Yay Spring is here!! Yippee I can wear my capris and shorts and skirts and tank tops and SANDALSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Next week getting up at 6 am to go running starts (haha I expect this to last about a week lol).

Plus the Leafs are in a race to get into the playoffs which makes every game do or die..and I loveeeeee it. I am a person who strives on stress even though I love downtimes too. I am hoping to be able to find some tickets for one last game --haha and if you live in Toronto you know thats not likely to happen but I'm going to try. On the plus side its awesome to live here and be able to go out to bars and watch the games with fans.


Off to watch the game

First off, I want to thank everyone for all the awesome comments on my blog and sent to my private messages. I never thought me being happy would matter to anyone.
The happiness is still there -Yes I am scared I am going to wake up and it will be gone. So many good things are going on and I just don't want them to end.
For the record I didn't ditch NN this week lol. On Thursday I went out and met a guy I know from myspace, whos a comedian and I went to see his show. Afterwards he introduced me to his friends and they took me to some club (one of those ones thats small and hidden but cool) lol apparently its also known to be a swingers hang out (eeep!). Haha his friends had a great time getting me drunker than I have been in a long time and I met some cool people. Needless to say however by the time I got home there was no point in going to bed because I had to be up for work shortly. Then on Friday after working most of the day drunk, I didn't do the smart thing and go home...NOOOO I went back out partying with friends until 3 am again. I literally crashed into some guy on the subway on the way home...lol I wasn't to steady and when the train stopped I went flying. Last night I got to go watch the Leafs win (haha I wont comment on Fridays game) and then to see the movie Shooter. Still didn't get to take any pics though. Maybe hes not interested....either way it was a good night and a great weekend.

So what has everyone else been up too??

OK....
What alternative universe am I living in and who stole the real Beachy?

I am about to make an announcement that shall shock and amaze any of you crazy people out there who have read my blog in the past few years I've called NN home.

/me takes a deep breath....

I, Beachdreamz....am.........................
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.......HAPPY!

I may have thought I was in the past few years but its always been temporary. Since hmm about a week before Christmas, the happiness has been growing inside of me. I can feel the lightness and its amazing.

Obviously its shining through me because in the past few weeks I have been asked out by hmmm 8 different guys. Umm I don't think I have been asked out 8 times total in all of my life, let alone less than a month. Not 10 minutes ago I got home from a movie and had to go to the store...walking back a car of 3 guys stopped me and told me I was a "fucking hottie" and where did I live because they would be coming knocking (haha yes I locked my door when I got in).

The weight is dropping off and I have no idea why. I lost 6-7 pounds this week. I bought new jeans last week and already they are almost too big.

But this is bigger than that....Its not just getting asked out and looking better - its something inside of me thats changing. I KNOW that I can do anything and I may fail...but it won't kill me. With everyday I am stronger and more sure of who I am. For once I am at a loss for words (hahah well kinda). This is the most incredible feeling ever and can't even begin to put it into words how awesome it is to know I have finally accepted myself. I am worthy and I will no longer settle for less.

Random Musings

My new toy is greatttttttt haha Lunna I will post a pic as soon as I remember The 7 speed thingy is great-t-t-t-t.

I've been thinking about making a vid...but I'm not sure. As you can tell by my pics I tend to do sensual/tease over in your face stuff so I have no idea what to post. I did a strip vid once...hahah and dancing is NOT my strong point!

I want spring to stop being a tease!! The other day it was so warm here so now my body automatically assumes sunny=warm and thats so not true! I want to start running to finish getting in shape by October and well the sunshine just makes me smile.

Best random thought for the day...tomorrow is Friday! That means I can make it through anything!

So I broke down and bought a new toy today. Its been a while and well I wanted one. I must say its pretty good...it may even be Lunna approved. 7 speeds....its vibrates, pulsates, haha sounds like an ad for a blender or something. All I know is its not a normal toy for me but I am liking it.

/me is not liking the time change!

off to bed like the good girl I am who's coming...wait better yet...who wants to make me cum?

Well we never quite made it too taking some pics. I really want to do it but I guess the mood takes over and well...you go with what feels good.

As per Lunna and VB's blog, you can add me to the horny as fuck list. All I want is sex, sex, sex and more sex. The hornier I am getting the more xrated the ideas are becoming. I think this is a something I need to take care of...and quick...long....hard....wet.....NOWWWWWWWWWWW.



Jeepers someone save me

I will do some new pics soon. I get bored taking pics because I can't seem to do anything new. There is a chance this weekend I may have a photographer so maybe that will spark something new. Hahah this gives me an excuse to get new lingerie!! I know nude is sexy but I feel so much sexier wearing something. If I get to the size I want I promise to do one fully nude pic..something I have never done before.

In the meantime I will see if I can find something to post

Holy crap!
I went shopping today and bought new jeans....a FUCKING SIZE 5!!! I am in shock. I was a size 11 to 13 in September and now I am in a 5!

Woooooooooohooooooooooooooooooo! 20 more pounds and I have done it!

OK tonight I was reading through old blog entries of mine, as I realized it had been about one year since I decided to make a huge change in my life. I never used to be a huge believer in fate but my mind is changing.

There are a few things in my life right now I am trying to decide on and turned to a friend to ask for help. So as she was giving her advice I stumbled on the blog entry I was looking for. She was telling me how proud she was of me and that I just needed to have patience a little more.

I compared her words to my blog and it was almost identical. Here is a part of the blog
"In the end I am taking the job...heres what confirmed it..Yesterday my grandparents came home from 2 weeks away. I house sat while they were gone. When they came home I told my GM about the job I had applied for. Then she was unpacking and gave me a sweater and a gift box that I didn't open. Later on the company I applied for called, interviewed me on the phone and hired me. I talked to my GM a bit about it but she never really said much. When I got home, I opened the gift box. Inside was a silver and glass braclet. On three stones it said COURAGE, STRENGTH and BELIEVE. Along with it was this:
Believe in yourself
Have courage and conviction
In all that you do
Add a little patience
And Strength will come to you "

I did end up making the choice to move in the end and it worked out so well. So once again I am taking the advice. But the freakiest part of the whole thing...the date the blog was posted -- EXACTLYYYYYYYYY one year to the date of today. Coincidence???