Again on Friday night our God Daughter spent the night and I had to be up and out of the house super early and did not get home till 10:30 pm or a bit later - super long day. God Daughter spent the night again on Saturday so I figured that was the end of sex for the weekend but to my surprise The Wife actually texted me when she woke up on Sunday morning to come back to bed which I did quickly. We had a nice, if quick fuck with her blowing me and she had one or two orgasms while I came in her. Based on past experience, I call this a win.

Well, we did not fuck that Friday night because our God Daughter was staying with us and well... The Wife tends to be loud. We did, however go out of town for Saturday night and had a pretty good fuck in the hotel. I guess my problem right now is that I am holding back a bit because I feel that she is initiating this to keep me from leaving, not because she really wants the sex. Time will tell.

Last night (Thursday) I took The Wife out for dinner at a steakhouse and we had a great dinner. We came home and watched TV for a bit then went to bed at our regular time around 10:30. As we were going to sleep she said she wished we had gone to bed earlier because I (she) want to make love. Well, we agreed we would make time tonight so we will see.

Well, perhaps sex with The Wife will be primarily a weekend thing - this is not bad - Friday night she made a point of coming to bed without her sleep shirt on and even though I was worn out, I decided to take advantage of the opportunity and we had a good fuck, I worked almost 14 hours Saturday and even then she came to bed naked and we cuddled but I was way to tired and sore to fuck. Going to see chiropractor today and hope to get another opportunity this evening.

Well ....... Here it is Thursday evening and I did fuck The Ex earlier today. So Saturday night was the last sex with The Wife and she has not been 'avoiding' intimacy, but she has made it pretty clear that she is too tired for any shenanigans when we go to bed. Truthfully, I am pretty worn out this week, but if she expressed a willingness, I would certainly go along.I intend to make an advance either tonight or tomorrow night and see how things go. I am working a 12 hour day on Saturday so I expect to be pretty worn out but I have Sunday off (unexpected) so will have to see how Sunday morning goes.
I truly do not expect to have sex every night (although I would not mind) but a somewhat regular schedule would be nice.

I am truly hopeful that this will continue and I will do my part for sure. Yesterday was day 2 with physical touch and more sex that was surprisingly good. Another interesting thing is that her taste has improved ... I can only guess that since she really 'wants' to be having sex, she is more relaxed and therefore her hormones are more in line with what is going on.

Well .... She read the letter and actually admitted that this was completely on her! She also took responsibility for killing our relationship which pushed me toward having sex with The Ex. WOW - I was so surprised that she actually took responsibility.
She made a clear commitment to work on keeping a good intimate sex life with me moving forward. I also made it clear that should this not happen we were over -period - end of discussion. 22 years of minimal sex life and excuses and I will not accept it any more.
To be fair, she did try to make excuses like why did I not bring it up before, but I pointed out that I had many times and that she just made excuses and nothing happened.
End was that we had pretty amazing sex on the sofa in the RV yesterday morning (x2) and I ate her to an orgasm that left her screaming when we went to bed (on par with the way The Ex screams) this was a first for her showing that she was willing to relax and let go I guess. I then fucked her to another apparently good orgasm. I did not cum through all of this so she went down on me for quite a bit, but it was just not enough so I told her I wanted to fuck her from behind and I fucked her till I came and so did she.
So call that total of 4 fucks in one day which is absolutely the most with her since before we got married.
more updates to come.

Well, I guess I finally have reached a breaking point of sorts. I am tired of living with a dead bedroom. I am 55 years YOUNG and deserve more! I had expected SOMETHING - SOME SORT OF LOVING - during this trip and other than a few kisses when she KNEW that it would lead nowhere - NOTHING! Tonight we went to bed and after she immediately fell asleep with me feeling frustrated again, I got up and went to the living room of the travel trailer and wrote her a 4 1/2 page handwritten letter telling her that I am DONE! she will get it in the morning when she wakes up and we will see what happens. I just cannot handle the depression that goes along with the constant rejection and lack of real affection. I realize that having sex 17 times last year is better than some get, but it IS NOT NORMAL! She either has to make an effort, or we need to separate and do something else. I am not sure what will happen in the AM, but I will be sure to post an update sometime in the next few days. I am quite sure there will be tears and such on her part

We are leaving for a 2 week camping trip on Sunday and things need to change! I have become quite depressed both due to difficult work issues (anyone who thinks being self employed is a bed of roses is mistaken) and lack of affection / sex in my marriage. It is unlikely that there will be any substantial updates until we get back, but I will see.

This past weekend was our 22nd anniversary. Cannot say it is all happy (as you who follow me know) but at least I have a partner who has my back (guess I have to remember that more often). Anyway ... Not even sure what we did on Saturday but we did have a nice lunch out and ran errands. Sunday we had a nice slow breakfast and ran more errands - what else do you do on weekends - and she treated me to a very nice dinner out. She did come out at Breakfast wearing one of the lacy things that I purchased for her last week, but it is too chilly to wear that around the house. I simply said I love it and the thought, but wear something warm and comfortable. After dinner we watched the end of the Super Bowl and shortly after went to bed where we had a pretty amazing fuck session. She blew me and I ate her - I think she had at least 2 orgasms and the BJ was so incredible that I came from it which is unusual. She did not swallow but I did blow it on her tits which was nice. After a few minutes, I was hard enough to fuck her for a few minutes but she was too worked up for me to do it for long.