Raining here today and looks gloomy. Good day to do some laundry and housework.

My trip yesterday went well. Butt got pretty sore. Embarrassed myself real good. Dropped my bike, skinned my knee and tore my jeans. Still don't quite know how it happened but loose gravel and motorcycles don't go well together.

Today my shoulders and back are sore. I don't have a windshield so you have to hang on the whole time. My bike isn't a good long trip bike but I really love it for short trips and riding around town.

Did not get to meet Tracy but did meet a dispatcher named Mary. She was real sweet and cute so my day could have been much worse. Tracy came on duty after I left. She did call later to make sure I got home ok. Maybe Mary told her about my little spill. That is one thing I really like about this company. People you don't know are always looking out for others. Also we checked the weather before I left and there were storms building between there and here and sure enough I got caught in one of them. Got my ass soaked. Oh well, just more of the adventure. My therapist says she thinks with my job and some of my past relationships that I seek out crises. I don't know that I agree with her but I know I don't want a dull, routine life. I do like to do exciting things but I would like to find a good steady secure relationship. I know I could be with one woman and be perfectly content. That is not to sday that I would let that get dull though. I believe any reward or fulfilment you get out of anything is directly proportional to the effort you are willing to put in to it. I think that is why I have trouble with women. I can't find one willing to put as much into a relationship as I am. I know I do do too much sometimes and often too early. Probably me and I do need to tone things down a little in many respects. Anyone care to share any advice about that?

Well, I better get busy. I work again tomorrow. Hope this weather clears but we do need the rain.

You all take care.
Tom

Just got home from work. Niki was happy to see me as was Duchess. I often take Niki to work with me but did not yesterday because the weather was good and I was sure we would be flying. We did get a call but after we took off things changed so we aborted the flight. We took off for a Princeton, KY to Evansville, IN flight but enroute they changed the destination to Iniannapolis, IN. None of us had been there before and we did not have the GPS coordinates or any radio call signs for that area. Throw in a new pilot that we are not completely comfortable with and I did not mind passing. Normally I would be all up for it, going someplace new and all. Having a new pilot who does not have the self confidence of some of the more experienced pilots makes the atmosphere up there a little different. It has given me an appreciation for how some of our patients must feel putting their lives in the hands of people they don't know. I know the string of recent crashes has made the atmosphere a lot more somber as well. Only thing is if my pts are anxious I can give them a little something for that, or sometimes a lot, but I don't have that option. Still I love this job. That was the only call we got.

I have a couple ballgames tonight then tomorrow I go to Lexington to the communications center. One thing I really like about this job is that they want you to go to other ares of the company so you can see what their jobs are and how everyone works together. One of my biggest complaints about hospitals is that people get so narrow visioned that it is like different depts are all against each other instead of working together to give good care.

I am a little aggravated with my daughter. Her 2yo got into some of her meds last Saturday. Apparently he got enough of one of her pain pills that he ended up overnight in the hospital. He was very very sleepy. I talked to her about keeping her meds in a safer place. I hope she realizes how serious that could have been.

Well, anyway. I am going to ride my bike up there tomorrow. It is a 4 hour ride so my butt will be sore when I get home. There is a girl named Tracy that works up there that I hope is on duty tomorrow. I have heard her voice countless times on the radio and spoke with her on the phone and she sounds very nice. It would be nice to meet someone new.

You all have a good day.

Hello everyone. Hope all is reasonably well out there.

Feel like writing a little today. Gonna try to get back in the habit.

I think I'll write about my recent experience. I had my first taste of anal sex the other day. Taste might not be the best word to use. Anyway you know what I mean. A girl that lives a couple streets over was out for a walk and stopped by. I met this girl last year and we had a couple encounters but nothing serious. She is only 28 and a little young for me but we both enjoyed the sex. Anyway she stopped by and asked how I had been. We were talking a little and she asked for a beer. Before long we were kissing and then to the back. We had been going at it about an hour when she told me to get behind her. Me being the good little boy I am did as I was told. I asked her if she liked anal and she said yes and asked if I did. I told her I had never tried it and she did not believe me. I said seriously. She said well I want to be your first. She said to get some lube and go slow. I did and we did. She said most guys cum really quick and she said she usually cums pretty quick herself. I lubed and loosened her up and slowly slid my cock into her ass. It felt good and was very tight. Still it was not the same. She started rubbing her clit and she came within seconds. I stopped moving and just held my cock in place until she caught her breath a little and then started fucking a little more. It felt really good but just wasn't what I really like. My favorite is facing the woman and kissing or sucking her breasts while we fuck. Also I love more than anything to kiss and nibble on her neck and under/behind her ears. I like to just dig in my toes and push in and hold myself against her clit. Sometimes I can feel her throbbing against me and I let her wiggle against the base of my penis and she really seems to enjoy that. Long slow steady strokes also seem to illicit a good response. When she starts to cum though if she says to pound her pussy then once again I obey and give her hell for a little bit. I did end up turning this girl around and then I got on bottom and she straddled me. That is another of my favorites. Anyway she stayed for a while. We both got pretty much what we were needing.

The girl I wrote about in a previous entry she always claimed to like anal but we never tried it because she said she was afraid I would hurt her. I know she lovved for me to tongue fuck her ass. She would cum so hard with me licking her ass while I had a couple fingers in her pussy and rubbed her clit. I do miss her. We were great together.

Anyway, here I got myself all worked up and no one to help take care of things. Damn.

You all have a good day.
T

Haven't been around so much lately. Had a girl really messing with my head and I ended up pretty depressed over it for a while. Feeling better now. I was thinking about when I used to write here and thought that it always felt better to write about some of the thngs I was thinking about. Sometimes I overanalyze things way too much. She just left me and went back to an ex that she complained of constantly. Always telling me how much better I was to her than he was. I guess the sayinig is true about girls not wanting a nice guy.

Summer is coming on here in the southern US. Weather has been really pretty the last few days. Temps in the 90's though. Rode my bike yesterday. It was nice to get out in the country. My dogs are doing good. Now I have a little heal nipper named Niki and a Great Dane I call Duchess. I walk them regularly in my neighborhood and get lots of ppl stopping and sometimes even coming out of their house to see Duchess. She is only 6 months old but is going to be huge.

Well, I better get some breakfast and feed my babies.

You all have a good day.

Haven't written in a good while. Lots going on here. Biggest news is my daughter had her baby. 6lbs, 5oz Taylor Elizabeth. She's a little doll. Both are doing great.

Work has been very busy, have had 9 flights my last 4 flight days. Fortunatley only one was really bad, a lady burning trash and something in it exploded and she had some serious burns to her face and arms. Fell down to roll and broke her arm to boot. Had one flight which we broke a base record. Had a 50 knot tail wind. Hit 246mph.For a helicopter that's pretty fast. Took us 51 minites to make a fligt that normally takes 75. We paid for it coming home though. We were riding a storm front and it closed in on us in Louisville. We could not fly out then the next morning the pilot timed out so we had to rent a car and drive back. Took 14 hours to get back. Major PIA. Oh well, just part of the adventure.

Niki is doing pretty good. Making good progress with the house training.

Been seeing the girl I wrote about earlier quite a bit. Things are going pretty good. She still doesn't know just what she wants. We have good times together and the sex is great. Never met a woman that likes it as much as she does. I'm just gonna enjoy it while it last and if it goes further then good.

Stormed big time last night. Today is cloudy but the temp is nice. Spring is just around the corner. Some of the trees are budding out and the grass is starting to grow. Plan to mow today.

Overall things are pretty good. Sometimes I get to feeling a little sorry for some of the things that go on but I really can't complain about my life. I think of all that so many others have to endure in their lives and often wish there was something to do. Wouldn't it be nice if everyone in the world started looking out more for others. Quit with the chasing after riches or power and just take care of each other. Won't happen in my life time but maybe someday the human race will evolve and realize that we really are just one family and act that way.

You all take care

Niki was so glad to see me and I was so glad to see the house wasn't a total wreck. I barricaded her in the kitchen and took everything out that I thought she could tear up. Or so I thought. She got a scarf an old GF knitted me down from a hook and towels off the oven handle and made a bit of a mess with them but otherwise things were not too bad. I guess it's nice to have somebody happy to see you even if she is a real bitch. But Niki is one of the cutest bitches I've ever known, and believe me I've met my share. Not to say I may not have been a real ass at times but I hope I have outgrown that. Anyway.

I got a wild hair and joined Match.com the ther day. That site can be almost as addicting as this one. Have been talking to a couple women. Maybe sometime meet them. Who knows.

Had a girl I dated years ago call the other day to schedule a massage. We had talked a few times since we quit seeing each other and I had told her if she ever wanted one I would give it to her. She said she had hurt her shoulder. She showed up and man she looked good. She is now 35, got a good body, long blond hair. Dang. Anyway I take great pride in my professionalism. I gave her the massage. I have to say when I started I really enjoyed touching her. Doing her scalp felt good to us both. Her hair was so soft and felt so good between my fingers. When I got around her hips and butt I told her like I always tell my clients that if I get too close or go somewhere that they are uncomfortable to let me know but I usually try to give the more personal areas a wide berth. She said I wasn't touching anything I had not touched before. I just said I remember. After the massage she got dressed paid me and gave me a hug which isn't unusual. The hug though was a little extra long and extra tight. She said she remembered how I smelled and felt. As we broke the hug she kissed me. I can't say I did not kiss back, then she went to hug me again. I just put my forehead against hers and said this was crossing the ethical line between a therapist and client and I should not be doing this. She said ok. We talked for just another minute and I told her to call me anytime. She walked out and I shut the door. Then she walked right back in and said I'm not your client now. Won't go into details about what happened next but I think we were both really needing it. She scheduled another next Friday night. But this time we are just going to trade out massages so no client/therapist boundries to worry about.

You all have a good day

Just not much in a mood to talk. Been working. Weather's been crappy for the most part. Tonight it's cold, snowy and windy. Home with the dog and the cat. The cat is getting braver about coming around Nki. Making maybe a little progress with Niki's house training. She's not much lady like. Gave her a bath this morning and then went for a walk. Every puddle and muddy spot we came to she had to walk through. She is solid white when she is clean. But she is funny and I get a lot of enjoyment out of her. We walk past tennis courts and she picks up balls that have been hit into the grass and not recovered. She will bring them to me and I stick them in my pocket and just toss them out in the living room when we get home. We got a bucket full if anyone needs some.

Had a major disappointment this week. I only have about 5 ppl I would really consider a good friend. I have lots of friends but very few really good friends. This week one of them really major let me down. Made me a promise about something. Never asked them to, they did it of there own free will. Then less than 4 hours later they called me and totally went back on what they had said. What they did really jeapordized my trust and even our ability of remaining friends. I loved this person as much as family, more than a lot of my family and they just trashed things. I guess I'll get over it but feel really bummed right now.

Well, I think I am going to finish making my bed, today was laundry day and piddle a little.

You all have a good night.

How am I so lucky. Or am I just gullible. I have a cat now. Not just any cat, a cat with ringworm. My daughter has a cat that somehow has contracted ringworm. Pregnant women and babies should not be around ringworm so I get stuck with the cat. I was for getting rid of the cat. Are there ppl that do hits on cats? Just kidding. Anyway I have him now. He is declawed, front and back, and neutered. Whats the poor thing got to live for? His treatment is going to take 1 1/2 -2 months. Damn my luck. Niki loves him though. She chased the poor thing for 2 hours. They got rolling around under my bed once. Niki better be glad the cats has no claws. Anyway I finally had to put Niki up to give the cat a little peace. I would put him up on a bed or couch where Niki could not jump up but he would jump right down. Ever try to give a cat a pill. If he ain't careful he's gonna get them rectally. I tried mixing it in food but so far am having limited success with that. Well wish me luck.

That's today around here. Just took little niklette for a walk. My neighborhood is so quiet. Kinda spooky. There is still ice on everything from yesterday and the day before. Temp right around freezing. Low, one color, cloud cover. But the quiet is what really stands out. Dang I am so ready for some sunshine. I want to get out and ride my bikes. Hell, I'd even love to mow my yard. Right now tho it is so muddy I'd have to wear hip boots just to walk in the back. Dang, dang, and double dang.

T has called a couple times. I talk when she calls me but if I miss her call I don't call her back. Give her a little taste of being ignored. Now to add to everything she wants to get a job where I work. Will my torment with this girl never end. There are some openings with the company but luckily they are at a base two hours away. I gave her the name of the person to contact and it's all up to her from there.

I worked yesterday and had a class right after work. I need a shower but wanted to check here first. You get pretty addicted to whats going on with everyone. Also, you never know, some hot new member might be from my area, see my profile and feel she just has to have me. That's me, forever the optimist.

You all have a good day, keep warm and stay safe.

It's Friday morning here in P'town. Just got my coffee. Had my little dog outside with no luck in the potty dept. She will tinkle outside now just fine but the other is still pretty much an inside job for her. I noticed sometimes immediately after she eats she goes to her favorite corner of the living room and does her business. Me supposedly being the smarter of us two thinks "well, feed her outside". Doesn't work. After eating she is all over the yard chewing on sticks, sniffing everything but no poop. This morning and last night her biggest interest was eating the ice off the ground. Oh well, she's only about 15 weeks old so I guess eventually she will learn. Actually it could be worse I suppose. She sleeps with me and does pretty good about that. This morning tho I woke up with her licking the top of my head. That tickles but not near as bad as when she gets after my ears.

Just haven't felt much like writing lately. Been reading a lot plus had a class yesterday I had been trying to prepare for. Have been trying to keep up with things tho.

I better go on and get ready for work. Not looking forward to it too much. Weather is bad and more than likely another 24 hours of sitting around doing nothing. Got more reading to do. I have taken Niki to work with me a few times. Probably will today. She certainly breaks the monotony around there on slow days. Seems to be well liked. I'm just on a constant poop vigil.

You all have a good day.
Tom