mysecretlife's Blog - page 8

Someone a while back I was PM'ing with said my blog was like a journal. I guess they were right. I have kept journals at times in my life. This same person also said I was the only person she had ever known to post a pic of a sunset on a porn site. I suppose I am a little different but always have been. Who wants to be comman. I am quiet but not boring.

Anyway, back to the reason I am writing this. Some time after my second divorce, 10 years ago now, I somehow settled into an attitude of maybe "practice". I started living everyday like I was pacticing how I was going to live the rest of my life. I tried to learn something every day. Be better at what I already did. I tried to become a better nurse and father. I also realized my skills at being a husband had been terrible. I decided if I ever became a husband again I would be a damn good one. I spent a lot of time talking and asking questions. Touching and observing. I can be very gentlemanly and treat a woman like a complete lady, be very passionate, and not at all afraid to take risks for the sake of making things axciting. I won't ever take someone for granted, nor will I become dull. Provide comfortable and security but never dull.

I also learned how to do many other things that go into homelife. I can build on a room addition, plumbing, wiring, although I don't like messing with electricity, that shit will kill you. I can cook, not always the best cook but some things are really good. I will brag on my lasagna. I do windows. I like yard work.

I will do silly things to make a woman laugh and I can kiss in a manner that will make your knees weak. Give awesome massages.

I'm not saying all this to toot my own horn. I don't really know why I'm saying this. Lots of ppl don't realize their own potential and I did not until I decided to. I tried to learn something in every relationship I've been in. On girl taught me that life keeps giving us the same lesson until we learn that lesson then move on to the next. I took the same lesson too many times.

You all take care and have a good day.

T

T Storms all about tonight. I love to hear hard rain on the roof. Hope it is still raining when I go to bed. I esp like to lay in the bed with someone to talk to at night and listen to the rain or the wind blow.. Been a long time since I had a regular GF that I actually got to spend the night with. I do regret the property damage that occurs and that sometimes ppl get hurt.

I work tomorrow. Maybe the weather will clear and we will get to do some flying. Monday we had a late flight. We have night vision goggles we wear at night. Man they are awesome. Talk about seeing the stars. There are so many more stars than you normally see. That is something about the desert I remember. I was with a MASH unit during Desert Storm and we were in northern Saudi, Iraq and Kuwait. Out in the desert where there is no light pollution you can see so many more stars and so much more clearer. That seems like a long time ago and it was. Things are so much worse over there now than then. I don't know what we should do. I do feel that they can forget about peace in that part of the world because it just ain't gonna happen.


You all be safe.

Even tho there are nearly 400K pics of guys showing there stuff I thought I would go ahead and add mine. Tried to make it a little different. Would much rather post a pic of me using him in my favorite manner tho. Just can't get a girl to cooperate with picture taking. Maybe sometime tho. Actually there is a girl on this site I met up with and she posted some pics of us together in her profile.

Hope for a great day to all.
T

Someone's recent blog entry talks about how there are ppl in their life that always seems to be taking and seldom give back. It seems there is always someone willing to take advantage of you if you let them. I know this all too well from my own experience. It took more than a few counseling sessions to get me to the point that I could tel ppl no. I have always been a very giving type person. I just felt I had to do that to assure that I pleased ppl and was liked. It seems some ppl only associate with you for what they can get out of you. Sometimes family are the very worst offenders. I have gotten much better at evaluating what the ppl in my life want. Do they want to truely be my friend or just what they can get out of me? I have started to distance myself from the takers. The ppl that really want to be my friend are in turn getting a friend.

I have a sister that is the epitome of the takers. I never hear from her unless she is wanting something. She is always scamming and trying to work the angles. I just accepted her as she is and go from there. She is the type of person though if she were not family I would not have anything to do with her.

Anyway, I hope the person whose experience prompted this has some friends close that she can turn to. Having cyber friends is nice but not as good as the warm, flesh and blood kind. There is so much of this venue that is or might not be real. Way too much opportunity for deception. I myself am guilty of spending too much time on my computer. Kinda gets to be a habit but it can also be very safe. Ppl only know what you want them to know.

I think I am going to the woods. You all have a safe and happy day.

Tom.

Just got done making my bed. Washed my sheets today. Can't believe it's already that time of the month. Like clockwork I tell you. Wash my sheets on the 11th and a bath every Friday. Kidding of course. I do consider myself a bit of a redneck but a sophisticated redneck. Back to the sheets. One of the simple pleasures is climbing into a set of clean sheets the first time. The feel and smell so good. But I would really love some company to get them broke in right.

Working on a deer stand in my back yard. I am not sure where I wanted to put it in my woods so I am building here and then going to disassemble it and haul it to the woods. That way if its not in a productive spot I can move it. It is starting to look like a fortress. I started out with 4x4s and 2x4s. I wanted it big enough for at least two ppl and maybe three. It topped out at 18 feet. The lady next door just watches me and smiles. Now to take the sucker apart and get it to the woods. Big problem now is I can't get my truck anywhere near where I plan to put it. Oh well, I never did care much for the easy way.

You all have a good evening.

T

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No calls this past shift. Saturday for sure though. Going to work and extra shift at another base. Supposed to go to an airshow near Cincinnatti. Looking forward to this. If anyone is there and sees a yellow and black helicopter and a bald guy stop and say hi. That would be too neat to meet someone from here out like that.

Anyway, feeling better today.

You all take care.
T

Feeling a little better today. Yesterday I washed my truck and my bike then had a good workout. Went to the mall after that. Bought a new shirt and a pair of jeans. Been loosing a little weight, intentionally, and most of my jeans are getting too loose. I ran into my youngest daughter and niece at the mall and got their stamp of approval on what I had picked out.

Anyway I feel a little better today. Still not great, but better.

You all have a great day. I am working today and hopefully will get to do some flying.

Hugs to all.

Tom

Been in a real funk lately. Don't feel much like writing or much of anything. Don't know why. I have a good job that I really like, my family are all healthy for the most part. Nothing really bad going on. I did have a major disappointment recently but I can't say that wasn't totally unexpected.

Well, I believe attitude is everything. I am gonna go do something positive and get out of this mood.

You all have a good day