michaell1's Blog

Sunshine alludes us as we make it thru the day.
Rain drops falling.
Hope for a gentle breeze.
Wanting piece in someone's arms.
Clinging to hope.
Worried about acceptance.
Letting go of yesterday.
Learning to fly again.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

“There are only two days in the year that nothing can be done. One is called Yesterday and the other is called Tomorrow.
Today is the right day to Love, Believe, Do
and mostly Live.

“You never know how strong you are until being strong is your only Choice.

Hold on to what is good even if it is a handful of earth.
Hold on to what you believe even if it is a tree which stands by itself.
Hold on to what you must do even if it is a long way from here.
Hold on to life even when it is easier letting go.
Hold on to my hand even when I have gone away from you."

“In the end there doesn’t have to be anyone who understands you. There just has to be someone who wants to.”

My cancer is back.

Fate said to the warrior.
You can not withstand the storm.
And the warrior replied,
I am the storm.

NAMASTE

Sending much love to all

Don't look for a partner who is eye candy, look for one
who is soul food.

Having a deep conversation with someone who has a brilliant mind
and a beautiful soul is a new way of making love.
I have some friends here I always call beautiful,
but the thing is I am not just talking about the outside.

Be your own kind of beautiful!

It is so strange how beautiful autumn is, yet everything
is dying

Men, we don't need you to be a knight in shining armor. We just need you to be a little bit brave, just a little bit."
–Virginia Madsen, who turns 54 today
A knight in tattered armor would be best, because you see,
they are use to fighting battles.

I have to mention suicide prevention month;
You are awesome, say that.
One suicide happens every 40 seconds in
this world.

It's not all about sex sometimes the best type of intimacy
is where you just lay back , laugh together ,at the stupidest things, hold each other and enjoy the closeness. Lol
you can't beat that with a stick

You only have three choices in life:
Give Up
Give in
Give it all you have .

And I am tied of being a survivor,
I am a warrior

The beginning of love, is to let someone be perfectly them selves and not change them, otherwise we love only the Reflection
Of ourselfes

Sept. 11th



Let me take you there ;

I promise more cheery blogs in the future,
but I feel this needs to be said

This has been my life;
My, thoughts
I went through a childhood from hell ,
but I never threatened my kids life's, put a gun to there head or beat them.
I come from a family of alcoholics,
7 months in the hospital with cancer saved me from that.
I am a survivor.
And it was me that did it .
The thing is ,the battle goes on, and your alone,
but you go on.
Because your life is something, you are something.

This is suicide prevention month, no one thought I would make it
They said I was done 4times.
The nurses gave me a tee shirt , It was a lion with these words on it.... The boss

You are the boss in your life, keep swinging!
We are the champions of us!


Over 50% of all gun deaths are from suicides.



Be the one who saves someone

This month is suicide prevention month and
Child cancer awareness month..

My brothers son who passed away tried suicide before.
The thing is, he was one of the most caring people I've
ever known. I believe people in pain like that know it's
so difficult at times...... for us all.

I have always supported St. Jude
My brother lost his son at 33
I can not imagine what it would be like to lose one of
my kids.... especially when they were young.
Show your gold...(the theme for this)

So for the kids and anyone at suicides door,
I leave you with a
heavy heart and this.....

In honor of a friend.

Today a friend of mine passed away.
She was 33. It was her third fight with cancer,
she was a survivor and she never stopped fighting.

Most everyone will in their lives, have or will experience
a relationship with a survivor, be it friend, family
or they will know someone who has.
I myself recently became one.

The following is something that I think is important
to know;

No one ever stops to ask survivors
what surviving means to them.
To be honest most don't want to hear it.
We like fluffy titles.

To survive something, means to be aware you
might not survive it.
You face death, you endure it, risk it, still
you survive it.

You weren't rescued or saved,
there was no magic fairy dust or
knight in shining armor,
not even a prayer saved you .
You fought through it.

You survived it.

People shouldn't get to hang the word
around your neck, without knowing what
it took (what it still takes) for you
to hold the title.

Every song is a poem.

This one brings back great memories, as
in any good poem it tells a story.
It puts you there.


Final thoughts :
My chill song of the day ;

Here are the words in English, first :

When I’m alone
I dream on the horizon
and words fail;
yes, I know there is no light
in a room where the sun is absent,
if you are not with me, with me.
At the windows
show everyone my heart
which you set alight;
enclose within me
the light you
encountered on the street.

Time to say goodbye
to countries I never
saw and shared with you,
now, yes, I shall experience them.
I’ll go with you
on ships across seas
which, I know,
no, no, exist no longer.
It’s time to say goodbye…

When you are far away
I dream on the horizon
And words fail,
and, Yes, I know
that you are with me;
you, my moon, are here with me,
my sun, you are here with me,
with me, with me, with me.

Time to say goodbye
To countries I never
Saw and shared with you,
now, yes, I shall experience them.
I’ll go with you
On ships across seas
which, I know,
no, no, exist no longer,

with you I shall experience them again.
I’ll go with you
On ships across seas
Which, I know,
No, no, exist no longer;
with you I shall experience them again.
I’ll go with you,
I with you.


What beauty !

Some write, some paint, some dance.
We all have our passions, often hard to stick with.
Life tends to get in the way, we tend to lose those
little/big things that make us special to us.

Here are the thoughts from a couple people whose passion
was writing;

For a long time now I have tried simply to write the best I can. Sometimes I have good luck and write better than I can.

Ernest Hemingway

We write for the same reason that we walk, talk, climb mountains or swim the oceans
- because we can.
We have some impulse within us that makes us want to explain ourselves to other human beings. That's why we paint, that's why we dare to love someone - because we have the impulse to explain who we are.
I wrote some of the worst poetry west from the Mississippi River, but I wrote. And I finally sometimes got it right.

Maya Angelou

Just believe in you !

Remember everyone you meet has these
three things in their life;
1; They are afraid of something.
2; Love something.
3; Have lost something.

A beautiful song. Why, cause sometimes I Chill to it!



Wouldn't be great if life was this simple!

I hope you wake up in the morning
feeling like a blank canvas and
that you paint yourself
beautiful.


Set your life on fire.
Seek those who will fan the flames.


Fire from a heart, now rage, now burn!
You cannot flee, what you cannot learn.
As flames lick at your every foundation ,
and memories melt in swift sensation.
As embers burn at all you were,
wings within your spirit stir!
Heat won't relent, nor will it ebb.
You feel it from your chrysalis web.
So you must change and you must fly.
Transform now and take to sky,
or spiral down to ash and die.
Burning, burning
butterfly.
You must change and you must fly.
Transform now and take to sky.
Burning, burning butterfly.


Shine!
Shine for you are light and wonder.
Shine for there are galaxies within you
and stardust dances in your soul.
Stars live in your eyes and glory and
grace live in your bones.
You are beautiful.
You are light and wonder.
You shine.


Perhaps we should love ourselves,
so fiercely,
that when others see us
they know exactly how it
should be done.


Final thought;

Your story's not finished until
you are.

So don't put down your pen,
don't sign your name,
don't close that book.

You shouldn't be around
to do any of that.