So I just finished working out today and hit the showers when I had one weird thought. How is it that back in high school a guy who weighted 275 lb could date the girl in class who was voted most attractive? Now I know a lot of people would say that it was actions and body type does not play in to it but this has always seemed false to me even though I was the 275 lb guy and I never understood why she would have been interested in me but she was. well this thought prompted others such as why is it that we broke up? we only dated for a very short while and then it mutually ended and I never gave it a thought it just made sense that we just were not right for each other, but I realized something tonight it not that we were not right for each other there was no way we could have known a few days is not even hardly enough time to know anything about a relationship no I realized that I had drastically changed in those few days for one about a week before we started dating I started working out trying to get in better shape, two myself image had changed, and three my confidence had dropped off to nothing. Its funny back then I was more confident being massively over weight than I was when I started losing weight and even now there are days I find myself lacking confidence and will not even look at a mirror. Just a weird thought I was more comfortable at 275 than I am at 175 and now the thing that made me less confident back then is the best way for me to start feeling good about myself. funny how things change. Well I just got a new hair cut today and I figure I need to take it out so it is off to town to have some fun chat with you all later. |