The past 10 days have just seemed horrible. Everything was just wrong. My pc crashed and died, personable relationships were strained, my son is moving far away and I got another year older. I was very close to the edge of just falling apart with no sense of direction.
We had to baby sit my 14 month grand daughter for a few days but something happened. I bonded with her and found something truly important... family! Don't laugh, its all so true. At least for the moment it is sustaining me.
It helped me think about someone else and become less selfish. Maybe it helped in the relationship department. Now we have one thing in common. I definitely wasn't looking for anyone when I went to bed and the Lunesta was about to kick in. My wife asked me if I had taken it & i said yes.. "you're no good to me now she said". I quickly proved her very wrong. It was sweet to be together as husband and wife again if only for a short while.
But to day I do have a better outlook and I've stepped back from the edge. |