so excited my sister coming to visit me this week end.....last time I saw here was at my nephews funeral so I am so excited. the last time she came here freek worked here and I drank 2 bottles of southern comfort in one day.

Miss my family miss my friends and sometimes get down about living so far away but this week end will be great.


oh and as a side note been on body trim for 4 days and have lost 2.5kgs.....any body that finds them can keep them I do not want them back PMSL

How to make someone feel like a loser and a piece of shit on one easy movement.

Have your friends organize lunch for someone's birthday and don't include someone. That's how I felt today when I went to visit someone only to find out they were all out to lunch and I wasn't told

Feel pretty low and worthless right now.........

when someone says your name and it sounds different, special and you know its safe in their mouth.

I live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore
Then I will walk yes I will walk
With patience through that open door
I have no fears, angels follow me wherever I may go
I live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore

Feel fat, feel ugly, feel useless, feel unimportant, feeling like dog excrement.

Just another day in my head...........

I love taking you in my mouth and feeling you go hard, I love slowly licking you from base to tip, twirling my tongue around your head, tasting you, feeling the effect my naughtiness has on you. I love it when your heart starts pounding under my hands and your breathing gets quicker and I feel your balls tense in my hand.

I love the way you cry out when I suck you hard then stop and just tease you, tweeking your nipples and running my hands over your body, slowly working my way back down to take you in my mouth again and start all over again. Licking, sucking, stroking and nibbling till I feel you tense up in pleasure and you cry out and then you explode in my mouth and I feel you throbbing, pulsing against my tongue and you groan and tell me how good it was.

I love being a naughty girl for you and I love going to work with the taste of you in my mouth and I love the fact that it brings you such pleasure and I walk around all day with a naughty smile on my face and a delicious throbbing in my pussy at the thought of it.

Thank you silent for loving me the way you do, I know I get tired and cranky but I love you with my body and soul. I cant wait for the next 18 years.

A slow strangle with your feet on the floor
I've got 14 angels and we're sleeping alone
In the back of a cave, where the rest of us go
To feel normal

I call baby up. Leave me alone.
I'm in pain but I won't let you band-aid my wound
I'm mad at a stage where I can't seem to handle my own

You give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
Until the end

Give me strength to be kind... To combine
All the good things in life that are so hard to find

But I have and I won't let them go like I do with my friends

Still hearing voices... From front... From behind
They're the reason I choose... When to live... How to die
When to cast... When to reel
When to buy... When to steal
When to fiend for the friends that taunt you
Being inappropriate will

You Give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
Till the end

Have been feeling low, very unattractive, tired and generally not very special but today I feel better.

When freekforpussy was working here and becoming my friend he introduced me to a man named Bob. To look at him you would think he was not a nice person, shabby around the edges and a little unkempt, but freek liked him and as I looked past the unwashed exterior I grew to like him too. He is a gentle soul and made me laugh when I chatted with him.

Well today I was unloading the truck after getting up at 3am and baking the bread and one of my work mates said some one was looking for me. A strange looking man she said and I could hear the sneer in her voice, but that could have been the old green eyed monster coming out in her because for some reason the tourists like me and come looking for me when they return.

I went to see and it made my day. It was our friend Bob. Back for another season to stay on the river and come to town once a week for supplies and the joy that shone from his eyes when he saw me fill my heart with happiness and when he put his arms around me and hugged me and said gee its good to see you I felt special and so glad I took the time to get to know him.

I didnt care if people looked and i didnt care that maybe they thought he was strange the pure happiness in his eyes when he saw me made me float and filled my heart with joy that stayed with me all day.

So freek thanks for letting me meet such unsuaul characters, and he sends his love and thoughts to you and AK. think I might have a beer with him on the week end and spend some time with some one who just likes me and doesnt have any hidden adgendas

xoxoxox

The lying, useless, try hard, wanna be eminem, white trash, fucked up, smart ass, lazy, good for nothing, fuck knuckle has done it. He finally produced the straw that broke the camels back and the boss is gonna fire him.


I am doing a, "go ricky, go ricky" dance in my kitchen because I didnt have to do a thing. He fucked himself up the ass and it had nothing to do with me. Goinna buy a lotto ticket and gonna have a drink. Hee Hee fucken Hee Hee.


thanks just had to share my joy

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away