Well, Monday morning...Just wasting time before my interview for the best paying job I could get right now...heheeee
And to top it off, the weekend was a blast!
Friends took me out to a bar here in town (ok it's every Saturday now that we go) and I did NOT get drunk (unlike what some people are saying that I'm "drinking away my problems"
yeah, bite me. I'm not doing that. I go out and have fun.
Anyway, I bumped into an old friend on the patio and the girls told him that he had to dance with me before the night was over...he did. And to top it off it was the song we dedicated to each other back when our feelings were "blossoming". It was sort of ironic in a way...(maybe you had to be there)
Brooks & Dunn and Reba - If you see him, If you see her (Country) The song describes us very very well and detailed.
It was cool to see him after all this time...and the feelings are still there for him and vice versa...
We didn't date back then over other issues (both not ready to be in a relationship at the time)
He drove me home, we talked for hours about what we've been up to, past relationships (recent ones) etc...and then I got the "well, if you're single, do you think we could start off slow" speach...hahahaha I love that speach.
So I explained to him three things:
1. I promised someone that I would give him time to figure shit out. I'm not getting any answers, so I'm thinking its time to move on...
2. I have an interest in someone else, but at this time, I'm not sure where it would go as there is some huge distance issues I'm concerned about.
3. I'm scared as hell to get hurt again...I'm tired of broken hearts, broken promises and shattered dreams.
So, what to do?
My friends are telling me that #1 and #2 need to be put in my past and move forward...#3 will always be there and I will have to work thru it...
What does everyone think?
I don't want to hurt anyone here...
Are my friends right?
Should I try things with this guy?
I mean, yes, the feelings are there, yes, we get along like best friends, yes, he is supportive of the kids, great job, house, car etc etc...
Hmmm, I see the pros and can't find the cons right now with him.
Anyway, tree planting memorial went over well. We planted a Hemlock for him. The service was short and very well put together. I spoke to the funeral director that did Dad's service, he remembered the family and was amazed that my mom has held it together...then he thanked me for keeping her going.
I'm known as the family rock...
Ok, I gotta get my butt in gear...I have a 35 minute drive to the interview...PS> It's the 2nd interview for this job...
woohooo, wish me luck...
TTYS mwah
~Brat~
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I'm soo frustrated with it.