I was thinking the other day, Im going through some mental stuff right now and find myself doing way too much thinking... Do people's personalities ever change? I know you can change the view other's have of you by making different life choices, experiences can shed light on your life in a different way... but when it comes down to it does a person ever change their thought process, their emotional capabilties in handling stress and even what makes them decipher something as 'stress'. Im kinda blabbing, but hope someone gets the jist of this. I was thinking about this a lot when it comes to childhood friends, I only still maintain contact with one of mine and her personality is exactly the same as it was when we were kids. Every time I run into her, its like no time has gone by and the more I try to run from it, the more it seems as though Im slipping into that depressed isolated kid I was so unhappy being. How much can someone change the pattern in their minds they were born with?

Took my geriatrich kitty to the vet's for another blood test (she has hyperthyroidism, we're trying to find the right amount of meds for her without compromising her kidneys). The last time she was in there I asked them to (if they could) shave off her big mats regardless of how she looks just the mats themselves. After sitting in the office listening to her howls of terror I vowed I wouldnt bring her in for this again, but instead going in the spring time for a complete lion cut while she is asleep (had it done a few times before, but with her age having her put under drugs scares me). So back to my appointment today, I bring her in and ask the vet "Is that all she is getting is a blood sample today and thats it?" vet replies "Well yes, that and I have to weigh her and check her heart" (ha, a quick 62.00) So I let her take my scared 18 year old kitty into 'the back room'. I sit there and listen to my cat howl in terror for what seemed like 15 min, when it was probably about 5. The vet brings Sarah out and tells me that they tried to shave off a few of her mats but stopped when she got too stressed out. I informed her that I just bought a pair of animal clippers for just that and I want to do so at home where she is less terrified. I look at my cat and she is laying on her side completely exhausted and panting like a dog (kitties pant when they are very very stressed) and drooling, and she clearly lost her bladder control on her kennel blankie. The whole ride home she was in this 'cat'atonic state and even now she lays hiding beneath the kitchen sink amongst the potatoes and grocery bags.

I was uber pissed that someone would go through the bother of disrupting my old cats emotional state, while compromising her physical (enough stress and her old frail heart could pay the price im sure) and the fact that no one asked really makes me mad. Its like bringing your car in for an oil change and they decide its best that you also need a new catalytic converter... although cars are nothing like a life long pet, you get the jist.

Thanks for going through the trouble in reading my pointless rant. Go on with your day as if nothing happened. lol