Yesterday I went grocery shopping with my friend and her 2 kids. They are both such cute kids. We were in the check out and while my friend was putting the groceries up the little boys said to me "Me, secret" So I asked if he a secret and he said yes. I bent down and he moved my hair from my ear (haha for like 45 seconds) then he leaned in and said "Me Love". I looked at him and said "You love me??" He looked up, nodded and said "Me do, Me do..love you" AWWWWWWWWWW Good luck to any girl he falls for. I would post his pic but ummm haha I think that may not go over well

On a side note...Tomorrow I start packing up my apartment. Any hunky guys feel like coming over to help???

Its so ironic. All my life I waited to hear three little words (no they are not I love you - although one of these days I would like to hear those words again!)
What I have wanted was too have someone tell me "Please don't leave". Just for one person to want me in their life enough to keep me around (suckersssss lol).
My little cousin who means the world to me is furious with me that I am leaving him and I finally heard those words. He had a small operation done the other day and I went to his house to visit him. We ended up cuddling on the couch all afternoon and watching TV. When it was close to supper I started to leave and again I got the pout cause he wanted me stay. LOL I did leave but how the hell am I supposed to leave him in a few weeks?? I know we will talk on the phone and on MSN by wow will I ever miss him. For now I am telling him I will only be gone until September or October which may be true..but if I can find a job in Ontario while I am there, there is a chance I may not come back here to live.

I thought leaving a bf was hard...this is ten times worse. HAHAA oh well maybe I will make a lot of money and can buy some of his love back!

OK..haha maybe I should have explained more.
The oppurtunity is a job for 6 months..only problem is its not where I live. So I need to move somewhere that I know no one and be able to survive. For the most part thats cool with me and I know its something I can do.
The things that scare me are 1) what happens when the job is over? the job won't be extended and the town where it is is fairly small so work oppurtunity there is nil. So either I will need to have enough money saved to move to another town and be able to live until I get a job or come back home and start all over again (again in a town with not much future for me) and
2)I need to leave my family and friends. Again I am ok with this except for 2 people. My grandmother who means the world to me has been going through a rought time and a lot of her friends are dying which scares both her and I. She is so close to me. She more of a friend and mother. I don't want to lose any time I can spend with her. Also as from what I've said in other blogs my parents and I are not close. If I move and stay there chances are I will never see my parents again. Right now I really don't see them either (considering we all live in different provinces)but through family I still somewhat know whats going on in there life. I know this is something I need to except for now and its their loss that they don't want me in their lives..but knowing I am basically cutting off ties is scary. They haven't been there for me once in 12 years so I know I can do it without them...I guess I am still a little girl in some ways.

In the end I am taking the job...heres what confirmed it..Yesterday my grandparents came home from 2 weeks away. I house sat while they were gone. When they came home I told my GM about the job I had applied for. Then she was unpacking and gave me a sweater and a gift box that I didn't open. Later on the company I applied for called, interviewed me on the phone and hired me. I talked to my GM a bit about it but she never really said much. When I got home, I opened the gift box. Inside was a silver and glass braclet. On three stones it said COURAGE, STRENGTH and BELIEVE. Along with it was this:
Believe in yourself
Have courage and conviction
In all that you do
Add a little patience
And Strength will come to you

I am not a huge believer in fate and such but it stunned me. Deep inside I know I have so much of my GM inside me she will always be with me. The bracelet will just be one more reminder I can look at daily and know someone in this world belives in me, even if I don't

Wow I was given a great oppurtunity today...now I need to make a choice...do I want to play it safe and be ok or do I want to take a risk and hope for the best?

Who am I kidding...I already know my choice!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think NN has corrupted me. I found a new site to play on at times but there is just one problem...its not a R rated site...heck its not even an A rated site lol.

So with the group I am in every forum thread we enter pretty much gets shut down for innudenos LOL. We are so bad we needed to create our own chat site. The worst part is I know the mods love our posts (three of my group of friends are mods)they just need to follow the rules

Why is it sometimes that the innuendos and the tease is soooooooooo much more fun? Sex is great, along with nudity and porn but there is still something for that high/jr high school fun where words like Wood, 'get it up" and so many others can bring such a smirk to your face.

Running barefoot through the grass with the sun on my face...

Thanks all for the get well messages. I do feel somewhat better..lol at least the coughing comes in spurts now lol. LOL I do however think the meds we making me high...which had I known getting high was the cure I may have tried that cause I am sure it would be cheaper!!

now..for some reason I am in the mood to take a new pic just not sure of what. I am on a good webcam still so may as well take advantage. We did take some pics the other night but they are inappropiate for NN lmao

Now that I am not quite so contagious give me some lovin's ya'll!

HAHA So I go to the doctor yesterday...and low and behold..I have pneumonia. How the hell does one catch pneumonia? I thought that was for extremely sick people, infants, elderly or you know some one who got lost in the Canadain woods for days.

Its really not as bad as I thought it would be..minus the part where I need to keep shoving my lung back down my throat. Oh and I now know why the call it pneumonia..the medicine I am on leaves an after taste quite similar to amonia I am sure *yuck*

The worst part was I was going away this weekend *sniff* but now I guess I need to cancel it. HAH basically I am allowed no contact with the human race *even though I had to wait 7!! hours at outpatients yesterday for the diagnosis* Good thing I am house sitting for my grandparents and they have a kick ass webcam and monitor...lol at least I can see people even if I can't touch them *like that isn't familiar lmao*

What the fuck is up with the weather?? yseterday it was freezing....today I could go outside with a tshirt. We've only had 2 snow storms all winter..normally we have 2 a week.

My poor body don't know whats wrong and I've been sick all winter. I am moving somewhere new very soon!

Ok on another thread we got into a huge discussion about what your list for things you want in a partner would look like. So my question will be similar. I want to know

YOUR LIST OF WHAT YOU LOOK FOR AND!! 3 THINGS YOU COULDN'T LIVE WITH IN SOMEONE

Wanna see what I have been spending my time doing?? As you can see I am not that good at this..but I have a lot of help and things can only get better...I hope lol