came and went and nothing changed in the sex arena. The Wife did not let me know when she was waking up she just came out and was like 'Good Morning' and being rather pissed off (but not surprised) I just grunted a reply. She then spent the day working with me in the food truck since all of my other help bailed so for that I am grateful, but you would think on Fathers Day she might have made an effort.
Headed to see my neurologist for a follow up this morning so we will see how that goes - hoping that he will lower my meds dosage so I am a bit more functional.

It has been 5 weeks since my seizure and the means 5 weeks since my last fuck with The Wife. Last night we were walking through the grocery store and she offered to get me flowers for Fathers Day. I said, 'No, I do not want flowers, you know what I would want, but you are not interested so it is not worth discussing' she replied that it would be better if I was sleeping with her and I pointed out that sleeping in the same bed did not change things for us as all it did was get me frustrated since she does not like to have sex at night and I get up 2 - 3 hours before she does on the weekend. I also pointed out that I had told her many times that she could just text or call me when she got up and I would gladly join he if she wanted to start something. she indicated that she would~I doubt it! When we got home, I thought she might continue the discussion, but nope, we ate our (late) dinner and watched tv then went to our separate bedrooms as per the norm.
Oh, well, Happy Fathers Day to all the Dads out there - I miss mine so much since he died unexpectedly last year. Life has not been the same.

and that is not always a good thing. So for the past 3 or 4 days I have made sure that 'my' side of her bed is clear of folded clotting with the thought that maybe I would sleep with her and we might fuck. Each night as bedtime arrives, I change my mind and simply go upstairs as I do not want to push her into something that she so obviously does not want. On the news they have been talking a bout the 'female viagra' pill. The only problem is that the woman has to realize that there is a problem and want to resolve it. Somehow I do not think THE WIFE sees a problem. Oh, well, at least summer is short so once The Ex's kid goes back to school we can start fucking again.

I was feeling quite horny and kept thinking about trying to get things started with The Wife, but decided that it was not really worth the effort. Why push her into something that she has made quite obvious she does not want.
This morning I saw an interview with Dr. Ruth and she answered a question from a lady who is in a similar situation as myself and her answer was 'get counseling immediately' well, that would work if I was allowed to drive .
I am still (after many years) unsure of exactly what I want to do but I guess I will keep moving in the same direction as I currently am. Perhaps eventually I will find someone other than The Ex as a FB as well.

Well, The Ex and I have been talking about fucking since we are now working together again on a pretty much daily basis and today we finally found time. Late morning she came over and we talked about work related stuff for a bit then went upstairs. We both got undressed and got in bed where we cuddled for a bit until I sort of got on top of her and rubbed my dick between her thighs while sucking on her tits. I continued this for a while and she reached down to play with my dick which she has not done in a long time and I love! I continued to suck on her tits and she played with me and tried to direct me toward entering her hot pussy but there was not enough lubrication yet so I said 'let me eat you for a bit' which she gladly accepted. I moved South and started eating her while playing with her tits. After a bit, she asked if it was ok if she waited a bit to cum while I kept eating her and I said 'of course, wait as long as you want' . I ate her for another few minutes until she started that familiar moaning that means her orgasm is near. Shortly after, she came with her usual scream and pulled me up to fuck her. Even though I had jerked off earlier in the day, I wash hard as a rock and fucked her as hard as I could for a few minutes until I was ready to cum and as she likes, pulled out and came on her stomach. We relaxed for a few minutes and she asked if I was ok. It turns out that she was quite worried that I might have another seizure during sex and what she would do if that happened.
Overall it was a good session and I am hopeful that there will be many more - she has expressed an interest in fucking in my food trailer and a few other unique locations which I am completely good with as I like that kind of sex which is part of what has made us good sex partners.

So after I posted my blog yesterday, I waited a while and decided to go back into the bedroom to see if she was going to wake up and be 'in the mood'. Well, I did go in and turned on the TV, after about 30 minutes she began to 'come to' and of course, that began the time to talk about anything and everything, I tried to stroke her a bit to get the sex started, but did not make any progress. After a bit over an hour of nothing happening, I made a point of telling her to go to the bathroom so we could move forward as I know that she always needs to pee before sex in the morning. She came back and after about another 30 minutes I did manage to get things going, ate her for a bit while using the vibrating egg then moved up to fuck her. I would say about 'average' fuck with The Wife. Sex with her would be so much better if she would at least ACT like she was enjoying it and wanted to be having sex instead of her sort of just lying there.

The Wife likes to 'sleep in' on the weekends, but I cannot do that. I automatically get up no later than 6 AM and usually earlier. This means if I want to even TRY to attempt sexual activity, I have to get up like usual and then go back to bed when I think it will be time to wake her and hope that I am guessing the time right then I have to hope that she is actually open to sex without me basically begging for it or having a discussion about everything BUT sex before she agrees.
I understand that she works hard during the week (I do as well) but I wish she would make some effort in the sex department like she used to so I would feel that she actually WANTED to fuck and so that I would not always feel that I am forcing her.

This past Monday I had another seizure (first one in about 10 - 12 years). Last one kept me in the hospital for a week, this time, they checked me out and sent me home. Problem is now I am not allowed to drive for 6 months which will make running my food truck challenging. Current train of thought is that the Ex may be able to drive my vehicle to pull the trailer and will just start working with me full time. We will see ..... of course that will probably lead to more sex as well so that would be a nice side effect.
The Wife is now sort of insisting that I sleep with her instead of upstairs as she is concerned about another seizure and I asked her twice this week about sex and her response both times was wait till the weekend. As we were going to sleep last night, I asked her what time I should wake her today and she said 'don't' - well that would mean no sex so I guess that is not happening today. Oh well I guess things are not really changing.

The Ex came over this morning, I truly thought we were just going to talk a bit, although I hoped we might fuck. Well, at 8:30 my calendar beeped that I had a 9:00 meeting - DAMN - I forgot about that! Texted her, got dressed, and left the house. Halfway to the meeting the person I was supposed to meet called and said he thought it was next week - whew - texted her that I am headed back home. Ended up following her back to my place. She came inside and we had our discussion and she says ' are we going to have some fun? If so are we going upstairs and if we are get up there and get undressed. Well, who am I to argue? I run up get undressed and wait for her (only a few minutes). She climbs in bed with me, we talk for a few minutes and start kissing and I start slowly rubbing her pussy with my fingers. after a bit of this, I move down to eat her which I do for about 10 - 15 minutes until she screams out in orgasm. I immediately move up to fuck her HARD! I am actually a bit surprised at how hard I am as I made the mistake of jerking off earlier. I am HARDER than usual and harder than I have been with The Wife for quite some time. I fuck her for about 5 or so minutes as hard as I can which she has come to like, when I can feel the inevitable, I do as she prefers, and pull out and cum on her belly. Actually, not a bad load considering that I had cum just a few hours earlier - she seemed happy with the size -.
Well, that was my Monday Surprise, and a nice one at that. Pretty surprised that I actually fucked both The Wife and The Ex within 72 hours.

Well, yesterday after I wrote my last blog, i decided to go back in the bedroom and see if The Wife really would be receptive to some fucking. I went in and it took a bit for me to get her out of bed so she could pee before we did anything. Finally got her up and out of bed, she went and peed and came back to bed. Before getting back in bed, she went to her luggage and got out her bullet vibe. We kissed a bit (not as much as I like and not much tongue, which is disappointing) finally I got down to eating her and she playing with my dick for a bit. When I got her well enough lubed from my tongue work, I turned around and fucked her for a few minutes before I came. During the entire thing, I mentioned to her that I really would like some sort of response from her so I know if she is enjoying what I am doing and she responded that she has never been very vocal. I did not want to start an argument at that point, but she obviously does not remember that she used to absolutely SCREAM when we were fucking.
Oh, well, it was sex with her VS sex with my Right hand....