http://www.uncoverthecure.org/index.html

Sorry I could never remember how to link properly, doh!

So I have to raise 300 bux in donations in order to be able to participate. If I haven't met my minimum goal by race day, I can't do it... unless I make up the rest myself and I really dun wanna do that (broke enough as it is).

If any of you fine NN friends wanna help me out, pm me k??? Any help will be much appreciated, I was kinda pondering a prize for the biggest donor (tee hee)...

PM for details! mmuuuaaah... yes that was a kiss, I'm feeling lovey dovey lately haha.

Cause it should NOT look like a 20 cm dump of white shit to me.

arrrrggggghhhhh. (that's my cavewoman growwwl, you wouldn't like me when I'm angry)

I'm sick of running inside on a treadmill like a facking hamster, sick of riding in my tiny indoor arena in circles "pushin a rock pushin a rock pushin a rock pushin a rock" I want to ride OUTSIDE, around the block (farm block) I want to sit in one of the pastures and have a beer with the horses. I wanna bonfire, I wanna take the top off my jeep, I wanna wear thongs and summery dresses again. I want to lay outside. I wanna go camping, take the horses to the trails, barbeques outside. I wanna sweat from just sitting around, I wanna bitch about flies in the house, sleep with no covers on and the fan blasting, days at the lake, yardwork, not have to bring a jacket....

Fackin Alberta!!!!!!!

My sister wants to get a memorial tattoo for my dad on or near the day, I think I'll join her and pay for hers (if I can). I've had a design set in my head for a while of a dandelion in seed stage, blowing away with a piece of a letter my dad wrote me. I'd like a piece of a song that really strikes a chord with me. This song struck a chord with him bigtime when it came out, he loved it... I know it made him think of my mom, especially after reading the lyrics. Pretty emotionally heavy song, well written too (gotta love Chris Cornell's raspy sad and strong voice tho).

Like a Stone - Audioslave

On a cobweb afternoon,
In a room full of emptiness by a freeway,
I confess I was lost in the pages of a book full of death;
Reading how we'll die alone.
And if we're good we'll lay to rest, anywhere we want to go.

In your house I long to be;
Rung-by-Rung patiently, I'll wait for you there, like a stone.
I'll wait for you there, Alone.

And on my deathbed I will pray to the gods and thee angels,
Like a pagan to anyone who will take me to heaven;
To a place I recall, I was there so long ago.
The sky was bruised, the wine was bled, and there you led me on.

In your house I long to be;
Rung by rung, patiently, I'll wait for you there, like a stone.
I'll wait for you there, alone. Alone.

And on I read, until the day was gone;
And I sat in regret, of all the things I've done;
For all that I've blessed, and all that I've wronged.
In dreams until my death, I will wonder on.

In your house I long to be;
Rung by rung, patiently, I'll wait for you there, like a stone.
I'll wait for you there, alone. Alone.



The tattoo is going to be on my foot, so I'm only including two lines. I've had regrets in my life, lots... Situations surrounding my dads death tops them all, leaves them in the dust.

Mr. Puss and I have his kids every weekend now. So we don't go out much anymore, hence my boredom. So here I find myself, on the internet. Mr. Puss is sawing logs beside me in bed and the kids have taken over the living room (couch is a two seater).

If you are as bored as I am, you'll watch these youtube vids lol. If not, then you'll move along to something much more exciting. I should clean or something, but meh.

okay, I've seen this one a dozen times and still refer back to it when I need a quick giggle
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6b-072VA4UA

most of you won't be entertained, but I thought it was pretty impressive. This horse is freakin awesome/georgous
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h0Rhd6zLzV8

I felt this coming lol
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eXHOMWadofM&feature=PlayList&p=4020ECF661B529D6&playnext=1&index=1

No one can spill a rider quite like a hot headed can chaser. The first 20 seconds or so sucks, just bear with me lol.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BDDkT0hxrQc

just fackin OUCH lol
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nxe0lO5OX_c&feature=related

Another one, I felt this coming and "hahaahha"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WpjotGDu3cs

um, NOT how you train a horse to drive
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8u2QzgFn4mU&feature=related

okay, a break from horsies... KITTIES. Rarely I see something so cute it puts a lump in my throat, dis takes the cake
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rooyt3ptNco

I can't let this blog rest without some piggie action
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DyJbarNhPPQ

Found myself an awesome rowing machine on kijiji. I tried to get one at Fitness Depot a few weeks ago but their financing company told me to suck a rotten egg. So I found the same rowing machine online for 875.00 (I got him down from 1000). Brand new they are 1500.00 for this make and model. Going to go pick it up this afternoon and beat the crap out of it in the clubhouse tonight, my knees hurt so I'll like the break.

So after calling the doctor ALL morning, we finally got a hold of them and got the crappy results of the semen count. It's very very low, and my doctor won't proceed with my reversal with Mr. Puss's count being so low. He's gonna wait another month (that way it'll be the full three months post op your supposed to wait before semen analysis) then try the test once more. If the results are going to be negative as well, then fuckit. More horses it is!! Can't breed myself, I'll breed my friggin fat mares haha.

btw: I know the alternatives and aren't interested in any of them. I don't want to be a mom bad enough to use someone elses semen, rent someone elses kid, or pay 12,000 a shot for invetro... no spanx.

Me: Tubal ligation in Sept '03
Mr. Puss: vasectomy sometime in 2004

So now we want kids, I never wanted any and never thought I EVER would. Mr. Puss has three and he thought he was done there. But low and behold here we sit, life flipped us upsidedown and said "HA, told you so!".

Mr. Puss had his vasectomy reversal Dec 5th, 08. We just had him into the doc today to supply a sample of his jizz so they can check it for healthy swimmers. We'll get the answers back about it tommorow. I don't hink I'm gonna sleep tonight.

If he's got good swimmers still, we're going to opt for an experimental laproscopic ligation reversal for me. If his swimmers are so so, we'll stick with the traditional abdominal surgery (big icky scar, more pain, more cost, and more recovery time).

Cross your fingers for us guys!!! This is like the longest pregnancy test ever haha.

Sis worked out a plan with the vet, was a last ditch effort to save his life. They did offer her a payment plan to pay off the surgery bill, which she turned down (I have NO clue why, think it might have something to do with her dickhead bf), I offered to give her 500 bux as a donation that she won't have to pay back, but that would have just scratched the surface. The vet was really awesome with her and because of Keno's age/temperment she didn't want to euthanize him. So because sis couldn't afford to pay the bill, she chose to sign his ownership over to the vet clinic. They were to fix him and rehome him with soemone else who can pay some of the bill. A family was just in there a few monthes ago with a dog they wanted creamated, he was killed in a car accident with the family. I guess they were looking for a dog who's great with kids.

A few friends of mine banded together on a horse chat forum and started a thread for donations for his surgery so my sis could keep him, but she refused. I think she's scared of him getting hit by a car again on her road and she doesn't have the time to recover him (6 weeks). I told her I'd take him until and if she's ready to have him back. But I don't think she's gonna bite. So I'm just going to go to that vet clinic tommorow and give htem my information to pass onto his new owners, stating I'll take him if doesn't work out in the new home.

Sis's bf isn't being very supportive, couldn't understand sis's response when he suggested having him shot (by a neighbor). I think his attitude towards companion animals is one of the many things going on with them that's going to end them in the long run. But I'll shaddap about that cause i'll go on forever.


Went to fitness depot to finance a rowing machine for myself. I love running, but require something for cross training and strength building. It's great cause it's zero impact, good to use when running irritates my knee. I used them all the time at my old gym, but I refuse to go to the gym anymore... I can't stand the people and the business and the pain in the ass it is to drive there back and forth.

So I talk to this super nice dood about their Concept 2 (best make) and the choices for financing I'd have if approved by their lenders. I fill out the credit app, thinking "Pfft, no problem" FUCKERS denied me!!! I dont' get it at all, I make good money, pay cheap rent bla bla, my beackon score is high and they denied me! I have been paying my jeep payments religiously for two years, always on time, along with smaller loans I have all paid off. My sister even got this same company to lend her 5000.00 and she's got HORRIBLE credit, all I need lending is 1500 measly bucks. GRRRRR

So now I'm just gonna save up for a few months and go back there, talk to teh same dood cause i think they make commission and he was super nice. I'll definately be buying more equipment there as well, good prices and selection.

My sister phoned me crying hysterically this morning. She didn't even have to tell me what was wrong. I already knew... After losing our dogs last summer this is the last thing we needed. She called him inside this morning after letting him out to pee/play with the resident farm dog, he came hopping on three legs, one of his back legs dangling. He never showed interest in going near the road, but still she was always careful about letting him outside and called him often.

She just got this dog not too long ago, found him online after searching for a long time. Driving out to meet prospective dogs to be their family pet, to grow up with her son who is a baby right now. He was getting along awesome in his new home, she'd bring him here to run like mad with my three dogs, we'd all go running on the track. I'd doggysit him whenever they were going out, so he didn't have to sit in the house alone all night. He's a rottie/border collie, the most silly/sweet dog you can imagine. Shower's his human brother with kisses whenever mom's not looking, whatever the baby is doing, Keno is doing it with him.

It sounds like it might be fixable, but I know my sister doesn't have the money... not even for xrays. I know that she can't mentally deal with losing another dog, and will help her the best I can financially if he's fixable.

I can't stand hearing her upset like that, she had enough to be upset about in 08.

I had our barn christmas party last saturday. I scrubbed the barn from end to end, whomever thought it was smart to paint the entire interior of a BARN white is nutso. I sprayed the walls then scrubbed with orange cleaner, and swept the water puddles dry. Oinkers was even using the indoor arena to do her business, instead of her usual spots in the alleyway... I swear she knew what I was doing lol. Mr. Puss hung garland and lights up both sides, we borrowed some folding tables from good friends and have two refrigeraters in there already for drinks. We tried to crank the heat up enough so we could all wear nice christmas party clothes, but it would only get up to 10 c. Furnace couldn't keep up to the cold outside. Everyone brought tasty snacks, and they all had an awesome time. When some of the people left we moved upstairs into the clubhouse where it was warm, and the strangest thing happened. Two of our vertical friends became horizontal friends ! I'm happy cause Mr. Puss and I always had a suspicion they were freaky, but never knew how to go about doing anything. It went from the way we'd just act silly and flirt with her, to Mr. Puss having sex with her on the couch. Her hubby and I still partying with the rest of the horizontals lol. I was on my damn period (for fuck sakes) so couldn't do anything much other than a blowjob, after the rest of the party left. Fackin big dicked men are so much work for a little mouthed girl like me, talk about a boner up to his belly button. It's so awesome to play with a couple you REALLY like and know well, it's different than couples you just find to play with. There's a lot more excitement involved because you didn't expect it, and because you know them well as friends your totally comfortable. We are going to play more with them for sure. The next day I was scared we went too far with them, and maybe scared them away. But she called me and reassured that it was NO mistake on their part )) She's making us dinner tonight, probably going to be a nice low key evening with friends, but if more happens I won't be one to complain Neither will Mr. Puss thats for sure.

On a less freaky note, we had dinner at my sisters last night. Turkey lurkey, tatoes, gravy, cabbage rolls, perogies, veggies, and awesome stuffing. MMMMM. We makes pretty tasty food, my mom taught us well. I brought over a pecan chocolate pie with whipping cream, fackin recipe called for 1c corn syrup, 1c white sugar and 1/2 c melted butter... You KNOWS it'd be good lol. My belly is NOT happy with me today though, man I'm hurtin. My nephew is getting his own personality now, he's not just a worm staring off into space lol. He loves his auntie, babbles at me and giggles when I pinch his cheeks.

I got good presents this morning, a down fill winter jacket (soo comfy), and piggie flannel pjs, a crazy soft chenille robe, a collage pic my sis made of the year's events and critters (she likes to make me cry). We cut the sectional couch in half and junked it, to fit our xmas tree LOL. Mr. Puss got talking to the landlord about renovating one end of our barn we don't use into a house. It's about 1500 sq feet, and the plumbing and electric is all there for the barn already. Gots lots of work to do... pour concrete, furnace, windows, interior walls, insulation etc... it'll give us something to do in the spring/summer/fall of next year. This tin can trailer is just junk now, the water is frozen all the time, the electric is always screwed up and shorting, it's cold and drafty, the windows freeze solid in the winter. It's too small to have babies in thats for sure, can't even have a dining room table. I'm excited to have something brand new, we're gonna lay tile and high pile plush carpet, modern decor and SPACE to live dammit. The kitties can have giant cat trees to play on, and I can throw them in the barn to catch mice when they are pissing me off in the night. Our landlord is nothing short of excited for this lil project, since we've been on his arse about buying us a new trailer. They aren't permitted a second residence on the property and hauling in a new trailer would be a heat score lol. His dad owns a land maintanence company, so he'll supply a laborer or two to help us, and he offered to buy everything we need (he LOVES to shop for that shit and has the money for it). I'm just excited to be able to say I live in a barn LMFAO.

I'm pretty excited for the future, and am trying harder to look past my losses from 08, because other than the fall to your knees heartache it was a great year. I feel so strong with Mr. Puss, like together we can do anything. We encourage and feed off of eachother, we look for new things to accomplish together and reflect on it after the fact. I'm so thankful for him this holiday season, and the rest of the year of course.

The critters are doing well, Lucy got the end of her tail caught in the steel door in the barn last night. Stupid dog, always has to beat the door. I got Diesel a santa doggie sweater, his lil border collie self doesn't act as much of a furnace in this weather lol. Oinkers is gonna be mad at me when I go out there today, cause I forgot to make her a plate from dinner at sis's house.

I'm glad we have something to be excited about in the upcoming year, a place I can have my family at next christmas... wow to actually have a spare room or two will be awesome.