Well... 8 more days and my premium expires and that means 8 days before I either leave all together (which I think would make a TON of people happy) OR just not log in anymore and and be done just in case hell freezes over and I change my mind in some way. To the friends I've made here over the years, it's been a adventure but I just don't feel wanted here and I sure as hell don't have the body to be here anymore. Also I don't at all like the changes NN is making to this site, specifically with status. Peace out Friends

Shy

Yep.. After seeing the number of votes and comments certain guys are getting... I am NO doubt leaving this site once my premium expires.... This place doesn't grow confidence... this place literally shatters my confidence and it just hurts me to bad to be here. I’m sorry but my short chubby ass just doesn't belong here anymore.

Peace

Shy

Wishing you all a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2025!!

So I was thinking about how NN post your number of profile views and then I got to think (I don't do this often) Why have this feature? I mean it's a hate for those who play the numbers game. Now I am very guilty of this and it's been a huge negative for me and I know others would think the same. So NN why not get rid if this feature? I mean the whole point of this site is to gain self confidence (which I lost long ago) BUT number of profile views just makes this worse. I bet A LOT of people look at their number of profile views and compare themselves to others here (I myself am VERY guilty of this) which leads to resentment of others and really does NOTHING for the people of this site. I think we should get rid of the profile view numbers feature and I think that would put EVERYONE on a level playing ground and then concentrate more on pics and beauty of this site which it what this site is suppose to be all about isn't it?

Let me know what you think about this subject? Are you with or against me on eliminating Profile view numbers?

Peace out

Shy

I don't like this new Profile thing... how do you even vote on pics now? I don't see an option to vote on pics... I see you can like pics but I don't see the old vote where you can vote like or hot. I am confused right now. Anyone knows how to vote on pics PM me... Thanks

hmmm... 12 more views until my profile I hits 11,000....It ONLY took me close to 11 years to get there... Doing the math it's not hard =1,000 views a year.... Really proves how much
of a fat piece of shit I really am...Just sayin *sign* I guess life goes on.

Peace

Shy

Hi NN peeps

I am here to help explain a bit about myself.. I have a mental illness.. it makes me not see myself the way you do.. It makes me think and feel that I am a nothing but fat piece of shit and that my opinion means nothing to anyone.

I am very hard on myself.. and I have an impossible time believing you when you share your honest opinion of me..

I am not ever disregarding or disrespecting you and your truths.. I appreciate them so much. My illness takes over and at times.. I can't help myself.

I need everyone to know that it is 100% all about me.. When I blurt out negative comments about myself.. I am not thinking about you and your comments much at all.. I am only thinking about how ugly/horrible ect I am.. and I feel bad that I am inflicting myself upon the world.

I get caught up in the self hatred sometimes and it may seem bad timing. Especially when someone might be giving me a compliment..

I work on this part of myself and just wish I could be better understood..No one seems to understand me and takes what I say the wrong way so hopefully this will help you all and NOT take what I say personally and get defensive and feel that their comments are being thrown in their face. So maybe before you are quick to judge me maybe you should TRY abd understand me more and why I am the way I am.

I am learning you should NEVER judge people by what they say or feel cause you don't nor will ever know what is going on in their mind OR in real life. This is why I LOVE dogs so much... they NEVER judge you and they love you unconditionally. If we had that in our world I feel the world would be a much better place.

So before you are quick to vent in public cause YOUR feelings were hurt I ask you to please explain your feelings IN PRIVATE to that person so they can maybe be better understood and that maybe you will learn things about them you don't know , I see statuses about people and they don't name names so they can get away with t but I feel that is wrong cause then other people who know nothing about your situation can chime in and I personally know it feels.. it feels like you are getting ganged up on and cyber bullied. Don't be that bully... We are not in high school no more and sometimes I feel that this site is like I'm back in high school all over again.

Thank you for understanding and reading

Shy

Now I am not the biggest Taylor Swift fan but the lyrics are VERY true of me... according to everyone here I am the problem so it must be true

I have this thing where I get older, but just never wiser
Midnights become my afternoons
When my depression works the graveyard shift, all of the people
I've ghosted stand there in the room

I should not be left to my own devices
They come with prices and vices
I end up in crisis
(Tale as old as time)
I wake up screaming from dreaming
One day, I'll watch as you're leaving
'Cause you got tired of my scheming
(For the last time)

It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me
At teatime, everybody agrees
I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror
It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero

Sometimes, I feel like everybody is a sexy baby
And I'm a monster on the hill
Too big to hang out, slowly lurching toward your favorite city
Pierced through the heart, but never killed

Did you hear my covert narcissism
I disguise as altruism
Like some kind of congressman?
(A tale as old as time)
I wake up screaming from dreaming
One day, I'll watch as you're leaving
And life will lose all its meaning
(For the last time)

It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me (I'm the problem, it's me)
At teatime, everybody agrees
I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror
It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero

I have this dream my daughter-in-law kills me for the money
She thinks I left them in the will
The family gathers 'round and reads it and then someone screams out
"She's laughing up at us from Hell"

It's me, hi
I'm the problem, it's me
It's me, hi
I'm the problem, it's me
It's me, hi
Everybody agrees, everybody agrees

It's me, hi (Hi), I'm the problem, it's me (I'm the problem, it's me)
At teatime (Teatime), everybody agrees (Everybody agrees)
I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror
It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero

I can't even post a pic/image on my blog anymore without IDing... that sucks... oh well

Someone PLEASE tell me what I'm doing here? I look at some of these guys pics and I feel like the biggest piece of shit EVER!!! Its depressing!!!