I am glad the weekend is over. Noramlly the May 2-4 long weekend is the start of summer with hot weather, camping and partying. But instead here is it unreal cold (think close to snow) and rainy all weekend. No fun at all. I had 2 days off so I was planning a nice long tanning session.

The past week loniless is starting to kick in a bit as Ive had some time off and with all the rain there hasn't been anything to do. Luckily my net friends (at least the ones who weren't away *glare* lol) were out there to talk to. One thing that put a huge smile on my face however was that I called my best friend on Sunday to talk to her and her 2 kids (lol even her hubby talked to me forever of course questioning my sex life)
Her littlest is 3 and has had trouble speaking. He can speak but his sister who is 5 likes to do everything for him so hes never really had to work at it. His mom passed him the phone and he was like MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNA!!! Me Love You!! Wow..can't beat that. Talk about sunshine on a cloudy day!
And it helped me because if a 3 year old hasn't forgotten me in an eternity (its been 5 weeks or so and at that age thats forever) then there is a chance everyone else remembers me and misses me too.

Kids and dogs always seem to know the right time to to show their love (lol maybe its time for me to get a dog??)

-spreading some homemade sunshine-

Woot last night I found a whole lot of my pics that were gone for good. That makes me sooooooooooooo happy. HAHA and for all who are not fans of my white corset/cherry pics I apologize now cause some are from that series.

On another note I found this pic and its one of my all time faves. Hope you like

GRRRRRRRRR

I think maybe I am just in a cranky mood from lack of human contact or something but some people just piss me off.

Today I was off from work and I am soooooooo bored. This town is kinda small and really until the summer hits there is not much to do. I have been to the casino a few times but thats not all that great cause I keep losing and I am too scared to play the card games.

Anyways so I came back to the resort and was going to use the pool/steamroom/sauna/hottub. I get there and there is a young french couple there. Of course the chick is stick thin and in a tiny bikini so already I feel uncomfortable. But I got over that and headed for the hottub since they were in the pool.

The chick gives me the eye, then smirks then starts making out and basically fucking the guy in the pool. Now I know some people would get off watching that but I didn't. Had they not known I was there it would have been on thing, but she was trying Not So Discreetly to make me jealous (and for the record the guy really wasn't that attractive) I wanted to jump in the pool and tell her if they were going to do that in public then I was joining in - however with my basic french I didn't think I could translate it LMAO.

BAHHH lack of sex just makes it worse. I never did like PDA's like that one but am I wrong? How do the rest of you feel about it??

Hopefully one of these prospects I've meet turns into something between the sheets lol

HAHA I guess no one cared for my story but thats cool. Some fantasies are best left inside the head anyways. Its funny...I like nudity and porn and erotica and such yet when I read or try to write erotica I find I can't bring myself to use words like cock, pussy, tits, etc. They just seem so strange for me to say/type.
Even trying to talk dirty is not something I can do...I can show my body nude yet I cant say a few words. Maybe if I could use them it would help me become more aggressive in persuing a partner.

Lazily Laura sat up and streched her body, remembering....

She saw TJ standing in the dark, smokey corner of the nightclub after hours. Surveying the remenants left of the night he never heard Laura come up behind him.
For nights she had watched the hunks comings and goings knowing exactly when he would be alone. Silently Laura made her way to him and touched his arm. TJ turned around and before he had a chance to question her, the 5'6" dark haired beauty wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him in for a kiss.
Normally not a man to throw caution to the wind, TJ was over come by surprise at her action, her smell, her look...her. Growling a noise of lust, he roughly pulled her in closer, settling her between his legs and his quickly hardening shaft.
Threading his hands through her long, soft hair, TJ kissed his way down her throat. Licking at her collar bone, even his tongue could feel the pulse of her racing heart. He made his way back up to her ear just at the same moment she choose to pull his tight tshirt out of his jeans, and run her manicured nails over his stomach. The hiss that escaped him turned her on even more and made her just that more brave.
Laura reached down and unbuttoned her shirt, revealing a pink bra that just barely contained her. Before she even has a chance TJ had his hands at her waist and was undoing her skirt and pushing it to the floor. The sight of her standing in the dimly lit room, in a matching pink bra, boyshort panties, and heels was something from a teenage fantasy.
Taking charge Laura placed her hands on the hem of his shirt and pulled it off. Walking behind him, she ran her hands over his back, the forward tracing the lines of his body. Still behind him Laura lowered her hands and undid the buttons on his jeans and slightly pulled them down. She continued to kiss and lightly touch his back, torturing him. Sliding around to his front, she squatted down and breathed in the scent of him. Looking up with her lust filled eyes, Laura smiled at TJ and with one tug pulled both is jeans and underwear down to his knees. Taking him in her hand she leaned forward and slowly licked him in long, sensual strokes............

heheh just some dumb link but it works

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I am so boring..I want to blog but I have nothing to blog about. I have no good jokes or anything exciting going on although things are going amazingly well *knock on wood*

I am 10 times happier than I have been in so long, and what a difference that makes in your life. I even am starting to look better and for anyone who knows me, me saying I am looking better is a big step in itself. I can't see I am losing weight but all my clothes are looser and the sweaters I never buttoned/zippered cause of my big old boobs now close with room to spare. As well running all over the hotel, standing all day, all the walks and the swimming is giving my my awesome legs back.

Plus whatever the hell happens in the sauna/jacuzzi makes my skin as soft as a baby's.

LOL for someone who had nothing to blog about I sure ramble on--sorry...

Maybe I should go work on a new xxx story...

ohh la la

today I went and had a massage done and omg I am in love. I think I may have even had a mini orgasm. My only complaint was that it was not long enough.
The one I went for today was a chair massage..basically you sit in a chair leaning forward wih your face resting on this spongy half cirlce thingy. Then she massaged my back and neck and ran her hands through my hair. OMG since I haven't had sex recently I think it was a close substitute. When she she squeezing my neck I thought my leg was going to start going like a dogs when they are happy ( luckily I contained myself hahahah).
Not bad though...$10 for 15 minutes. Next time I think I will get the 1/2 hour lay down massage..hehe and if its half as good maybe I should warn the massuse I may get "excited"

Just one thought..this is kinda replacing sex for me at the moment and I am paying for it......is this the same as paying a hooker?

27 WAYS T0 MAKE A GiRL SMiLE
1. tell her she is beautiful, not hott or fine. *yes but sometimes those work too *
2. hold her hand at any moment you can.
3. kiss her on the forehead. * yes please! I love it*
4. leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5. when she is upset, hold her tight and don't let her go.
6. recognize the small things. . they usually mean the most.
7. call her sweetie, not baby. * I like baby too *
8. sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is.
9. pick her over all the other girls you hang with.
10. write her notes [ she loves them ] . * yup! I even keep all emails *
11. introduce her to family&friends as your girlfriend.
12. play with her hair & if it smells good tell her.* mmmmm I LOVEEEEE this too *
13. pick her up, tickle her, and play wrestle with her.
14. pick her up and act like your going to drop her and she will scream and yell let her down even though she loves it.
15. tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, okay just tell her jokes.
16. throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because you miss her.
17. let her fall asleep in your arms.
18. carve your names into a tree.
19. if shes mad, kiss her.
20. give her piggyback rides.
21. bring her flowers just because.
22. treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.
23. let her take as many pictures as she wants.
24. slow dance with her even if there isn't music playing.* yup.just another excuse to hug *
25. kiss her in the rain.
26. take long walks on the beach at night with her.
27. and most importantly if you love her, tell her

LOL I looked back at the last blogs and pics I have taken and for a site that most deem a "sex' site I am really missing out on that (hah in more ways than one it seems)
Gone are my nude pics, the sexual blogs and well the second N in NN lol. How did this place become my outlet for life and for some odd reason how did the sexual side get tossed aside? Maybe its time for me to go looking for it again. I think maybe even time to write a new erotic story..only trouble is that my best writting came when I had someone to fantasize about. Maybe its time to go on a man hunt again

look out NN beach is on the prowl