After all my bitching the last couple of days about wanting to go to T in the Park, I just turned down a free ticket to go.....I can't believe myself sometimes....but I stayed strong and said NO!

I mean who needs to go to the best festival around and see lots of great bands and get really drunk when they can stay home washing clothes, dishes and tidying up.....(lol, aparently not me!!)

Last night was the worst night yet ((

I had to call the police out when things got out of hand, hopefully that will be an end to it all now

Fingers crossed anyway!

After having such a good day too, what an end to it

~**sad**~

I had truely forgotton how much freedom having a car really gives you! I have only just sat down for the first time today (well apart from the fact I was sitting driving most of today but that don't count). My mate is going to T in the Park this weekend so I gave her a lift to the shops for some last minute stuff, then she was going to her friends overnight but missed the train - so I ran her to Burnt Island where she is staying tonight before making her way to Balado tomorrow (BITCH!! lol)

I decided to go and do some more shopping on the way home, then cleaned the inside of my car.....I even bought some new stuff for "her", (lol) I was eyeing up some nice seat covers with matching mats which were black with pink hearts around the edges....WEELLLL....I wasn't gonna go for the pink fluffy stuff!!! But I might leave that stuff till next time...

Have a good day xx

any takers???

I will make it quick and very painful, I promise!!

At least up till now anyway!

Work was a good laugh today, it was just me and the new manager in today and we had a really good shift. It was pretty quiet so we attacked the back office mess and tried to sort some of it out, I think we made a dent at least.

After I finished the sun was still shining and when I got up the road the kids were out having a water fight, so I sat on the step watching them and laughed some more! There is something really relaxing about watching your kids have innocent fun....maybe its just the fact they weren't tearing strips off each other, lol.

Well I spose I'd better go make some dinner now to feed the troops then I can sit and relax for as long as possible before the grief starts again.....

Back to work in a wee while, which I am kinda looking forward to (I know I ain't right in the head). Kids are staying with their dad and they took the dog too, so peace and quiet on that front!

On the other front, I am still living Groundhog day over and over and over and over and over and over and over again! I thought that yesterday morning I made a step forward, only to discover last night that I hadn't at all and I am now getting guilt put onto me over something that just ain't my responsibility too.....and I am sick and tired of it all!!!!!!

and I can both sit up and stand again....yay!! I seem to be over the worst but doc says it may come and go for a while.....booohh!!!

Thankyou to everybody who left me nice messages, they seem to have done the trick for now

On the plus side, I got outa a 12 hour shift today and now dont have to go back till Monday pm. I did phone in and offer to help if they were really stuck but was told not to be daft and to go back to bed and let them worry about staffing...heeheee

I have let the kids out again now too, they were my little nurses while I couldn't do anything and I really woulda been up shit creek without them. Anyway think i may go visit chat for a while, maybe see ya there! xoxoxo

Doctor says I have Labyrinthitis which is untreatable apart from some really potent anti-sickness tabs he has prescribed for me. They dont help much and neither does sitting at the comp so I'm making this short and sweet!

Have a great weekend, mine is gonna be spent in bed! xxx

I have an inner ear infection! I kept getting really dizzy at work tonight, in fact I nearly fell outa my seat at one point! I was getting a bit worried wondering what was wrong with me and had the guy I was working with panicking asking me what he should do if I did pass out.

Somehow I managed to walk home, and my ears have now started popping non-stop which in strangely has calmed me down a bit because its obviously only an infection....and the doctors can wait until tomorrow now!

It did make work a little more interesting tonight tho...lol

I now have my new car, and I forgot how great it felt to just jump up, get in and bugger off for a while. Thats exactly what I did today for a while and I went shopping! Nothing like spending money you can't really afford to be spending for a short term fix....lol

I'm not gonna worry about it though, I have enough other stuff to worry about and I am damned if Im gonna add money to that list...

Anyway, have a great Monday, well whats left of it!!!!!

Oohhh my dog just made a smell, better take him out...ewwwwwww