OK....
What alternative universe am I living in and who stole the real Beachy?
I am about to make an announcement that shall shock and amaze any of you crazy people out there who have read my blog in the past few years I've called NN home.
/me takes a deep breath....
I, Beachdreamz....am.........................
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.......HAPPY!
I may have thought I was in the past few years but its always been temporary. Since hmm about a week before Christmas, the happiness has been growing inside of me. I can feel the lightness and its amazing.
Obviously its shining through me because in the past few weeks I have been asked out by hmmm 8 different guys. Umm I don't think I have been asked out 8 times total in all of my life, let alone less than a month. Not 10 minutes ago I got home from a movie and had to go to the store...walking back a car of 3 guys stopped me and told me I was a "fucking hottie" and where did I live because they would be coming knocking (haha yes I locked my door when I got in).
The weight is dropping off and I have no idea why. I lost 6-7 pounds this week. I bought new jeans last week and already they are almost too big.
But this is bigger than that....Its not just getting asked out and looking better - its something inside of me thats changing. I KNOW that I can do anything and I may fail...but it won't kill me. With everyday I am stronger and more sure of who I am. For once I am at a loss for words (hahah well kinda). This is the most incredible feeling ever and can't even begin to put it into words how awesome it is to know I have finally accepted myself. I am worthy and I will no longer settle for less.
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