Dont you love laughing so hard you have to sit right where you are?

I wish things surrounding nudity didn't have to be so weird. This girl (she's 1, boards her horses here and is pretty much like another sis. She's been with us for years. She has the craziest photography talent, and I would LOVE to have her take pics of me. But would never ask of course, but damn her talent for catching a moment and setting ambience is incredible. Just a few pics she took here recently...







She has an account in a photography website, I'm always looking at her work in awe.

Went to the dentist for the second consult on what to do about my two front teeth (scroll down to see horse kick to head story lol) The guy offered a lot of information on three techniques of restoration that are available to me. The one that is the best and looks the best happens to cost 5000 frickin dollars a tooth (I'd have to have the both done) Okay that's out of the question. The only other alternative I'm considering is a fixed bridge. They make porceline crowns for the two adjacent teeth to the missing one (the broken one I have to have removed). Then they make some kind of thingy to hold the fake tooth onto the two real ones. The one tooth I get to keep happens to be the most crooked one, gee whaddaya know! So since its going to be shaved down for the crown fitting, they're going to make it straight again. Phew. BUT, I have to have a root canal on it cause of the stress and inflammation up top in the root. Holy teeth are long, they go all the way up to your nose, funny cause when I go to rub an itch out of my nose it hurts my teeth. Root canals sound quite displeasant to say the least, I informed Doc he might want to stock up on the laughing gas!

I'm gonna go riding now.... LOL

25 Year old mare my sister found at a livestock auction last fall. One of our boarders found her dead in the pasture this morning, so she past either last night or this morning. We went and wrapped a tarp around her and said our goodbyes. Her two best buddies were standing near, two old cranky draft mares she's been paddocked with since she arrived. They were protective of her, I think animals understand the elderly amongst them.

I take comfort in knowing that she was well taken care of and loved, at least while she was here. She most likely had a soft death. Hopefully in her sleep in the warm sunshine with those she loved near her.

She was an absolute teddy bear. We'd bring her in on cold nights and feed her nice warm beet pulp. We wouldnt even need to halter or neck rope her even, she's just follow along beside like an old dog then she'd walk straight into her stall to stuff her face. This death was somewhat expected, but I still have a hard time letting go of the old ones that seem to work their way deep inside your heart.

Okay so the only time I ever considered myself to have friends was back when my family was living in a small community on the outskirts of my hometown in B.C. I was bewteen the ages of 9 and 11, but the friendships I had and lost (or thought I lost) were just blanketed by years of living.

I found my best friend from childhood on facebook today. We lost touch when I moved (a very common occurance in my family) and our lil close knit group grew apart as we all splayed in different directions entering high school. I remember phoning him to talk when I felt like crying, when I was alone in the house and creeped out, when I was fighting with other friends, when I was excited, upset, angry... He was always there to listen, was my only friend who would stop a moment to let me have a work in edgewise. I remember he bought me a pair of sterling silver horse earrings (that I think a friend ended up stealing from me). Three of us were all supposed to go to a Paula Abdul concert (hey man, it was '91!) but they all drove on past me and left me a lone. He even apologized for it in the message I got via facebook. Through his words on the screen I could see the same old sweet friend I had and lost.

I'm semi in constact with other's from this 'group'. A few of them I consider sisters, we don't hang out but keep in contact and know we are all there for eachother. I have never made friends like these since, I wonder if the friends we make during childhood can really pan up to the ones we make later on in life... when we have a lot more to be cynical about, and are a lot more judgemental and opinionated.

I think as children we are pure, and real to our personalities... we know no other way at that age. So with that being said, who can know us better for who we are in our heart than those who got to know our 'raw' nature before life changes us and taints us.

We all had our own lil disorganized homelifes, our own esteem issues, tempers, fights, tears and crazy fun times. I don't think a person can forget a time like that. I don't think a person stops loving just for the sake of time and moving on.

I took a weird concoction of pills yesterday and found myself nicely xxxxxx giggling at horses in some old western movie while hun was making himself a grilled cheese sandwich, giggling at me.

Dad pissed me off AGAIN... He seems to enjoy making his daughters feel guilty for his situation. grr

The rain makes me feel all cozy in my lil shack with my flannels on and blankies and kitties strewn about. Speaking of kitties Chester and Sarah found themselves in the same cupboard this morn, hence the term "catfight".

Im bored and want to go to work tommorow, but have to wait til tuesday. Went and talked to my boss the other day and he wants me to take more time off, I wanted to come in on my weekend off out of boredom mostly. I miss my piggies.

Sister is moving in with some guy she only met a few times. This woman has been in so many relationships, and seems to learn nothing from them. Scared she is going to get hurt, but hope that she finally found 'the one'.

Im going to start up another My Little Pony collection, hun ordered one for me and it sits along side Rockybird right now. I think it's going to get a few more buddies soon too lol. Just a lil recapture of my childhood.

Hun keeps laughing at me, "Ohh vavy" "Puck me!!" But look who will have to wait forever to get a blowjob HAHAHA.

After pictures. I tried to find a paint that would adhere to non pourous surfaces while still matching my jeep jeep. I'm sure I could have got some touch up paint but, MEH... That requires patience. Still looks cool I thinks.

Im usually fandangling something here and there. Its been a while since I made anything, probably last halloween. This licence plate holder came from my old Bird. Thought I'd keep a peice of her and Jeepify it lol.

before pics:

I went to a 'dentist' yesterday. I say that in quotes because he looked more like a strip club owner and his clinic looked more like a bar. Prolly should have turned and walked right on outta there, but I wanted my teeth fixed as soon as possible.

He pushed one back into place, well as much as he could anyways. And filed some of my other undamaged teeth down to try to make them all match. Im thinking I should have just got the two incisors fixed properly as not to fuck with the rest of my healthy teeth. He left the other incisor totally crooked, because it wasnt obstructing my bite i think. Then a wire was glued behind to hold them there. They still look weird and are in my way of biting. I dont feel right about this cheesy dental clinic and think I will look for a new place to go. Not having dental is really going to hit me hard, but not having front teeth would be worse lol.

All I want for christmas is my two front teet..


I feel pretty lol


Trying my hardest to smile.



I sure likies those T3's. They put me on demorol at the hospital, that shit is too freaky.