Today I was totally, totally, TOTALLY taken off guard and was given the most amazing birthday gift.

Fisrt let me explain my day...I now hate my job. We are sooooo overwhelmed with work its not funny...but my boss thinks it is. He piles the work into every corner of the room he can find. Right now we are doing maybe 30 kitchens a month...and since we are not busy enough *rolls eyes* they decided to take on a contract for 500 kitchens by February...plus all regualr work too. ARRRRRGHGGGGGGGGGG. Anyways...my day finally ends and I am happy because tonight my pool league starts and I can't wait to get there to see all my pool buddies and find out who is on my team this year.

So I get home and enter my porch and there is this HUGE box waiting for me. Usually I am pretty reserved but not today. I ran up my stairs and couldn't wait to open it. I get the first box open and I find two very large pink (yippee) bags from Victoria Secret.
All my life Victoria Secret merchandise signafied the ultimate in sexiness, and it still does.
I carefully opened the first pink bag (so I can save it) and inside was a box. I open that and inside it is this lovely large black bag. As I am checking it out, I reach inside and there is all this tissue paper. I start pulling it out and there are things wrapped inside them. I am now a total kid, with the paper flying all around me. In the tissue I find.....Pure Reflection Ultra Shine Lipstick, Sweet Talk Shimmering Lip Gloss (strawberry), Very Sexy Lashes Intensifying Mascara, Dream Angels Heavenly Perfume, Dream Angels Heavenly Angel Touch Lotion, and Victoria's Secret Spa Pampering Foot Cream. I am literally squealing as I open, examine, smell and experience each item ( And you should know as I am sitting there feeling like a princess I am still in work clothes, covered in dirt and stain...but now smelling good).
Then I remembered...there is ANOTHER box. I quickly reach for that bag and am a lil less carefull opening it. Again I find another box...this time inside I find a beautiful burgandy box with a velour material covering it, leather straps and lil details. I open it up to find a huge bottle of perfume and lotion.
I am a pretty picky person with scents...I don't like anything flowery, or overly spicy. Nothing stong or too overbearing..but this scent was PERFECT. It literally is a dream.
I am soooooooo excited...then I find the best part of the gift...a lil tag that says Happy Birthday Sweety.
My dear, loving, sexy, wonderful, amazing, generous, thoughtful friend RAJ has just completely made my whole birthday..just like that. Its not the extravagance of the gift...its what it symbolized to me...1) A fantastic Friend who cares
2) It filled the desire from my previous blog to have just one person make a fuss over me
3) All the beautiful products made me in return feel beautiful too
You can bet your ass I went to pool tonight feeling on top of the world.

RAJ>>>you will never understand how much this gift meant to me. Even when the scent is long gone from the bottle the memory will live on forever inside of me.

I LOVE YOU
Beachy

OK this is a cranky blog so if you are in a good mood read no further.

I don't know what is wrong with me. All I want to do lately is cry. Today is my birthday and BTW a huge thank you to all who remembered and wished me a happy bday. As much as I am whining it truly makes me smile you thought of me. But something is just missing.
All I have ever wanted was for someone close to me to make a fuss over me for just one day. Whether it be a romantic someone, a parent, a friend..whatever. I know every year thats not going to happen and I get upset. But I can't figure out why. I am not a person who expects lavish gifts, or expects the world to stop because of me. In all honesty a surprise party would be nice but I think I would be uncomfortable being the centre of attention. I know birthdays aren't important and its the days in between that count.
Some days, especially lately I feel like I am looking for something that isn't out there. That maybe I live too much in a dream world. I don't mean I will never find a guy, its more that I wonder if even if I find someone I will keep looking for more and more. Maybe I just read too many romance novels where real life isn't like that.
This weekend was not what I had planned and maybe thats why I am feeling odd. No one but us determines our happiness. I just can't seem to find the path that is going to lead me there.
I am not looking for sympathy here..I am more just brooding. It helps me sort myself out and as much as I am being down it helps me keep my feet grounded.
Age doesn't bother me. I do not feel old or over the hill quite yet. Maybe I need to move to a cult (or form one) where you are worshipped for one day (not). Sigh even reading what I write I sound childish and ungreatful for what I have. Maybe I am sane and everyone else out there is effed up *grin*
To change the mood and end this positively I am listing a few things I can be proud of me for

1. I am totally independent. I work a full time job and pay all my own bills, rent, etc
2. I moved from home at age 15 and managed to finish high school and a course (that got me no where lol) by myself.
3. I am a good person no matter what some may think of me. I don't always do the right thing but I do have a heart of gold and would do anything so someone I am close too.

Ok so I am an ok person..I just need to find the person out there for me who thinks I am ok too. Then again maybe to hell with it and one night stands are the way to go. LOL in all honestly...maybe its the lack of sex thats effing my hormones up. Hmm time to go out on a mission and find some one interested in boinking me back to reality??

Good, Better, Best

GOOD:
A Saskatchewan policeman had a perfect spot to watch for speeders, but wasn't getting many. Then he discovered the problem - a 12-year-old boy was standing up the road with a hand painted sign, which read "RADAR TRAP AHEAD". The officer then found a young accomplice down the road with a sign reading "TIPS" and a bucket full of money.
And we used to just sell lemonade!)

BETTER:
A motorist was mailed a picture of his car speeding through an automated radar post in Edmonton AB.
A $40 speeding ticket was included. Being cute, he sent the police department a picture of $40. The police
responded with another mailed photo of handcuffs.

BEST:
A young woman was pulled over for speeding. As the Saskatchewan R.C.M.P. Officer walked to her car window, flipping open his ticket book, she said, "I bet you are going to sell me a ticket to the R.C.M.P. Ball.
"He replied, "Ma'am, Saskatchewan R.C.M.P. don't have balls." There was a moment of silence while she smiled, and he realized what he'd just said. He then closed his book, got back in his patrol car and drove off. She was laughing too hard to start her car.


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hehe I made it home. My arms are a lil tired from all the shopping but what a great way to spend the day. My bank card never even gave out (which is a miracle in itself)
I was supposed to be Christmas shopping but instead I went Beach shopping.
I bought a knit Roots hoodie sweater, a Roots tshirt, killer sex shoes *grin*, a wooden treasure box, a short silk robe, a set of the coolest perfume ever-you mix and match them to create unique scents, a new cell phone, some Vanilla Spice sparkly lip gloss, lots of Pepsi(you have to be from PEI to understand this one)plus...the coolest teddy bear ever! I got to pick the bear...then I watched them stuff the bear, then two of the people I was with added these lil X's and O's so the bear would be full of love. Then I got to dress the bear. I was in heaven. There was like 50 bear outfits...from Leather biker outfit, to cowboys (complete with boots), to fire fighters, etc. I could have spent all day in this one lil booth at the mall. In the end my new bear (Marissa) came home dressed in pink, satin Joe Boxer briefs and a Happy Birthday Bow. Too Cute.
I collect bear things and my favorite thing is a wooden bear Welcome Sign that I have that comes with wooden outfits for different seasons. The bear I got today was almost as cool as that.
LOL I sound like a child. Maybe I am getting younger on Sunday instead of older. I can handle that..as long as I stay of age life is good.

I am outta here for a day or two. Going shopping in New Brunswick and to see what trouble I can find */me hides the halo*
Somedays you just gotta let go and get away from stuff. HAppy perving all ..

mwahhhhhhhhh

I napped and I posted! My work for the day is done!! Well...once I go have a bath and make supper that is =0)

All revved up

beachy

I tried to put up new pics...but I keep getting an error. Oh well...at least I tried. I think I will go take a nap instead...oh...and I have Thursday and Friday off...so today was my friday..woohooo perv time here I come

Well today was ok. Not the best day ever but pretty good for a Tuesday. Although I really think some people need to clean the shit out of thier ears.
Beach: (in May) Can I have 5 days off in Sept
Boss YES no problem at all.

Beach (in July after reading a notice in cheque stub saying please let us know of your holidays)I am still planning on not taking days during the summer, but I want from Sept 15-21 off.
Boss: Great! Not a problem.

Beach (a month ago) Don't forget I am taking days in Sept
Boss: What?? When we are this busy...yeah yeah ok,lol

Beach (yesterday) OK...So I will be gone Thurs/Fri/Mon/Tues/Wed
Boss: WHAT??? There is too much to do. Blah blah blah, big guilt trip and so on.
Boss(to another co-worker when I left the room) Did you know she is taking Vacation? Why was that approved?????Does she.....etc

Beach (today) I guess I am only taking Thurs/Fri- But then I want 2 days in Oct
Boss Well I prefer you take no vacation but yeah ok

GRRRRRRRRRRR. I can see this same conversation happening in Oct. So now instead of a nice full week off I get 4 days. AND...Thursday I am getting 2 teeth pulled, Friday (if I feel ok) going away for the day, Saturday doing squat and Sunday celebrating my bday alone. WTF.

Good thing I am in a good mood or this might have really bothered me. *rolling eyes*

Wooohooo. I am having a great day (knock on wood hehe)
Have you ever had to make a decision and emotions and all that crap get in the way? You debate and debate over what to do but nothing seems right. Then BAM!! Outta the blue you find a way to solve your dilemma and its like a giant beam of sunlight smiling on you? LMAO ok so thats way beyond corny but what the hell I am loving life today.

As a few people noticed I pulled all my NN pics. Why?? I don't really have an anwser. I have been feeling out of sorts with so many things and it just seemed to be the right thing to do at the time. Someday I will study into why people want to be alone and unnoticed at a time when they need others around the most. HEHE for me I think its God's way of insuring I don't commit murder.

Anyways the happy beachy is back and I am happy...being black and gloomy isn't me. I am more of a pink or bright color. But for today I am going to be WHITE. I am reposting a few pics...starting with the white corset series cause I like them =0)

Thank you all for booting me from NN...but just a lil hint...my bday is coming...and a few pics in my honor would be nice (heh and if by some chance someone out there cares enough to do this PLEASE let me know so I don't miss the pic! Don't make me cry on my bday!)

Ekk Tomorrow is Friday-Normally thats a good thing but tomorrow I am going to get some wisdom teeth Xrayed and maybe pulled. LOL just so you all know..I do believe I am allergic to pain. It does horrible things to me and makes me cry. HEHE maybe I will get lucky and the dentist will be cute at least =0)
Looking forward to the weekend. I am babysitting my grandparents dog so I am headed there for the night on Saturday. Staying there isn't like your typical "old folks" place. They have every accessory for the computer and Tv, comfy furniture and thier webcam is the bestest cam I have ever seen...the damn thing works almost as well in the dark..with mine you need enough lighting that you think you are landing a plane. Now my only issue is wondering WHY they need such a good cam *shudder* My grandparents are the coolest ever but there is a limit there.

MWAHHHHHHH happy Day All =0)