beachdreamz's Blog - page 18

What a beautiful day! I can't believe how nice out it was. Tonight I ended up being lazy. I was supposed to go out but ended up changing my mind. Instead someone I met in the neighbourhood came over and we had some drinks outside and chatted with my neighbours. It was soooooo nice being outside minus the layers.

On a side note...if anyone out there is a member of facebook join the group Unlike 99.9 percent of facebook I was born in the 70's (or something like that) Even if you aren't born in the 70's its awesome. Soooooooooooo many memories of best of the 80's---tv shows, candy, playing outside, so much. I have laughed so much I cried and every memory I read brings 10 other memories to life. So much stuff I was sure I was the only one who remembered...the candy that came in the garbage can, the characters on sesame street, crazy things we tried to get high...just so many memories

So I just spent an entire night playing....it took forever to come but when I did..wow...thighs shaking,chest heaving, face flushed, sweating, dizzy - the whole works. Finally I feel like I have had enough (temporarily)..that is unless a certain someone would like to come over. Then I have a feeling I could go for round 2...and 3 and 4....only this time with a partner.

lately I can't sleep and I am having very vivid erotic dreams. I am wondering if its a hint I should be writting some stories again.

The worst part is when I wake up I just remember flashes of it and it doesn't always make sense. A hand running up my leg....heavy breathing.......a deep moan....lips close up. Its almost like watching a movie when they speed through memories.

Not only that but lately I am getting very strong urges (Thats the word I was looking for yeserday!!!!) to be risky and daring. Pictures in the woods...extreme foreplay at a club...teasing at a movie...sex on the bleachers at a park near my house. I am beginning to think I am obsessed.

I have been noticing lately that there are people in your life you can always just go back to. People that at one time you spent all your time with can come back into your life and its like they never left. Lately I have had a lot of these people and its awesome. I am sometimes very bad at keeping in touch but these people are in my thoughts quite often. Tonight I called and talked to my best friend who I haven't seen in over a year...talking to her on the phone it was almost like I was sitting in her living room chatting. She misses me as I miss her but she knows I am happy and that makes her happy.
So if you are a friend of mine from the past please know I still think of you and I wish you well. My friends will always be my friends

First off..I FINAAAAAAAAALLY got a bed! I am so excited. I have been sleeping on the couch for almost 6 months (and I am not even in the dog house). Now I just need a week off of work to enjoy it.
Secondly I think spring is finally arriving this week, so hopefully I am going to be able to start walking/running more. LOL I need to get out and tan. I want to wear my capris and skirts and my legs are neon white!! But as long as the sunshine is coming my way I will deal. I am not overly sure how I am going to tan in Ontario. I have a small back yard but I also have 2 males who live in apts above mine, and as much as I like posting on NN I am not intereted in being a show.

well almost bedtime..time to go "enjoy" my bed. Too bad it has to be alone

Something that angered me

Yesterday I had to run to the mall for a second. I saw this beautiful little boy being well a little boy. Of couse it was the mall and there was lots to see. He wasn't being bad..just poking along. Maybe his parents were having a bad day...maybe there is something I don't know. But my blood began to boil when the mother yelled at the little boy and told him "If he didn't behave God was going to punish him". How sick and twisted are you to tell a child that? I won't get into a huge religon conversation. I do believe in god although I don't practice or anything. I just follow my own guidelines. I don't even care if you don't believe in God as its your choice. But wow her statement blew me away. With all the bad things that happen in this world (especially on NN just this week alone)why would you want a child to feel guilt like that?
Now I am just rambling but this really bothered me.

Happy Easter All

Yeah I am late, so sue me

What a weekend. My Leafs gave me the biggest smile and then the worst heartbreak I have had in a while. Sigh so how many months until next season ??

It was mostly a good weekend though. Some notes to keep it from being a long blog

-Leafs winning
-NYI winning
-I am in love...with my new hairdresser! I will never again let a female do my hair. From the massage (can you say OMG) to the style I am in love
-I love my Toronto friends especially a few more so than others
-My grandmother broke my heart today. I called to wish her happy easter and right before I did my cousin showed up there and she thought my cousin was me and that I was home to surprise her. Knowing there is at least one person out there who loves me is enough to brighten my day
-I have found someone who rocks my world. Now I have to find a way to rock theirs

I dont know if anyone out there watches Deal or No Deal but I love the show. However tonights was the more mind blowing (although I think it was a repeat)It blew my mind!

Quick recap..years ago a Chinese couple went to America with $750 dollars.
Tonight (or whenever) their son is on Deal or No Deal..his final 3 remaining amounts on the board $75, $750 and $750,000. His final deal was for $211,000 which he took. They opened the original case he choose..and inside was $750! Maybe the show is fake but I am going to believe in the oddity...and fate. Things happen for a reason and sometimes fate just steps in

...therefore I am -- lol jk!

I think its time for some new pics Now I just need to get off my lasy hockey watching butt and take some.

Any ideas? Suggestions?

why is it that when it rains it pours?? everything around me crumbling down today. I am not losing the happiness or anything but jesus already give me a break.
Everything is such a mess and I want to just walk away from it all. Its times like this I miss being home and being able to go somewhere and veg out. I especially miss the kids right now. There is one person out there I thank god for right now. I always knew we were friends but I am beginning to see how close we are and just how much he loves me. He will never read this (hah we are not that kinda friends) but he saved me from losing it today. Got to love people who have your back