kotek001
Gift PremiumI am a seeker, explorer, and enjoyer. My life is filled with love, joy, and happiness. I am immensely grateful for all my experiences and strive to use them for self-growth. The more grateful I am, the more reasons I find to be grateful. It makes me feel like heaven to explore my potential and find new ways to express myself. It also puts me in sync with nature. I am glad to be a man. My sexuality is a sacred part of me. I love to continually develop and improve myself. Every day I concentrate on taking one step forward, however small.
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Monday, August 24, 2009, 10:53:23 PM- Unexpected and unplanned | ||||||
My life has changed quite dramatically since starting the NLP trainers course and suspending my nude photo activity. I spend a lot of time in the city walking around, meeting people and taking photos. I'm in an increasingly close relationship with the circle of street artists -- fireshow performers in particular. I am kind of a permanent photographer for various troupes performing in Warsaw's Old Town, attending as many shows as possible, and taking a lot of photos during each. No wonder I have already quite a number of pics and there are some new almost every day. Some of the photos are really impressive. One day I was advised by some members of a troupe to apply to the Ministry of Culture and National Heritage for permission and help in making an exposition of my works. I have contacted the Ministry. They told me to file a petition. Some of my fireshow photos, along with other stuff, are available on my official blog, [url]http://grzegorzluc.pl/[/url]. There are lots more pics waiting to be published. The blog is in Polish, but it is the pictures that matter in the first place, not the words. Speaking of blogs, I have started another one, a bit unusual. I am going to put stuff of various kinds there, with nude photos as the main attraction. A blog seems to be a great idea: it gives you a lot of flexibility. You can post series of photos as photo-stories, add text telling about your thoughts and feelings, name places that you visit -- all in one place. This can be really amazing, I think. I have just prepared a batch of old photos for posting. They were taken last year. Oh, what an incredible and inspiring experience it was! I have a feeling as if I've lost something. The good news is that it can be easily regained. All that is needed is a decision. OK, and now a surprise. The other day I took a bike ride and visited some nice places. While there, I couldn't bear not to take some nude photos. I didn't plan it and didn't prepare for the session -- I wasn't shaved. My face wasn't shaved, that is, but it doesn't show in the photos. The session was a lot of fun and the feeling was great, but the price was also impressive. I made a lot of jumps onto a hay roll which made the skin on my legs sore and red. I'm going to post a photo in a while and another one a bit later. | ||||||
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Thursday, June 11, 2009, 8:50:20 PM- New photo | ||||||
Yes, it's true! In a moment a new photo will show up in my gallery. Ha ha, it's a surprise for myself. I didn't plan it, but today it's a holiday and the weather was nice. I took a bike ride and I couldn't bear not to take an opportunity for a nice shot. Hope you will enjoy. | ||||||
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Sunday, May 24, 2009, 2:18:11 PM- Entering new areas | ||||||
-- What do I do about a too difficult question? -- Is there any such thing as a too difficult question in existence? -- Um, a one you don't know how to answer. -- It's just a question you don't know how to answer. That was the first glimpse I've gotten of the trainer's attitude at my NLP course. I loved it. Last Sunday the first session ended. Thereafter I payed a visit to a very nice girl. We'd been fucking for 2 hours. Low-speed thrusts, high nervous tension over a prolonged period. It took its toll. Monday was an exceptional day for me. My whole body was in pain and I was breathing shallowly. That was mighty cool. I just love such kind of experiences. My cock is fine again -- the foreskin is back in its place and it looks normal. No new photos for some time. And it may be a long time, ha ha. If you want fucking pics, forget it, it's out of the question. | ||||||
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Thursday, May 14, 2009, 12:49:49 PM- Continuity uncertain | ||||||
Moderators accepted the cow. Whew! I was afraid they might object because of her head being so close to a cock. Contacts between cocks and dogs or other animals are sometimes viewed as not quite appropriate. And it's true that she liked to lick. She licked the saddle of my bike. OK, enough jokes. I'm starting an NLP Trainers course tomorrow. Soon I'm going to possess both love of nudity and its open exposure, and advanced mind skills. What a combination! My participation in that course will inevitably have some impact on my photo activity. There will be 11 weekend sessions by the end of October. 11 weekends with, very likely, no new photos. Some interruptions in the flow of my photos are very possible. | ||||||
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Tuesday, May 12, 2009, 12:51:08 PM- It doesn't need to fuck to survive | ||||||
There's a story of a well known hypnotherapist, Dr. Milton H. Erickson. He used the cactus as a metaphor for people, and would often get his patients to grow and save cactus as part of their therapy. The entire treatment of one of his patients, an active alcoholic, consisted of one lengthy session in which Erickson told the man about the Desert Botanical Garden in Phoenix, Arizona and a particular species of cactus. This cactus has the ability to survive for three years without water which was a clear analogy to the patient's ability to survive without alcohol. I heard a version of the story in which Erickson had the patient to sit next to a cactus for half an hour each day for a month or so. "It doesn't need to drink to survive, and neither do I", his subconsciuos mind finally grasped. When I sat beneath the birch tree, this story immediately popped up in my mind. This photo is unusual, funny and absurd. And absurdity is very valuable. Last Sunday my creativity led me to even more absurd idea. I was looking at pine trees with shoots -- an obvious phallic shape. My thoughts started wandering. I ended up with an idea of... hmm... kind of a man and a tree satisfying each other. That could be an interesting reference to the photo with the birch tree. Photos with animals in sexual activity are forbidden on NN, but not with plants. So called plantophilia, I guess. I think they will likely add "or plants" to Content Restrictions if I post such a pic. "Contain Animals or Plants in sexual activity" -- wow, that would be weird. Unfortunately, I didn't take any photos because of bad weather. | ||||||
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Saturday, March 28, 2009, 11:50:41 PM- You can never enter the same river twice | ||||||
Today I took a short bike ride to the river shown in some of my photos. It is named Vistula or Wisla in Polish. Oh, what a sad view! Erosion of the riverbank is very dramatic and trees on the riverbank continue to topple into the river. The beautiful pine tree under which I sit in the "Contemplating what lies ahead" photo is gone! Oh, what a loss. What's more, the trees shown in the "Enjoying a breath of fresh air" photo are soon going to follow its fate. On the other hand, my photo now has historical value. A view gone forever. | ||||||
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009, 1:47:10 PM- I've been seen | ||||||
"How's the water, my little buddy? You are almost completely immersed, so you should be able to tell." That is what I meant by previous Saturday photo title. OK, never mind. Previous Monday, March 16 was a special day for me: 3 years since I signed up for NN. Not much of a reason for celebration, but I did something interesting anyway. Inspired by this story: [url]http://laist.com/2008/05/12/the_land_withou.php[/url], I wasn't wearing pants that day. The feeling was awesome. I was turned on all day long and my little buddy was excited too. Well, I'm still not wearing pants. Now, after over a week of this new behavior it feels quite normal. OK, to the point. If you post to a website your nude photos with full face visible it's natural to ask yourself "Will I be recognized?". Meeting somebody who has seen the photos could be an exciting experience and an opportunity for fun. I used to imagine such a scene: several girls look at me giggling and one of them says "We have seen your pics on NewbieNudes, ha ha". Completely unruffled, I reply "And leaving some comments was too much effort for you, huh?". I was convinced that most people couldn't recognize me even face-to-face, and even if they did, they wouldn't admit and approach me. And here's a surprise. Recently I received a PM from an NN user who believed to have seen me. He might well be right--I was indeed in the time and place that he mentioned. And boy, is it hard to recognize anybody in such circumstances: fully dressed, riding a bicycle in darkness. On the next day while "in the field" taking photos, I was seen by a passer-by. He approached me and we started talking. He turned out to be a photographer himself and a nude beach lover. I told him about my photos and posting them. He seemed to be just a gay guy hoping to see me naked. The conversation was a great eye-opener to me. It showed me very clearly how important it is to be relaxed, confident and enthusiastic when approaching someone, and to acknowledge their experience and current frame. He definitely lacked some of those which turned me off and got him "rejected". I just didn't feel like being photographed by him. But never mind that guy. I failed miserably myself. I failed to stay within the appropriate frame, that is. I could tell him incredible things, surprise him, charm him, astound him, inspire him, and leave him in awe. I could get him to take some photos of me with him and with other people. At least attempt to. Instead I was wary and defensive. The thing is to have a strong frame and to stay within it, no matter what. So "I am happy to be pointed to this thing and I am amazed at how easy and exciting it will be to achieve significant improvement in this regard", also "I am allowing my mind to make any necessary changes and I know that all I need is already inside me, it just needs to be revealed". I'm looking forward to new, fascinating encounters. | ||||||
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Monday, March 2, 2009, 4:48:59 PM- Sometimes it is just given | ||||||
Last Wednesday, February 25 was a historic day for me. I spent the evening with an extremely gorgeous Italian girl. Well, no sex, and even no kissing. Maybe I was a bit overly concerned about her being engaged. She was so incredibly responsive, what could have happened if I started kino escalating? Uh, I didn't remember how to check if it's OK to go for a kiss. Squeeze her hand?--She should squeeze it back. The whole thing was a clear manifestation of the Law of Attraction. We met at a conference: [url]http://tdlevent.com/[/url]. We were sitting side by side. After first seeing her I labeled her "very hot, definitely unattainable as yet" and didn't even consider opening her. But then everything went all by itself and we ended up in a nice restaurant smiling, talking, laughing, and looking each other deep in the eyes. I think that the motivational and hypnotic stuff that I have been using for a while now greatly contributed to the easiness with which I entered that incredible state of mind. Ha ha, it truly works wonders! OK, what does it mean to my activity here? I entered a new world. Last Friday night I was considering quitting. But on Saturday, and then on Sunday the weather was perfect, I decided to make shoots and was very lucky selecting locations for them. I have taken 12 nice pics in total. So for now there's no change and photos keep flowing. But there's no guarantee of any kind either. Hooray! I've just received a reply from her. She hopes to meet me during the conference next year. Wow! | ||||||
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Tuesday, February 17, 2009, 3:34:08 AM- Ask and it is given | ||
Last Sunday I was riding my bike and walking in the woods hoping for new photos. I decided to target some nearby hills. There was a beautiful, little branchy pine tree there which seemed just perfect for a photo. I wanted to have a pic of me on the tree, but it was clear that due to short camera's self-timer time I would need help from another person. As kind of a joke I braced myself tightly and expressed a wish that somebody show up and take a photo for me. After looking closely however, I changed my plan and forgot about that wish. I started preparing. While undressing, I heard some noise nearby. Two guys on horses were approaching me. They were smiling kindly and asked if my bike was OK or I needed help. Then they just passed me by. Hey, what is going on here? I say a wish for help and in a few minutes two extremely nice guys appear out of nowhere offering their help! Now, what could happen if I asked them to take a photo: "Well, I'm kind of an artist, you know. Don't you think it's a perfect scenery? Just look at this beautiful pine tree, the shape and colors... truly astounding, isn't it? I'd like to have a photo of me standing on it's branches and would be more than happy if you took a while to help me out with that... I will take off my clothes to emphasize unity with nature, it's artistic nudity, you know, much appreciated today". What's the worse thing that could have happened? They could have laughed at me, insulted me, called the cops. Cops? That's absurd! Cars can't even get to that place. Anyway, there was no real threat to me, but the possible reward was very high, I believe. The photo will be posted on Wednesday night GMT. In this case the thumbnail gives a poor idea of the actual picture, so it will be easy to just pass it over. | ||
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Thursday, February 5, 2009, 4:46:43 PM- What's in the title | ||||||
It's a field of wheat I believe, exactly the one in which I took the "Field inspector at work" photo. I'm inspecting it and saying blessings to make the crops more valuable. It's something like the experiment by Masaru Emoto: [url]http://www.life-enthusiast.com/twilight/research_emoto.htm[/url] Too bad he didn't try RnB music. I'm very curious about its effects. | ||||||
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