Been doing this flying thing 5 months and I think I have already found my favorite part of it. The roof of Vanderbilt University Hospital. A lot of the bigger hospitals have rooftop helipads. We had a flight down there last night. Got there about midnight. Going in we usually have a patient so I don't notice the landings very much. But leaving we have time to sitesee a little. I think it's only about 15 stories so not that tall but tall enough you are above most of the noise. Esp with a little wind blowing. Last night was clear and cold and the city was lit up and it was just so pretty. Then taking off the pilot just lifts off the pad a little then goes forward and it is like you are stepping off the edge. Things just open up under you.

We have four pilots. Each has his own style. Don is my favorite. His take offs are full throttle and straight up until we are about 1500ft then forward. He often uses the term up "like a homesick angel". I don't know that I like the angel terminology so much but if it ever comes to that I know that's better than the alternative. He also likes to fly sideways when coming into refuel. That's pretty neat.

Well, I thnk my son and I are going for mexican for supper. You all have a good evening.

Love ya all.
Tom

Sounds like it is blowing pretty good. It really has the chimes in the back ringing. I like to listen to the wind in the trees esp blowing through pine trees. It's a totally different sound. A few years back I deer hunted regularly in a stand of pine trees. I usually use portable climbing stands and would climb up about 25 feet and sit up there half the day. It was so peaceful I seldom cared if I saw a deer or not.

Not much going on around here. I worked Friday and had another trauma course I took Saturday and Sunday. So many bad thigs can happen to the human body. It amazes me how fragile and tough the body can be. I do know things can happen in a split second and have devastating results on a person. When I decided to become a nurse I had no idea what a multitude of experiences were in store for me. Some good and some bad, about like anything else I suppose. I have 4 patients that if I live to be 100 I'll never forget them. Maybe sometime I'll write a little about them.

Many people just don't realize how fragile their life is and how often each day we miss harm by just a few feet or seconds. The medical community is kinda getting away from the word "accident". Some say there really is no such thing. Many things happen that we don't intend to happen but everything happens as a result of the actions that people take and choices they make. Too philosophical for the moment.

You all have a good evening and please be careful.

I get some EMS journal that talks about differents things, probably about like what lots of professions have. Anyway there is a column about safety issues. The guy that wrote this month's column was writing about ppl seeing something that needed doing but wait on someone else to do it. He quoted Ghandi: "Be the change you want in the world."

So many ppl are just sitting around waiting to see what happens and what will come their way. One person may not be able to do much to change the world but they can certainly change "their" world. They can also effect the world of those close to them.

Well, its almost 0130 here. I really need to go to bed just not sleepy. Thinking too much. That always gets me in trouble.

Nite.

Back to work tomorrow tho. I should not complain. This week I work Monday and Friday. Not too bad.

Saturday morning I went over to T's new apartment and helped her with a lttle unpacking and hung pictures and a couple things like that. Had a very good relaxing time. Her and another guy moved most of her stuff Friday, furniture and all. I guess it's probably happened before but she carried her end of the couch and every other piece of furniture a person would have. I had to work or I would have been there helping her. That is one thing that really impresses me about her. She is a very hard worker. I feel if we stay together our relationship will be more like partners and be helpers of each other. We both are hard workers and seem to share many common goals and ideas about things. All she has ever said along that line is she wants someone who will meet her half way. Now don't go thinking I expect women to carry furniture and do heavy manual labor. Not while I'm around they won't, any woman. But to be willing to do it and to step up when it needs to be done says a lot to me. Anyway we just had a good morning.

Something I said in an earlier entry about falling in love with who we think a person is also can be applied towards friends. I read several blogs pretty regular and sometimes I wish I could meet those ppl. I would love to find out if they are as nice and interesting as they seem to be judging by their writing. More than likely that will never happen but I am big on dreaming and seldom count anything out.

You all have a good week.

About 20 degrees colder than yesterday. Got up this morning and went deer hunting. All I saw was the tail end of a couple that I spooked on my way in. Got out a little later than I had intended. Saw a bunch of wild turkeys tho. This place I bought has turkeys all over it. I didn't want to stay out too long. My sister from St Louis is coming down later. I mainly just wanted to get out for a while.

Was thinking on my way home about the things I have to be thankful for. I really am blessed. Maybe sometimes I get to feeling a little sorry for myself but I think lots of ppl do. We just need something to remind us it could be worse.

I hope everyone has a safe and happy Thanksgiving. I would like to wish not only that but for everyone everywhere to be safe and have good day.

Rain and thunder. That's the forcast for today. I got up early to start cooking. Going to have the kids over for our Thnksgiving meal today. They all have things for tomorrow with their SO's and their families so I thought why not have ours on Wed. This is the only way I could get all three kids here at once. Of course some probably think this a little thing but things just are not the way they used to be. I remember going to my grandmother's house for the big holidays. Now I am the grandparent, damn, this is one of the occasions I feel I'm getting old. I just don't enjoy the holidays like I used to. Things have gotten just way too commercialized.

I usually get stuck hosting because I am the only one with a house big enough to hold everyone. I guess I should be thankful I am in a position to do what I can.

Well anyway. I'm gonna chill a little and get through this and get things in order. Meaning my affairs and my life. By affairs I don't mean my relationships with married women either. Not that I have never done that but it seems they all were just looking for their next husband, someone to take care of them. Too much drama.

One girl that was trying to get me to fool around with her was downing how I was waiting on T. She said T just needed to go home and be a mother to her children. I looked at her and asked what would you say if I told you that you should go home and be a wife to your husband. Really pissed her off.

Maybe I am wasting my time with Tonya. Time will tell. I think the worst thing against us is our timing. If we would have met a year from now I believe things would be all together different. As it is we have been talking and seeing each other some for almost a year. I would think if she did not think something down the road might be possible she would have not stayed interested. Still sometimes I think she is just doing enough to keep me around until she makes up her mind.

I know I am very quick to fall in love. What I realized about myself is that I fall in love with who I think a person is. Later when you get to know that person they are not who or what you thought they were. I have repeated this scenario many times. Sometimes they get hurt sometimes I get hurt. I am going to slow down and see what happens. She may end up not being who I think she is. I may not be who she thinks I am. I am pretty much resigned to the probablity that at some point Tonya and I will stop seeing each other. I'm just not ready to be the one to call it quits yet.

I think it is OK to fall in love, actually it's great to fall in love. I myself just need to be a little more cautious and slow the hell down. Maybe this is too nonchalant an attitude to have but what I have been doing hasn't worked too well.

One thing I love about NN is that I can write whatever I want. Sometmes I get feedback and sometimes not. But I do get a chance to come back and read what I wrote later.

You all have a good day.

Been trying to keep busy to keep my mind off things. The girl I wrote about earlier. I was pretty much giving up on things then she started calling me more. We have talked every day for the past 8-10 days. Seen each other a couple times. She still has a lot going on. When we were together things were just great. We talked well she was smiling and seemed like she wanted to be with me. But I just have this feeling of impending doom that the rug is going to get pulled out from under me at any time. I know if I am not careful I'll make this a self fulfilling prophecy. I have a real tendency to try to do too much too fast in a relationship.

Bad thing is that I just feel that if this one doesn't work out then why even bother to keep trying and just keep ending up with the same results. I have to figure out what it is I keep doing that things always turn out the same. I know it is probably just me trying to hard. I am going to take Benjie's advice and just do nothing for a while.

Anyway I hate to sound whiney again. It's easier to date ppl you don't care about.

Got to work tomorrow and go in early to boot. Don't know why. Our day pilot took himself out of service today and tomorrow. Inner ear infection and vertigo. I'm glad. I don't want to be in the air with a dizzy pilot.

You all have a good Thanksgiving.

Thunder and rain. Slow rolling thunder not that sudden "scare the crap out of you kind". I think I'll go back to bed and just listen til I fall asleep. I don't have to be anywhere til work tomorrow morning. I've got room if anyone wants to join me. King size bed with a down mattress cover. Just washed my sheets yesterday. I'm a good cuddler and I don't snore.

My son is getting ready to leave for class. He's typical 24yo male. No jacket and a closet full of band shirts. I told him to get a jacket out of the hall closet and he says it has to be stylish. I told him I understand that being wet is very stylish so forget the jacket. We pick at each other a lot. He wants to wear my Harley jacket. I told him get a license and he can wear the jacket when he rides the bike. Better be carefull with that one.

Dang I woke up too early. Could not go back to sleep. I go through spells when I don't sleep well.

While lying in bed listening to the rain I was thinking. My thought for the day is to not dwell so much on the past or worry so much about the future that I miss the present. Of course we need to remember the lessons of the past and plan for the future but the present is all we really have.

Take care.
Tom

An ex girl friend of mine taught me this one. Life keeps giving us the same lesson until we learn it then we move on to the next.

This girl was an awesome person. She is probably one of the most intelligent ppl I've known. She had two masters and 2 bachelor degrees. I don't think I've ever found anyone so interesting to talk to, but.... there is always a "but", she was crazy. Wild, unpredictable crazy. Anyway last I heard she had a affair with and then married her best friend's husband.

You just never know.