When I think of you,
I think of the most glorious sunset.
The kind you see on postcards from far away islands;
where the water is tranquil and serene.
As darkness begins to set on the horizon,
the ambience from the light is so surreal
that it takes your breath away
and though it's setting softly yet quickly in the distance.
You know that it will appear again ..
upon a new day ... as a sunrise ... with even brighter light
until it slips back into the sunset that you adore.

You are my tranquility.
My darkness,
My light.
You take my breath away.
In my eyes,
You are my perfect sunset.

Written by © sunflower4u on March 12, 2006

Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt deep inside?

Have you ever laid awake trying to control the feelings that you hide?

Have you ever wished upon a million stars that they would come back to you?

Have you ever dreamt the sweetest dream .. if only it were true?

Have you ever wanted to bring just a bit of happiness into their eyes?

Have you ever wanted to push away the pain, the hurt and all the lies?

Have you ever reached within your heart to make it all seem right?

Have you ever wanted to just give up knowing it's an endless fight?

Have you ever wandered countless hours not knowing what to do?

Have you ever loved someone as much as I love you?

Written by © sunflower4u on November 16, 2001

I'm breakin' free
from this insanity
taking it all away
nothing more to say

It's not right 'n it's not fair
the more you want; the less you care
Just you wait and see
'cause I am breakin' free
from this insanity
from this dependency
taking it all away
nothing more to say

My heart will take some time to heal
but now I know your love wasn't real
Don't say you're sorry - it's the end
Loves not something you need to pretend
That's why I'm breakin' free
from this insanity
from your dishonesty
taking it all away
nothing more to say

For you it was just a game; like before
but I won't let you hurt me anymore.
Life's not all 'bout what you can get
maybe one day you'll see 'n feel regret
I doubt that though
but this I know
You used to have a hold on me
but now I'm breakin' free
taking it all away
nothing more to say

Written by © sunflower4u on March 18, 2006

She drifts off into a deep slumber .. as the moonlight casts soft hues against her face ... she begins to settle into a dreamy state ...

A hand gently touches her shoulder ... then begins to move down to her fingertips .. caressing the softness in her hand .. captivated by her sheer beauty .. the beauty of her inner soul .. he moves in and kisses her neck tenderly ... she stirs ... he pushes back a few strands of hair ... staring upon her ... in depth .. consumed by her. Inhaling of her sweet aroma and becoming intoxicated, he whispers sweet loving words into the crisp night air.

Her hand that once felt warmth .. now feels cold. She watches a dark image walking away from her .. letting go of her hand. Her heart stops. Time stands still. Where could he have gone? Why would he leave? She becomes restless .. an uneasiness in the pit of her stomach .. He had said he would always be with her .. yet she can not see him.

Her mind wanders as she begins to wake .. warm sunlight caresses the frame of her body .. she turns to her side to see a single flower .... a beautiful pink orchid ... bringing it to her nose .. inhaling its sweet perfume ... she also notices a piece of paper .. turning to her back .. she unfolds the tiny note ..

"Tho you may not be able to see me .. I am there."
A smile comes across her lips ... as she holds the tender flower against her chest.


At times we may not see it with our eyes .. but it's there, unknowingly within our heart.

Written by © sunflower4u on December 14, 2001

Today at my appointment the nero surgeron told me because of my herniated discs that I needed neck surgery asap .. I will be having that done Aug 17th .. in the hospital for 3 days or so .. then out of commission for two or three months with therapy .. (sigh)

.. 'n if that wasn't enough I went to deposit money into my checking account and saw that the balance wasn't right .. come to find out someone got ahold of my debit/credit card info and did several money transactions totalling over $700 within a matter of days .. I had to fill a report out at the bank then go to the police station to report fraud on my account.

They'll do an investigation to recover money lost. Meanwhile, I have to sit back and wait. Why are people so freakin' dishonest. I work hard and I'd like to think that I am a good person inside and out. It just pisses me off. Ugh!

I need a smile, less pain and a stiff drink .............

You Make All The Difference

Sometimes we don't take the time
for the ones that truly mean the most to us.
Our hectic lifes .. frantic work schedules,
just being busy within our own little world.
Not realizing that someone out there,
might be thinking of us .. missing us.

Often we take for granted friends
whose hearts we have captured along the way.
Knowing if ever a problem were to arise,
we could come to those friends at any time,
Bare our soul and feel somewhat better
after talking with them.
Not because they cured or solved our problem but
because there friendship is
so genuine
so deep
that just their listening alone
made all the difference.

I think of you often.
And though we may not get to spend as much
time together like we used to.
It doesn't mean
I think about you any less.
If anything, .. I think of you more.

I just wanted you to know
you make all the difference in my life.

Written by © sunflower4u on March 11, 2003

I hate it when the radio plays a pretty decent song so much that you begin to hate it ... w - h - y

Promiscuous
by Nelly Furtado ft. Timbaland

N:Am I throwing you off?
T:Nope!
Nidn't think so...
T:How ya doin' young lady
The feeling that you gave me really drives me crazy
You dont have a player on your trunk
I was at a loss of words
First time that we spoke

Nf ya lookin' for a girl that’ll treat you right
If you lookin’ for her in the day time in the light
T:You might be the type if I play my cards right
I'll find out by the end of the night

N: You expect me to just let you hit it
But will you still respect me if you get it?

T:All I can do is try, gimme one chance
What’s the problem? I don’t see no ring on your hand

I be the first to admit it, I’m curious about you, you seem so innocent

N: You wanna get in my world, get lost in it
Boy I’m tired of running, lets walk for a minute

Chorus-
Tromiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want

N: Promiscuous boy
You already know
That I’m all yours
What you waiting for?

Tromiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need

N: Promiscuous boy
Let's get to the point
Cause we're on a roll
You ready?

Verse-
N: Roses are red
Some diamonds are blue
Chivalry is dead
But you're still kinda cute

T:Hey! I can't keep my mind off you
Where you at, do you mind if I come through

N: I’m out of this world come with me to my planet
Get you on my level do you think that you can handle it?

T:They call me Thomas
last name Crown
Recognize game
I'm a lay mine's down

N: I'm a big girl I can handle myself
But if I get lonely I’ma need your help [whoah]
Pay attention to me I don't talk for my health
T want you on my team
N: So does everybody else.

T:Baby we can keep it on the low [low]
Let your guard down ain’t nobody gotta know [know]
If you with it girl I know a place we can go

N: What kind of girl do you take me for?

Chorus-
Tromiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want

N: Promiscuous boy
You already know
That I’m all yours
What you waiting for?

Tromiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need

N: Promiscuous boy
Let's get to the point
Cause we're on a roll
You ready?

Verse-
T: Don't be mad, don't get mean
N: Don't get mad, don't get mean

T: Hey! Don't be mad, don't get mean
N: Don't get mad, don't be mean

T:Wait! I don't mean no harm
I can see you with my t-shirt on

N can see you with nothing on
feelin' on me before you bring that on

T: Bring that on
N: You know what I mean

T:Girl, I’m a freak you shouldn't say those things

N’m only trying to get inside of your brain
To see if you can work me the way you say

Tt's okay, it's alright
I got something that you gon' like

N:Hey is that the truth or are you talking trash
Is your game M.V.P. like Steve Nash

Chorus-
T: Promiscuous Girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And its you that I want

N: Promiscuous Boy
I'm calling your name
But you're driving me crazy
The way you're making me wait

T: Promiscuous Girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need

N: Promiscuous Boy
We're one in the same
So we don't gotta play games no more

Many have been writing pm's saying that they are upset with me for either not responding fast enough to pm's or email. I just hope you understand that I am trying my best. I am not ignoring you. Yes, I do encourage you to write. I want to hear from you and know if you like the pictures I am taking. It turns me on knowing that I can turn you on. At times I am left speechless from such lovely comments that some of you leave me.

Right now, I am also working through a medical issue. I slipped from a ladder a few weeks ago and in my neck herniated two of my discs, along with a pinched nerve. Very painful.

I suppose this is just a bit of an explaination to let you know why I have been slow at responding or haven't been on cam.

Thank you,
sunflower4u

July 23rd- I have been resting. Much hugs 'n kisses to all! xo

-pouty lips
why does it take so long for NN to converted my longer videos so everyone can see them?

check out my new photos & videos .. as I took a hot bath!

umm, 'n I was sweating .. hopefully yer not scared off by no makeup 'n the sweat on my face .. hehe

enjoy!