kotek001
Gift PremiumI am a seeker, explorer, and enjoyer. My life is filled with love, joy, and happiness. I am immensely grateful for all my experiences and strive to use them for self-growth. The more grateful I am, the more reasons I find to be grateful. It makes me feel like heaven to explore my potential and find new ways to express myself. It also puts me in sync with nature. I am glad to be a man. My sexuality is a sacred part of me. I love to continually develop and improve myself. Every day I concentrate on taking one step forward, however small.
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Sunday, February 1, 2009, 11:39:47 PM- What's in the title | ||||||
"If they see them, then they see them, hey ho." I love it, gtwcw. It would be an important test for myself, "enough sermonizing, let's see who you really are." I admit that usually I have a hard time thinking up a title for my photo. I definitely agree that "Summer came..." is a poetic one. The pic reminds me of video for a great song. I used a quote from that song as the title. Just in case you're not quite sure, here it is: [url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NqZqIGPGdGQ[/url] Oh, how I love it! And let me remind you that photos which I post on Sundays throughout winter were taken in "good times" of summer and spring. They show up in reverse chronological order. There are 8 or 9 more to be posted. | ||||||
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Sunday, February 1, 2009, 5:05:32 AM- Scary dream | ||||||
It happened several weeks ago. It was both scary and funny. There were a number of stories in the dream. I remember only one of them, very short in fact. My mother was sitting in front of a computer, viewing my nude photos on NN. It was that specific kind of feeling, like "I must do something". I turned the monitor over so the screen was facing down (in reality in wouldn't be so easy). Now that it's late at night or rather early in the morning, I'm eating peanuts and sipping beer while writing this it seems to me so unreal and funny. The truth is that I am less and less concerned about the possibility of my pics being seen by somebody who knows me. For my parents it would probably be quite a shock, but I choose my actions based on faith and hope, not fear. Ah, some of you may say "Hey, why haven't you shown your great pics to your family yet? They would be delighted." Thanks in advance, but I'm in slight disagreement on this. | ||||||
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Tuesday, January 27, 2009, 1:53:32 AM- Is it the end already? | ||||||
Yesterday the Law of Attraction proved a bit whimsical for me. I was shooting photos on a lake. Suddenly a woman approached and stood nearby. Obscured by trees, she was talking on the phone. It was late, the weather was nice, there were prospects for several photos, so I didn't want to interrupt my shoot. I went on with my photo attempts, ready to greet her with "Could you perhaps help me with this work?". She almost certainly saw me, but wasn't intrigued, it seems. Three pics yesterday, to be posted Wednesday through Friday. The last one in a spring scenery. Wow, what a feeling! If it's already the end of winter, all I have to say is: it was nothing. Taking all those photos on snow was easy and exciting. It had almost no negative impact on my health and well-being, and there was no problem with my feet getting dirty. Winter is wonderful. Now all I hope for is a photo of me in water, in a lake. Oh, and maybe some more winter pics in the mountains. Then I would gladly move on to crumpled, then green grasses, first leaves of trees, meadows with spring flowers and everything else that spring brings. | ||||||
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Friday, January 9, 2009, 11:39:59 PM- Winter photos | ||||||
I'm back home. I had very nice holidays. They were very successful in terms of my photo activity. The weather was wonderful, my planning was successful, I was lucky to take nice photos and avoid getting caught. Ah, exactly, this reminds about the notion of window of opportunities. It happens to me again and again. I finish shooting a picture, start dressing and right away people show up. Just imagine: a mountain road, people passing by. I'm waiting for a window of opportunities or a break in the traffic and hope it will suffice to take a photo. Finally a window opens. I undress and start the shoot. 3 attempts. The last one seems good. The wind is strong and terribly chilling. "OK, that's it, finish." As I'm dressing back, some people appear at the end of the visible section of the road. Wow, what a feeling! What would I tell them, if asked about my behavior? "It was kind of an experiment", "I was testing my abilities", "I was meditating", "I wanted to know how it feels", "I wanted to have some fun..." I will post that photo tomorrow, on Saturday, January 10. Planning the pics is also very important. If you are constantly moving, covering a distance, you just use the sceneries you pass as best you can. But if you are in a specific area for longer time, for example skiing in the mountains, you have to assume a different approach. You get familiar with the area and select settings for you pics. You give yourself lots of time for each photo and for recovery from cold. You relax and enjoy landscapes, people, music, weather conditions, everything that surrounds you. No need to hurry. When it's time to take photos, you're still at ease. It's like taking a step beyond. At first, in the morning, a shot in the West direction. Then the sun moves westwards and you can shoot to the East, then even to the South-East. Yes, only 3 photos. If it's quietly, the cold is not a big deal and it may be even pleasant. Except for your feet. Using sandals helps, but snow eventually gets in and makes you chill. In windy weather recovering from freeze takes a while, even if you are skiing. And wind takes its toll on your body: my back started aching, more and more with each shoot. I have to say, that my plan went just perfectly. I took some more indoor pics. One of them I find especially important. It shows me with a dog in an interesting pose. On the display of my phone it seemed to look good and extremely funny, but on a computer monitor--oops!--awfully fuzzy. I did what I could to improve on it, but it's still far from good. | ||||||
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Wednesday, December 31, 2008, 11:46:22 PM- What about new photos? | ||||||
A nice winter evening in the mountains. It's almost sunset. The sun casts a beautiful pink glare on the snow. I'm standing naked in a road, viewing the photos that I have just taken. My dog is sitting quietly beside me. Suddenly a girl around my age with a dog appears at a bend in the road and starts approaching me. Her dog gets furious seeing mine who starts walking towards him. There's no time to clothe, I must act immediately. I put my phone down and, completely naked, chase the dog. After catching him I put my undies and sandals on. The girl looks at me curiously and smiles, passes me by with her angry dog barking terribly, then stops, points at my phone and tells me her number. "Call me at 9," she adds and goes away. Uh, this was only a fantasy. Yesterday something similar happened to me. Similar, ha ha... Unfortunately, the differences were quite significant. OK, I'm still at my parents' place. I expected to have Internet access here, but it's no go. I'm writing this using my cell phone. I posted several older pics from an Internet cafe. What about new ones? I have taken 3 indoor photos. They are quite nice, I think. And outdoor pics? Well, I have very good news. 8 photos of true winter, mountain sceneries. Not too many, but it's quality what matters in the first place. Now, what you soon will see is absolutely incredible. Forget lakes, rivers, fields and animals. Forget everything that you've seen. Want to know what outdoor nudity can mean? Want to see it taken to extreme? My new pics are absolutely stunning, the last 3 of them in particular. I'm starting posting them by the end of this week. Hmm, maybe a short description "How does it feel to take such photos" before? | ||||||
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Thursday, December 11, 2008, 4:34:37 PM- Photo shoots and feelings | ||||||
The photo with the naked tree I took by chance. I wanted to remake the picture with the rose bush. Unfortunately, I failed doing so. I was already on my way home, when I saw the tree. Oh, there was beautiful mist there. It dissolved before I took the photos which made me a bit angry. Who knows, maybe they are better this way? The problem was that I forgot to take my sandals. What my feet experienced wasn't very funny. Yesterday's photo shoot was moderately successful. It was really cold, I was standing naked quite a number of times, sometimes for quite long. Just imagine standing in cold, manipulating the camera and looking around to see if there is anybody around. I would probably be considered a complete fool if spotted by a passer-by. I expected I would feel bad afterwards, that maybe I would be even a bit sick as it happened twice already. But I felt quite good. Haha, I even took a cold shower after getting back home and I'm fine. Cool! | ||||||
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Sunday, December 7, 2008, 11:53:20 PM- A sad, yet funny story | ||||||
I woke up late. The weather was bad, totally cloudy. But I have only two photos left for posting. I checked mail and NN, had a breakfast. "Hurry up, hurry up!" Something to eat, hot coffee, a sweater, sandals (essential in this time of year). Finally I'm ready. My target: a nearby lake and its surroundings. I'm taking my bike out of the basement and... fuck! a flat tire! "OK, it's not that late, I'll fix it." The tube is unrepairable. I have two others which are punctured, but I should be able to repair them. One has two holes. "Eh, maybe the other one." One big hole. I'm applying a patch, pressing. Should be OK. Remounting. "Hurry up, it's getting late." Inflating. "Oh, no, not this!" Air immediately escapes. The glue didn't stick well. OK, I'm starting over. This time I'm more careful. More glue, waiting longer for it to dry. Remounting, attaching the pump to the valve, inflating. The same again! "What a fucking shit!" How come I'm so vulnerable? This is what concerns me most. I can do nothing. A lot of time wasted and no result. No new photos! I'm about to leave the basement, when suddenly... Hey! Oh, my goodness! Here's a package containing--yes!--a shiny new tube. It was here all the time! I could simply mount it and leave. Well, what is comforting is that I'm not that vulnerable. I had a spare tube, I just forgot about it and didn't notice it sitting right in front of my nose. It's about emotions. Did you feel them? Ah, nevermind, the emotions are tapped into when listening, not necessarily when reading. Unfortunately, it was a true story. That work made me so hot that I decided to take a cold shower. Wow, what a pleasure it was! I wish I did it every morning, but it's usually so cold that I need some time to warm up first. Ah, an important thing. Last Saturday I took a very beautiful photo (in my oh-so-humble opinion, ha ha). It's an interesting story by the way, maybe I'll tell you next time. I will post the photo on Tuesday, December 9th. The thing is that I find it so lovely (although not quite successful), that I'm considering placing it in the "Artistic Nudes" category. What's more, NN gives you the opportunity to re-categorize your photos, so maybe it's a good idea to move some of my past works to that category as well? | ||||||
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Sunday, November 2, 2008, 12:04:54 AM- Help for tough times | ||||||
So here they are. It was obvious they would come, yet many, startled and unprepared become disgruntled and complain or even fall into depression. Tough times have come and that's just the beginning. It will certainly get worse. Of course the problem only exists in the Northern Hemisphere and far from the equator, but that is where most users live. Fall and winter, cold, rains and snow. My approach is to consider it all a challenge rather than a curse, but I definitely agree that it's not the most pleasant time of the year. My idea, my solution to the problem of cold and short days is posting photos taken during wonderful time of spring and summer. Some of them simply were not expressive enough or too similar to other ones to be posted back then. Now they may be a nice remembrance of those past days and give hope for next summer. I have 19 photos that I'm determined to post and 4 which I'm hesitating about. There are 17 Sundays in November through February. I'm going to upload one of those pics every Sunday. The last one should go out somewhere in March or early April. I'm starting this Sunday, November 2. Of course the photos are diverse in quality and value, but some of them I truly love. So, enjoy and hold on until spring! | ||||||
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Tuesday, October 28, 2008, 11:28:58 PM- My Sunday bike ride | ||||||
Daylight Savings Time ended last weekend. Talking how absurd this idea is would be just a waste of time. Moving clock's hands by an hour back and forth -- it's not even ridiculous, just pathetic. Sunsets are early. Unfortunately I have some problems with leaving home at decent time, so after getting to a location and taking a couple of photos I can experience first-hand the scarcity of daylight. I managed to take a few pics last Sunday, three of which I have already posted. But the bike ride has given me a lot of other benefits. Nice weather, beautiful sceneries (I look around almost all the time), cold, early dusk giving the sense of adventure, relying only on myself and the equipment, some risk involved -- it was amazing, stimulating and tough. I just loved it. | ||||||
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Saturday, October 25, 2008, 12:04:51 PM- The real challenge | ||||||
Recently I've been challenged on public nudity photos. The pic with plowman was nice, but it could be much, much better if only one thing was different. This one thing is obviously my interaction with that guy. What if I stood right next to him and held his hand or otherwise indicated some kind of interaction with him? This is the real challenge. Nevermind the pics themselves. It's about getting some of the most precious skills one can have: unconditioned confidence, composition and social status. A great example of which we can find in the Bible: "As Jesus was walking beside the Sea of Galilee, he saw two brothers, Simon called Peter and his brother Andrew. They were casting a net into the lake, for they were fishermen. <<Come, follow me,>> Jesus said, <<and I will make you fishers of men.>> At once they left their nets and followed him." (Matthew 4:18-20, New International Version) That's it: at once. The level of confidence and social status that Jesus had was surely somewhat higher than average. | ||||||
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