just about to crash out for the night when it occurred to me that of the girls I dated well living in Durango 100% of them have been arrested for a DUI. One well I was dating her and the other a few weeks after I left town. Holy shit I really am attracted to the alcoholics go me.

Yeah so I thought today was Tuesday I guess not some how in my sleep last night I must have restarted Monday all over again. Just had a nice half hour phone call form my crazy psycho kinda sorta EX in which I was to nice to say fuck off I don't want to here about you DUI or any of the other bull shit from Durango really there is a reason we have not talked and there is a reason I have not talked to any one form that town in 8 months. the only good thing I got to hear was that her asshole of a boyfriend is now an asshole Ex and has a restraining order out on her. Well just one more reason I am glad I left crazy town and moved to hell. You know the only thing I wish I could have brought with me was the Eight Avenue Tavern god if only I could have moved that bar here this place would be heaven but alas it is not to be it lives in crazy land with all the rest of the crazy people I once knew

And its... Drum roll pleas.... NUMBER 3!!!! Crazy psycho.
Great forget about raining poring we just started monsoon season. FUCK

Its a good thing I live close to the boarder because it means that sometimes I have Canadian signal on my phone which means that all numbers come in as unknown. This is great because I can have a ten minute text conversation with a friend and be spending the whole time wondering who it is unless of course its one of me good friends who's number I know off the top of my head. Most often I just have the area code to go by and once I remember which friends live in that area its easy to limit it down base on language used. Well tonight I got a good one I knew the area code off the top of my head but I had never even seen the number plus I got only one message "is this still your number?" so I spent the next half an hour trying to figure it out and eliminating all of my friends from that area code which is a lot of people which means that ether someone changed numbers and is just pulling up old names and got distracted which is not likely or the more likely is that it is one of three people. 1. the crazy old cougar my asshole roommate dumped on me my last week living there. 2. My EX which means she is drunk/ in trouble or both and wants my help. 3. "Crazy" as we used to call her the girl who used to show up at three in the morning drunk off her ass spend an hour bitching about her boyfriend, the new guy she was fucking on the side, a good friend of mine she was also fucking and demand that I fuck her and without a condom. well that flew like a lead brick with me because I knew how much she enjoyed unprotected sex I was not even going to risk it so I would walk off and go sleep on the couch only to have her pitch a fit and start throwing shit. So if its her shes drunk horny and 1500 miles away. thank god but it is true ether way when it rains it fucking pores. if this week gets any worse I think I am going to have to find a bottle and crawl into it and wait the week out.

With the first snow fall of the season comes one of my most favorite activities streaking yes it has been a long held tradition of mine that on the night when the first snow fall sticks to the ground I run naked some where. sadly this tradition has resulted in some well interesting nights and for some friends of mine it has lead to not so great nicknames. All that aside it is still one of my most favorite things to do and yet this year like the three before it I will have to pass this year oh well maybe I will get to make up for it all later this year and I might just have to bring NN along for the run. Here PIGGY PIGGY.

Well this site has officially past the test. I first joined NN for the porn and figured that I would be around six months to a year then lose interest in the porn and move on as I have done with so many others. Though it has only been a few months I have started to realize more and more that when I log on I have a retinue I check the user of the day photo see if it catches my eye then log in, from there its right to the blog look to see if there are any new comments maybe write something, then off to the forum brows around for a bit write on the regular posts and then if I feel up to it I stare at the blank screen of the chat room. I have actuality stopped bothering to even look at the new posts except about once every few days. It is for that reason that I say this site passes the test with me I have lost interest in most things of a pornographic nature hell all things really even sex is back to being uninteresting to me so if without an active sex drive I still want to drop in on NN about five times a day and actually spend time here then it must have staying power hell I don't even log in to facebook that often and I never did well just one more reason I love this site. As a free member that is saying something well now I just need to upgrade and see if those few features are worth the price. well have a good night all and here's hoping I wake up to snow on the ground tomorrow.

I swear my eyes are about to start bleeding form reading the small text well looking for a job. so I figured I would pop in here just to say FUCK I need break. at least it started snowing today (finally) to bad it only lasted for about a minuet and none of it stuck oh well it still snowed and now its freezing rain. God I am glad winters finally here

So I just finished working out today and hit the showers when I had one weird thought. How is it that back in high school a guy who weighted 275 lb could date the girl in class who was voted most attractive? Now I know a lot of people would say that it was actions and body type does not play in to it but this has always seemed false to me even though I was the 275 lb guy and I never understood why she would have been interested in me but she was. well this thought prompted others such as why is it that we broke up? we only dated for a very short while and then it mutually ended and I never gave it a thought it just made sense that we just were not right for each other, but I realized something tonight it not that we were not right for each other there was no way we could have known a few days is not even hardly enough time to know anything about a relationship no I realized that I had drastically changed in those few days for one about a week before we started dating I started working out trying to get in better shape, two myself image had changed, and three my confidence had dropped off to nothing. Its funny back then I was more confident being massively over weight than I was when I started losing weight and even now there are days I find myself lacking confidence and will not even look at a mirror. Just a weird thought I was more comfortable at 275 than I am at 175 and now the thing that made me less confident back then is the best way for me to start feeling good about myself. funny how things change. Well I just got a new hair cut today and I figure I need to take it out so it is off to town to have some fun chat with you all later.

seriously the internet god hates me. The girl I have been digging on has a full profile up on a networking site which I happened across by accident today, so I read the profile and sure enough everything she wrote makes me think shes a winner single funny smart and sexy as hell so everything is green then I read her age and fuck fuck fuckity fuck fuck. I mean I knew she was younger than me but I thought maybe 22, 23 no she is younger than my sibling shes barely 21. now I know this should not be a big deal and yes I have dated girls even younger than her but I get so much shit for it it drives me up the wall. would have been so much better had I just put the computer down and walked away. Oh well I guess I better get used to getting shit from friends and family because I am not going to let her age get in the way. By the way whats with the chat is it always that dead or do I just need to log in at a differnt time. I mean I have tried late night here on the west coast and even was on in the middle of my day today and there were like five people all not talking it was so bad I actually fell asleep at the keyboard.

My life as I know it is probably over as of this Christmas, with the help of these two I have decided that for my fathers ex-wife I am going to skip the gift this year which is what will get me killed and just buy her a nice card in which I will write a note saying that instead of a gift I have taken the money I would have spent and donated it to the charity she does work for. To most people this might seem like a reasonable idea however I suspect that there will me much cursing and cookery flying my way. well at least her pots and pans will get some use this year. Well just need one more idea and its all over actually might need two buy two things one for my aunt and a helmet might not be a bad idea for me. well have a good night all I am going to further insert my foot in my mouth and try to sleep.