It's been a while since I spent nearly the entire day outdoors with my son. Reminded me of the old days. He left to go talk to his wife (2 hour drive) but he'll be back later tonight. The whole situation with them just doesn't look good for the future.

Meanwhile I'm a bit wind burn from out all day. The good part was I took over 400 photos at a race! Seeing all my friends was cool too!

My son's marriage is areal mess. He showed up last night after leaving his new wife. They've got real issues and all we can do is be as supportive as we can. We don't think they will make it very much longer. We believe she has "Borderline" personality which is just plain bad news.

Last night was one long talk session. He'll be here for the rest of the weekend.. we think!

My wife and daughter were out shopping for a wedding dress. She actually found one she likes that was below the amount we had budgeted for. That's amazing.

For now it's nice having the family back together like it used to be. It's cold outside like a real winter day. Tomorrow my daughter leaves for Oklahoma City because she somehow got tickets to see Coldplay in concert. It's worth the 8 hour drive according to her. She loves Coldplay.

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Oh shit! Is there really another day to go before this week is over!

There I was .. just sitting there watching a little TV when the phone rang. It was our counselor on the phone. "Didn't we have an appointment tonight?" he asked. It's tomorrow night I replied but after checking our calendar it was indeed tonight. Oh God! It I feel really stupid.

My wife kept reminding me it was Thursday so she went on to he pottery studio. Wait until she gets home and I tell her about the mix up. We both had it dead wrong.

Before I hung up the phone I apologized the best I could but I still feel like an idiot. We've already rescheduled.

I think everyone has some type of resentment building up against one issue or another. It's only human. This week has been very difficult for me at work. The owner of our company and our sales manager have been at a convention all week... But they're not working.. they just went so they can play golf every day while I hold down the fort doing the real stuff that earns them the chance to play golf.

Now this isn't really a big issue because that's the way the corporate world works. It's to be expected. On a more personal note it's always resentment that keeps my wife & I at odds most of the time. She thinks I just make her feel like whatever she does just isn't enough. It's a quick response no matter the situation. It is now the default answer. Maybe it does have some truth but the double edge sword swings both ways.

Since most of you are on NN because of the sexual content we'll go there. She thinks that I'm just interested in sex to make myself feel good. Hmmm.. now that may not be so far off the mark but for an entirely different set of reasons.

I'm not interested in sex to make myself feel good about the sensations etc.. but rather It makes me feel good to feel wanted. or desired. Is that truly wrong?

It seems she's never ever interested so I don't even try anymore. That only breeds more of the same. So then once every freakish time I even make an advance she cries foul. And yes, my default response is nearly always the same too. Usually I find myself muttering under my breath yet denying I feel nothing hurtful towards her.

It's a cycle that just keep going around and around with end in sight. When we do try to talk about it she always seems to bring a better argument to the table. And I sulk in my own misery only to duke it out on a different day with similar results.

The day is fading quickly. It's time to curl up in front of the fireplace to just cool it down. I made a blunder by trying to step into the shower with my wife after a hard day in the yard. Yikes! Does she resent me that much?

We just finished raking all the leaves in our yard And our neighbor's house. I missed the football game on TV but at least the job is finished. Only two more hours before it gets dark again. Oh how I missed daytime savings time.

We've nearly decided on the venue for my daughter's wedding. Only a few more places to check out before we enter into a contract and check a check for the deposit. My daughter is very excited and we're very happy for her.

A week ago my daughter got engaged and yesterday my married son called to say his wife is now pregnant. OMG! Crap, that means I'm going to be a grandfather... talk about feeling old.

On the other hand that pregnancy isn't something my wife wanted to happen anytime soon for a whole different set of reasons. Last night it opened up relationship wounds of our own. It wasn't a fun night at all. We've polarized positions that we can't seem to bridge. Real life sucks but it does go on.

The flash flood hit our business back on Sept 15th. Tomorrow I should be able to move back into my own work area. The carpeting went in today and tomorrow I get my new computer installed complete with twin flat screen monitors. I must be living large!

The parking lot was dark and before I knew it she was tugging at my zipper. In only a few moments I found myself rock hard. Even though I knew it was dangerous, I didn't want her to stop touching me. The excitement was exhilarating. There wasn't stoking but rather a pulsating grip that made my mind go blank.

Deep down there was an urge that I fought to contain but it was useless. Moments later there was a surge that surely any man might have difficulty trying to describe. So I find myself thing what if?