has more power than I thought. I updated windows and was asked if I wanted to restart my computer now. I said no and continued working. A few minutes later I got a popup telling me I had to restart my computer for the updates to take effect, I clicked do this later, a minute later the power went off for about 2 seconds forcing me to reboot.
creeped out
ju

Well you make a vid of course. Sounds easy, yes?
Not at all really. First you have to get the digi cam out and fuck around with that till the batteries are almost dead and still not be any further ahead, so its back to old faithfull the web cam. Yup I can do that, eazzzzzzzzzzzzzzy. Yeah right.
Now I have to drag the web cam to the window sill opposite side of the puter, put the cord under a plant so it doesnt keep wandering away from the "target" all systems go! Yeah right. Now i have to click start vid get what I want in the vid and click stop recording, all the garbage at the beginning and end would be a simple edit if i ever had the patience to learn how to do it, but NO i have a better idea!
So now I am rearranging the entire kitchen, I have the cam crossing the room in the opposite way I have the mouse going.
Ready set vid!
ok forgot to turn off the radio, forgot about the window being open and traffic sounds abound.
Take 2!
ok I think I have it set up, wires crossed yes, all sound quiet yes, lights camera action!
Damn! forgot music.
Duck under the window so I am not on display to the world, search for a cd find one and say fuck it good enough.
I think by now you see where this is going.
All in all after totally rearranging the kitchen, numerous out takes that would get Americas Funniest Home Videos top ratings, an hr later I have 29 seconds of vid worth posting.
still laughing at herself
ju

for the very first time I will have no kids for 24 hours.
Looking forward to and dreading it all at the same time
ju

the seeds were sown they flourished and then the city took over, the seeds needed to grow and did despite the overwhelming odds.
the dandilion in the crack of the sidewalk greeting the other dandilions with a bowed head and much to be greatful for
ju

be there and actually being there for someone are two very different things.
thank you to the one that was there to listen
love you
ju

When I had called for cable on monday I was told that it would be from 3 to 5 days from wed (today) before it would be hooked up. So I was very suprised to see the cable guy at 11 am! It was a LONG wait for the kids to come home. When they got here you would have thought it was christmas they were so excited!
A very happy mom that got to do something for her kids,
ju

that I have been on my own and I am amazed at the drastic changes for the good. I have gotten a handle on the money situation and today was able to call to get the cable back. Let me tell you that I have two very happy kids because of that. That isn't the only positive financial change but its the one I felt like mentioning. The house actually stays reasonably clean now, and all this time I thought the kids were mostly to blame, not so at all.
On a personal note I am happier and because of that I am getting much more accomplished than I have in a very long time. All of this is having a positive impact on the kids.
I still dont have the car running but that will come in time too.
a much lighter
ju

sleep tight
not mentioning bed bugs
ju

about cyber sex.
Yes it is exciting, yes it is a way of relieving yourself, but!and this is a big but. I really do feel sorry for so many mainly younger males that NEED cyber to "get off"
They come begging in chat, notices and blogs for help. To me this is sad. It is sad for two reasons, yes, some are single and looking for instant gratification, but quite often they are in a relationship and looking for another couple or single female to help. Before I go too far I would like to point to the latest poll as verification for me picking on the male of the species. Overwhelmingly they have begged for "cam chat"
So why do i find this so sad?
Because i think that in this wonderful cyber world sex and instant gratification has surpassed the wonder that is intimacy.
I really do fear for this generation who thinks that sex is all that it is portrayed on the net. I think that if they ever got the chance to experience the joy and the turn on of real intimacy they wouldnt know what to do with it.
Ultimately there is more joy to be found with that special someone in your life than there is in a few minutes on cam, real intimacy will last a life time. Cyber is a cheap thrill like the carnival that comes to town once a year.

Poutine is basically fries, gravy and cheese curds, it is a french canadian invention and is incredibly yummy. Even McDonalds in Canada has poutine in the menu (don't try it it's disgusting). I have a great place for poutine right down the street, so this was lunch today...

no where near healthy but damn it was good