It seems tht a friend has left not only NN but she deleted her Yahoo also. She left in a fit saying smething to me a couple of weeks ago. Than a blog about being away with the deletion of her account with not a word.

A few weeks ago I wrote a blog about someone who lost a couple of years of her memory. She sat last night reading her blog and she remembers some of the names she use to speak too and asked if I would past a small note for he.

Here it is:

"Just wanted to say "HI" but logging into my profile isn't something I just can do right now, personal/emotional reasons and John has been kind enough to post this in his blog. The past month has been pretty rough for me and my family - John has mentioned me in his blog a little bit. I am the one that has lost about 3 years of my memory - not really sure what happened to cause this but medically I have been cleared and now am seeing a counselor and she is calling it an "emotional shut-down". I guess from what everyone is telling me I have had alot of stress in my life lately(job & personal) and my counselor feels I just reached a point where everything just got to be too much and my brain "shut down". I'm not going to get into everything right now, maybe when I get back into my profile and am blogging again. But I do want to let everyone know what a dear sweet person John is and that he went above and beyond what most people do. 2 times he came to my hotel room from his house(with the stomache flu I might add) to check on me and to call 911 and stay w/me in the ER. He has also been a huge reason for the memories that I have gotten back - talking to me, reminding me of things and just being there for me. I don't want to take up too much of his blog space to will close now and I will be back when I'm ready. Last night he logged on so I could read our blogs and I really didn't remember anything but learned some things!! And I also recognized some names! I'm getting there, it will just take time I guess. Goodbye for now, Booboo67"

As for me I've gone back to being busy again. the knee is getting better. I will at least be on orders untel 30 SEP 09 so I have work at least tell than. So I can wait to be worrying untel than.

sometime I just hate exsisting

I was asked today why I haven't been on much lately. Other wise being really busy at work and no end in sight thanks to the wars. I've been getting some of the old feelings again. Seem to always get lonier this time of the year and this place doesn't help. Its not like I'm here to meet someone (wounldn't be a bad thing thoe) it's just a feeling I get.

We have our first snow flakes today. Yay. I guess I wont be saying that in February. The wind is really blowing today too so all the colorful leaves will be off the trees by today.

Knee is felling better I could even move at combat speed yesterday. Can't run (not that I want too) yet but its improving.

Back at work and moving kinda slow with the knee still swollen. Trying to stay off of it as much as possible but being what I do its really tuff.

They are having the first of the annual bow hunt on post here for deer. Man there is a lot of rednecks in Minnesota too they are running all over the place. And they are seeing no deer (insert laugh) there is deer all over the place.

Some more about the friend that has lost her memory from the last 2 years. She is starting to remember some things. She called me and asked me where we met and who I was cause my pic is in her cell phone. She calls me the other day and asked me about a blue pickup does she know anyone that has one. I told her that would be me.

Took the badage off today holly cow the was a lot of seepage . But now it seems to have swelled up more. But it makes it easier to walk around. Hate walking on stairs thoe.

Had an interview today that is the reason I took the bandage off so I could walk. The interview went good but so has most of the last 12 so not holding my breath.

Also got the confermations on the tickets for Florida so it seems I'll be in Florida 26 Dec thru 3 Jan.

Knee is still a little sore and stiff.

Well I finally had my Arthoscopic Lateral Menisertomy surgery on my knee. Big name for a 35 minute procedure. So I wake up and look to my left and I was still dreaming. There sat a gorgious blonde nurse. She looks at me ans says "finally awake huh" and I say no "still dreaming". And she just smiles. Wish I could flirt like that without sedation.

The paperwork they gave me said I would see some blood sepage but is sure looks like a lot.

Surgery day as you can see can't sleep.

Have had a lot on my mind lately. Watching someone come apart in front of you make you put your life in perspective. Mine still sucks but but still puts it there.

This aint helping.