Baby, can we have a tree if it's like this one?!?!?

got bored at work, and all the christmas music being piped in must have gotten to me, cuz this is what i came up with...

other than waking up alone.......in a VERY empty bed. i guess today was alright. work was OMG OMG OMG OMG slow. i checked totals @ 2pm and we hadn't even reached $200.00 yet. which is a good thing, since for the past week i've been getting a regular nap, everyday, and waking up in the most pleasent ways. now i'm back to ma normal routine and i realize how much it sucks. i can't wait till i'm with ma dumm again. one of the very few bright spots today was his phone calls. hearing him going throu the gambit of emotions with me. happy, sad, lonely, and OMG so pissed off. soon. soon we'll be together forever, and none of anything that has happened will matter. it'll just be me and him. through everything he's been right there next to me, always ready to listen or make me laugh or let me know it's ok. he's not physically standing beside me right now, but i can feel his arm around ma shoulder, his hand in mine. letting me know that whatever comes, we'll be together. and when i'm at my weakest, he'll be there to help me throu.

*muwah* a million times to ma dumm

and *muwah* to all of you who've been there for me lately.

i love you all

i'm sitting here, crying my eyes out....

i leave tomorrow morning. all the love ive felt, all the happiness i've had......would it have better if i never came at all?

would i hurt this much if i'd never had the chance to lay in his arms? i cant lay with him now.......crying too much,and i dont want him to know.

this feels like i'm dying.

or i'm watching my best friend die,

now that i've gotten used to waking up with him.... how can i possibly go back to sleeping alone..even for a night?

i promised i wouldn't cry. at least not where he could see it. so we'll keep these tears to ourselves, won't we??

i'm giving myself another hour to cry..then i have to stop, and be strong....until then........

i don't want to say goodbye.

We had planned on dummy giving me an orgasm (at least one) at every major st. louis attraction. The budweiser tour didn't work out, since there were only 4 of us plus one guide. You've already heard about the art museum.

Today we visited St. Louis' most famous landmark. The arch. 630 feet high, made of stainless steel and concrete, it's known as the gateway to the midwest. There is an observation booth at the very top, and to get up there, they have a "ferris wheel" type elevator. seperate pods with 5 seats in each pod. It being a thursday, end of November, and bloody cold! Dummy and I were able to get a pod all to ourselves. *evil grin*

It's a four minute ride up there, four long minutes, with no windows, and no one else around. of course my pants and panties were open and down before the doors were closed a full 10 seconds. Dummy swears this must be some type of world record, but he managed to make me cum twice before we got to the top. the ride down was only 3 minutes, but again, he made me cum another 3 times. for those keeping track (cuz dum sure was) that's a total of 5 in 7 minutes. either i'm really easy or he's really good

The view was amazing....and we even managed to get some great pics. i think we're now about done with all the st. louis attractions.

and goddamn if i don't really really like this town!

Yesterday, on our way home from the budweiser tour (which, by the way is VERY cool) we heard on the radio about "the great porn debate" between ron jeremy and a preacher. OMG...we HAD to go... took us a lil bit to actually find out where it was, but finally we got the location, and off we went.

Found our seats, and i decided to hit the loo before it started, i walk out and who's on his cell phone out in the hall? mr ron jeremy himself....i waited a second, but he was engrossed in his conversation, so i went to the loo.

came back out and he was still on the phone, having a bit of an argument with someone. i stood off to the side and people watched.finally, he got off the phone, turned around and smiled at me. i was on the other side of a staircase, so as i came around, he watched and waited.

finally face to face, he offered his hand, but i said "oh, no...gotta get a hug" to which he replied"your a cutie, pie girl, you can have a hug anytime." got a good hug, and a nice kiss on the lips, and off i went to tell dum that i'd just kissed a porn star.

the debate was less of a debate and more jokes, but it was alright.

afterwards, we went to a restaurant in one of the casino's...had dinner, went to the bar attached and had many many drinks while listening to the live band. a few of dum's friends came over. we got so drunk, we had problems putting dollars into the slot machines.


all in all....a wonderful night....

oh! and i KISSED RON JEREMY!!!!!!!!!!!

Lord and lady.....me and dummy in the st. louis art museum...

dunno why (well, ok, i do know) but i decided to wear a skirt, with no panties.

yea.

somewhere during the asian art exhibit, looking at a letterbox from the early 17th century decorated with squirrels and cherry blossoms, dummy came up behind me, and slid his hand up my skirt.



oh my.


i've never had an orgasm in an art museum, hell....any museum for that matter.

let's just say i'll never forget the st. louis art museum. ever.


now i'm all dressed up (as dressed as i get) with MAKEUP on(!!!) because dummy's mom n pop are taking us out to eat. after that we're meeting some friends of his for a beer and perhaps a dip in their hottub. and after that? well....let's just say dum's gonna finish what he started in that house of fine art

nothing like waking up, making love not once, but twice...

then enjoying a cup of coffee while the man you love cooks ya breakfast....

goddamn i love ma dummy xxxxxxxxxxx

Amazingly enough, all my flights were on time, early even. i blew almost $40 at the airport bar in memphis...3 beers and 2 shots. ffs....

i'd just pulled ma bag from the carousel, when i turned around and saw dummy walking towards me. kissing him was worth the wait, tho i don't think we'll be waiting this long again.

he brought me beer (he knows the way to ma heart) then we went to his bar and i met some of his friends, as well as his sister. she's awful cute (looks nothing like em! hahahahahaha)

met mom n pop too, they're both great. everything i expected.

dummy had a bowl of autumn leaves, since most of them aren't on the trees anymore.

figured i'd let ya'll know i made it safe.

*muwah*

i'm antsy, need to do a million little things before i leave, but don't want to do any of them. so i sit down with a beer and go into chat, but i don't wanna be sitting down. i guess i just want to be THERE already.

18 and a half hours (if ma planes on time)... seems like a lifetime away, even after waiting this long. my mind is flying in 30 directions... if he'll still smile at me the way he does, the way that melts pieces inside of me. if his kisses will still send lightning from my brain to my toes... what if his family hates me? or his friends think i'm all wrong for him?

by this time tomarrow night, i'll be in dummy's arms....