I really missed being here

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sorry i have been away.

just able to sneak on here for a little bit

it has been a difficult summer, starting with hubby finding my toys at the end of the spring. i have just had to be so careful. i don't want him to know that i am almost uncontrolablly horny was having cybersex with guys here to take care of what he was not giving me.

and with his loss of job, he is always around, in the living room where i keep my computer and i can not get on line to chat with you all, or even check what you are doing.

omg, i have not even been able to pleasure myself since july.

and daughter always seems to be home. and he will not even make out (omg, i just want to be made out, you would think i was a teenager) if she is home.

but then the worst, my dear aunt who was in assisted living fell and that just started the road to the end. i knew it was coming but what little of her that was left went away with the fall and she was, just a shell. I would visit and she had no idea who i was or even if i was there. many times, i just sat with her and nothing. i watched as she slowly went down hill---i thought that we had months left and then, she just decide to leave. a call in the morning that she was having some problems breathing and three hours later, she was gone. i was on my way home to go see her and they called. i was just numb. i knew it was coming but when it happened i was just numb.

i had promised myself that i would be with her when she died, that she would not go alone because she had taken such wonderful care of me and my daughter and hubby and she just left. almost no warning. if she had waited 20 minutes, i would have been there.

it really puts other things in perspective.

and so know i am trying to clean her affairs up and i know that that will take time.

and work is just work.

i will try and blog more---sneak down early in the morning maybe.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx to all.

sammie alice

i was get dressed when hubby began to kisses the girls. not something he usually does. he began to work his way down until he was on his knees and hooked his fingers in my red panties and pulled them down to my ankles. his tongue started to dart into her lips, slowly parting them with each kiss--worhiping her on his knees. omg, he has not done this for years and i was loving it. i could feel her begin to droll with each kiss. he pushed me back to the bed and i sat down, his face buried in my pussy.

i felt his finger penetrate me, searching, while he sucked on my clit and spreading her lip. omg, i wanted his cock. i could feel her lip swelling and my clit growing as he orally loved me. i kept thinking about how much i wanted a hard cock when he looked up, my juices covering his lips and said that he was hard. omg. he pushed me a little further on the bed and pushed his cock in my soaking pussy while standing on the floor---so unlike him---usually is it just straight missionary. i did not know how long he would last or how long he could stay hard but i was going to enjoy every second of hard cock. he did not last long, manybe 20 strokes, and they were 20 strokes of heaven from my standpoint, and then i felt him swell and cum. his juice in me. omg, he pushed against me and i moved my hips and tried, but he was soft and i just could not cum but i had his juice in me and he wanted me and worshiped me first. ) we laid there for a while and then started our day.

i was just so happy---omg, and he came in me and i could feel his juice for hours slowly oozing out of her.

i am hoping today will be a repeat.

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sammie alice

as if that did not get me in trouble recently.

anyway, while i was shopping (did not find anything that really excited me), of overheard the manager talking to a customer about their clients.

anyway, this toy store was near a military base and a lot of the customers were wives, girl friends, boy friends and husbands of our active duty military--mostly wives and girl friends. anyway, the manager said that many of their sales are too these women whose lovers have gone off to war for a year and they are being faithful to them and toys and fantasies are their release.

i could feel my heart getting so heavy and the tears welling up. i complain about hubby but i really never expect to get the call. and, if necessary, i could force him to take care of me. but here are these women, many with children and young children, lovers gone, worried that the worst will happen and a dildo and vibrator to replace the one they love to fulfill there very human needs.

and each hope that their lover will come home whole and not damaged and they can resume their lives. and knowing that so many come home but the war has damaged them so greatly that their marriage comes to an end.

or that the strain of the distance and time away has destroyed what they had.

or the men have come back and have been away so long that they have forgotten the gentleness of loving and need to be brought back.

I left with no toys but a very heavy heart thinking about the forgotten warriors---the spouses and families of our service men.

hugs, kisses and prayers for all of them.

stayed away as long as I could. put my toys away. did not pleasure myself. begged hubby to take care of me---not interested. even offered him a father's day "take me however you want me" and nothing. soooooooooooooo, Monday, he had a meeting and a had a meeting with a toy and a very short but intensy fantasy thinking about one of my cyber lovers here. omg, when I finished, I was panting, the bedroom smelled of pussy and i wet the bed------) really happy but now he was going to find a wet spot in bed and know. hair dryer time and air the room out. i really don't think i should have cared. what does he expect-----it is either his cock or tongue or i am just going to pleasure myself.

anyway, i made sure to put my toy away---checked twice.

kisses to all.

and asked if i had left something on the couch in the living room (where i play here) omg, i was upset--what would it tell him---decided to tell him i was frustrated and mastrabate that morning and forgot to put them away. he was not very happy at all.

the worst part, i was not even playing with that toy and i don't know how it got there. i am not superstious, but it was almost like a sign.

anyway, if i am not around for a while, i am ok, but i am just laying low, so to speak, for a while.

hugs and kisses to all.

sammie alice



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i did not getting any loving on mothers day but, since he still does not have a job, i was hoping for some mid week loving. so thursday he anounced he was giving blood on friday. well, that means little if any loving this weekend (low blood, really soft cock. so i told him i was going to bed early and i really wanted some loving. he said he would be up in a while. i woke up at 2 am, no hubby and i knew that that ment no cock this weekend.

so frustrated, i woke up early this morning and was lookind at vid here. and i cam acoss this one.

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and may is the month for mastrabation ))))

but i wondered what it must be like to have a man that hard and that long and that full of cum. omg, hubby was never really long and i had fantasies of position we could try. but to look at a cock that magnficent, omg, the, made me sooooo horney and made me dream of every position i would have tried.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx to all.

hubby is mad at me. he forgot to do something he promised a co-workers child (child lives with her mother out of state). and the child was suppose to have it as a class assignment today. so we have to fedex it tonight. i say to him, "let go, send it and get dinner out". "no, i am hungry, lets eat here now". so we eat. i say "i am finished, lets go". "no, i want some dessert first". so finally we leave, get to the fedex store at 7:29 and the sign says, "last drop off at 7:30. so we in, he goes to do the paper work and i go to counter and ask "is it to late", answer "no, you have 30 seconds". so i look at him, slowly putting the package together, ask where there is a later drop off, resign my self to a 30 mile drive and wander around the store for the next 20 minutes while he finishes the paper work. when he is finished, i say to him, let go out to the car. and he is mad at me because i did not say to him "hun, we got here to late for the drop off and we will just have to go somewhere else", sweetly and nicely and in a very quite voice. what i wanted to say was "hun, your late, we have to drive 30 extra miles (60 round trip) because when i told you we needed to go you want to eat dinner and then dessert. and now the food shopping we were going to do this evening can not be done."

i love him dearly but this is just the way he is and he is never going to change and i know it but it is really beginning to bother me.

xxx to all

i am ready thighty 210 blogs i missed and i got to the one about 10 year old in the woman's locker room. and i know this was written before the freeing of the cleveland kidnap victims.

but here is my take. we are becoming more and more of an international society and, unfortunately, sick society. there are a lot of really bad people out there. the usa is still sexually very up tight and the sexes are still very seperate.

i once asked hubby why men seemed to be so much more homophobic than women. he said it was because of the gym culture--naked locker rooms and swimming naked in pools----they don't want to think that someone is "checking them out" while naked and they don't know it. i have never worried about a lesbian checking me out in a womens locker room but, maybe it happens. and there really is little difference which sex is "checking you out" in the locker room--is is still a little creepy when you think about it.

hubby said he was in the rest room while we were on vacation when a xxxxxxxx daughter came out of stall---her dad was waiting for her. the dad said nothing, she washed her hands, talked to her dad and left--no big thing.

walking along the beach in florida, saw the topless xxxxxxxx girls with their mom last november.

maybe we just need to losen up a bit. we try and teach our children not be be ashamed of sexuality. i can not tell you how many times i went to confession for mastrabation as a teen---the guilt and the damage i did to myself. if you don't make a big thing out it of, it moves to insignificants in the childs minds. and our fear of "the kid is checking me out" does not even exist.

where is the line---what is the age when it is not ok? i don't know any more but lines are blurring and maybe we just have to be more open to this occuring and losing some our privacy.

just my two cents. but i might have have paid real money to watch that cat fight.

perv. pic---foxie so hot, faith is getting ready to try again----kisses and prayers, starry back from a vacation in cuba---looks like she had fun, and nubie---what are we going to do with you--locked out of your wifes car at the adult store---hope you got her something fun

went to our local store for a new toy---small hard dildo---dreaming of hubby's cock. about the same size but it just is not the same---funny, you get favorite toys and then try others but they just don't fullfil you expectations. sometime i wish i could find one that shot warm sticky stuff in me and maybe even throbe when it did that. . . . . i know, find myself a hot lover , but not going to do it

one thing i have notice about the toy stores i visit, they are all managed by women!!!!!!!! and some are willing to discuss their desires and needs. i over heard one telling a male customer that she was getting mad at her current boyfriend because he was not have sex with her enough and that she needed it at least every two day. i just can not imagine anyone being that casual about sex.

whatever, i have about 200 blogs and 20 pics to go and then i will be caught up.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx to all,