To share or not to share
There are no big secrets and nothing really to hide. I am just very frustrated. I wanted so badly to be able to move along with my life this fall.
I will be upfront, for now.
I had hoped to be able to get a job but the reality of it is that I still can't. I am a single mom and have a disabled child. I am taking small steps to explore new avenues in hopes of finding an answer to my internal dilemma. My problem is I want it to happen NOW!! Reality is telling me I have to be patient and it will come in time.
I feel that at this point in time I should be able to do what I want to. I have fought so hard to get my son everything he has needed and had hoped that once he was somewhat settled it would be time for me to accomplish some things, not just for myself but for all of us (me my daughter and son) That has been looking less and less likely as Sept. goes by.
I know I am doing the right thing but want to do so much more.
Stymied,
ju

shy? insane? sensible? afraid?
I have been blogging here since, well, blogs began and yet I have never really said anything. It blows my mind the number of views I have. I keep thinking it would be good for me to start a "real" blog somewhere. Ultimately that scares the hell out of me too. I have so much to say and yet I fear saying it. Online you are supposedly anon, that is untill you get to know too many people.
I would love to spill my guts and have a half way interesting blog. That aint gonna happen anytime soon,
UNverbose and wondering,
ju

met someone who is so totally full of shit they can't even keep their own lies straight?
Watch your asses my friends they walk among us. All you have to do is stop being baffled by bullshit and a few "sexy" pics.
Wondering when shit will hit the fan, if anyone wakes up enough to see it coming.
ju

Home really is where the heart is. I never feel quite as at home anywhere other than my fave campsite. It had been 2 years since we have been up there and damn I missed it. I also found out it had missed me when the park warden came strolling down the path and gave me a big hug to welcome me back.
This is perhaps my fave part of camping. My rock.



I go there near sunset when the beach is deserted, empty my brain and just bask in the serenity of it all.



That is part of the view from my rock I sit there until the stars come out, there is no light pollution so the night sky is incredible.

Of course you aren't really camping without a fire.



I don't need tv or music when I am sitting around the fire, the flames are mesmerizing and oddly soothing bring me a calm I feel nowhere else.

And of course if you know me at all you know I can't stay clean for even a minute.



That was with crocs on!!

I had such a good time I didn't want to come back, but then again I never do when I am up there.
There is always next year.
ju

if you have heard of the Tragically Hip.
All you have to do is head north for an hr or so from my place and hang a left



I left your house this morning about a quarter after nine
Coulda been the Willie Nelson coulda been the wine
When I left your house this morning
It was a little after nine
It was in Bobcaygeon I saw the constellations
Reveal themselves one star at a time

Drove back to town this morning
With working on my mind
I thought of maybe quitting
Thought of leaving it behind
Went back to bed this morning
And as I'm pulling down the blind
The sky was dull and hypothetical
And falling one cloud at a time

That night in Toronto with its checkerboard floors
Riding on horseback and keeping order restored
Til the men they couldn't hang
Stepped to the mic and sang
And their voices rang with that Aryan twang

I got to your house this morning just a little after nine
In the middle of that riot
Couldn't get you off my mind
So I'm at your house this morning
Just a little after nine
Cause it was in Bobcaygeon where I saw the constellations
Reveal themselves one star at a time.

Wishing I could stop singing that damn song every time I drive past that damn sign,
ju

and as promised I took a bunch of pics, only one of which was a nekkid kind I will go thru them all later or tomorrow and fill you in on a few of the highlights.
Right now I just want to chill for a bit.
Missed you guys!!
ju

I am ever so grateful to be neither a blond nor a brunette. They are some totally fucked up bitches!

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I am ready to go, everything is ready cept for the last min cooler things and of course all of our clothes etc.
I am off tomorrow morning to do my fave thing in the whole wide world (other than sex ;P)
Gone camping!!!
ju

Tonight was a totally unexpected and more than welcome suprise.
Can you say blast from the past?
mz caught me on yahoo, it has been almost a year since we have spoken and it felt like yesterday! (go perv ladies and gents he is a hottie!).
A few mins after I finished talking to him bootz arrived! Again it was like no time what so ever had passed. Bootz is another hottie well worth a perv!
Both of them such sweethearts that I had missed.
Glad to have old friends back again,
ju

Kids are out the door. Im off for a good perv.
Enjoying me time,
ju