It seems Wendy is missing again.. dang it.. I hate it when I feel like this.. and it is so silly what prompts me to stay away.. sometimes It is when my pics or videos are taken down.. I understand the rules.. and I seem to break them.. boo Wendy.. but it does derail me a bit.. which is a bummer for sure..

So how do I get back into it.. hmmm.. Not sure yet.. I feel that my "super depressive disorder" is taking its toll right now.. boo hiss.. what a crappy thing to have with you all the time.. I feel that I am always clawing my way out of that dark hole.. Some days.. I am good.. but others.. I am not that funny, witty, clever lady you see in status.. I am a shell of a woman who cant think of what to say.. I tend to withdraw.. and just be on my own.. eventually I will be ok again.. This is old hat for me by now. One day I will be stronger.. lol.. that is what they tell me.. I feel I used to be so strong.. to go through all I have.. ya.. super strong.. and I was so strong that people would say it to me all the time.. I began resenting that! I am strong sure.. but I dont want to have to be all the time.. I want to be free.. But that is silly.. I cant do that.. This is a life long ailment that will travel with me and Mr Fibro.. whoo hoo..

Well that feels like quite the blab.. might be time to end it.

Hope you all are having a groovy fantastic day.

Hugs

I am a bit unpopular in my thoughts that AI.. is not for me! I will admit I have used the AI Google search tools as it helps me research stuff.. I have always sucked at findings shit on the net.. now it is way easier.
But that is where my "like" for AI stops.
Eventually creativity and innovation will no longer be valued. Because AI can do it better stronger faster. That will be the sad days.
I keep thinking if I stay off the net with any of my writing.. then once I do publish.. it will mean something.. sadly over the past few days I have come to the realization.. nothing I write now.. will matter that much in the AI world.. I WILL get swallowed up and spit out.
I am now not going to worry about publishing any of my work. I will write my stories.. and set them aside for my son to publish.. if he so wishes.. if not.. then maybe his kids can see a few bits of how creative their grandmother was.
And with that revelation.. I felt years of pressure and fear.. just lift off and float away.
So go on AI.. keep doing your thing of taking away creative jobs.. of confusing the mods here with your ultra amazing pics (lol) I am moving into the acceptance part of the grieving process now.. accepting that I will not win this war against you.. I am laying down my spear.. and will deal with the fall out as I age.
Ps.. everyone knows what they feel is scary things can come from this AI.. and yet we still press on. I wonder what else made our ancestors feel this way too. Fire.. the wheel.. war.. two parents having to work outside the home.. idk..

Anyway.. I guess I needed an outlet that still accepts no AI thoughts. I hope NN stays as far away from AI as possible for as long as possible.

Hugs
W

I think (nah, I know it to be facts) I am a touch bitter.. ha.. What? Wendy is bitter?? ha.. yup.. And it is nothing new for Wendy and her viewers..

I have yet to find a man who gives a banana about making me orgasm.. They all say.. "Oh.. it is very important for my lady to cum first".. and yet.. that is fucking bullshit eh.. All things men say just to get what they want.. lol.. I guess if I am down and sad.. all I should think of is.. hey this new guy says he is different.. he will care.. he will have the patience.. he will be the one that will make me O.. and as many times as possible. What a laugh! So.. what if that is zero.. now what.. ? Give up.. move on.. say to me.. you are impossible to make cum.. It wont be anything I haven't heard before.
I know not all men in the world are like the many I have come across.. but.. they do seem to be all future men.. and or live impossibly far away, or worse they are already taken.. I live in this small single bitter land. I dont mind it here.. singleness is great. I am able to successfully keep my bitterness at bay.. that is until someone asks the questions.. "What do you like in a man? and What do you like in sex?" Well... in a man.. I want a nice.. kind one (and so much more).. as for sex.. I dont have a fucking clue.. cause asking for someone who wants to make me Wendy, cum.. is a myth.. a unicorn with wings.. a non existent thing.. not even a dream.. cause this dream will never ever fucking come true..

le sigh.

Again.. is it odd to have people on a nudy site, not at all interested in sexy time with others on the site? NOPE.. I see it all the time.. I swear.. I am one of them! I have zero interest in playing here.. I have zero interest in giving my O to anyone online ever.. Even if they could make me blow.. it is never gonna happen.. I had a dream once.. where I would be ok with a man cumming and I dont when we are together.. only if I got to cum three times more than they did.. why? cause maybe that could make up for the times where I did not get anything and that man went off to dream land.. fuck that is a piss off too.. I know that some cant help it.. but holy fuck balls.. best way to get yourself a one way ticket away from Wendy forever.. cum and go.. like how hard is it to talk for a few min after.. share how it felt.. share how it was.. did we do ok.. do I matter to you now that the cum has flown.. show me by staying awake and talking to me a bit of pillow talk.. then.. off you go.. and no more tears from Wendy's eyes. Even then.. Wendys dream.. was flawed.. I was giving up too much.. Too much for the unworthy.. Unrealistic dreams.. cause these men are only there for themselves!

I look at this from two angles.. one.. the self preservation side.. I have had too much pain.. why the fuck add more.. the old saying "dr it hurts when I do this.. then dont do that!" is something I live by.
Then the other side of.. well mythical new man did not do one thing wrong to me.. so give him a chance.. he does not ever deserve the past being placed upon him. 100% agree and this is the fair way to be!

blech barf and booo.. is where i have landed.. who wants to do that over and over again.. meet someone new.. spend time with them.. only for them to just leave.. insanity?? I think so! Is dating not just a big loop of insanity.. doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result.. ah ya!

There is a part in a movie Bolt.. where mittens the cat says.. "They take their love and they leave you" .. That is how Wendy feels about all the men who have come along.. and who have yet to make it here.. They will take their love.. and they will leave me. (and with no orgasms.. ha)

Yes Wendy is in therapy.. so maybe she can shed these feeling of blah.. but for now.. writing them out for strangers to see.. seems to be the path I am taking right now.
Thanks for reading.

Hugs

I am thinking about changing up my intro.. but I don't want what I wrote, to disappear.. and now here we are.

Howdy.. I am still Little Miss Hug.. so if you get any hugs from me.. it's because we all need 2-4 hugs a day to survive.. and I know we all don't get that many.. I understand they are only words online from some Wendy lady.. I assure you.. they are heartfelt.. and I only want to bring some genuine kindness to your day. Why am I here? I am here to be a part of a community that is kind and welcoming.. I can be my full self here.. I can laugh.. I can be silly.. I can be and post my art. I can have a great day and hang out with so many different people that I would never have the chance to meet. I can pass time and not feel like it is a waste of time. I can build my confidence further, I can bring hugs and happiness to people around me who could be in need. I can smile here.. It's fantastic to hear from all the nice, kind NNers. I have decided for pictures here... I want to see men in jeans.. topless.. and if their dick is hanging out.. I won't complain. Mmm cock. ***ALERT.. I am so not a fan of making random men or even men I know, cum.. if only they would have stuck around after.. then it wouldn't feel so crappy. And to be clear.. not just crappy.. you hurt my feelings! As much as I love cock.. and cum.. I will just have to say no thank you from now on, to any sexual talk.. I really am too tired getting hurt feelings from men who just dont give a shit about me anymore, after that cum flies.. Please dont ask.. Please dont be mean to me either! I tend to get turned off when I feel the conversation is heading that way. If I go silent.. this is why. Just as a heads up. ps.. no where does it say I am here to make men cum. If they/you do over me and my pics.. yay.. Happy explosion.. but including me in your cum game.. please make sure I dont ever know, you are cumming and going! Please be a part of my smiles.. not my tears. Thank you. This also includes asking me to share my past sexual experiences.. If I want to share those.. I will on my blog. Thanks! I appreciate beauty in anyone and everyone.. I love seeing and creating the art in a photo. The human body can be such a beautiful thing eh.. ha.. I have two groups that you can join at anytime.. Head over to the groups tab and have a gander.. There are quite a few different ones, not just mine. I love photography and seeing art in anything. I thank you for being here in whatever way you are. I send some hugs your way!

Yup.. I do.. Maybe I shouldn't.. But I do!

I send you as many hugs as possible.

WW

Why does it bother me so much.. I must say its because of all the years I let them just do it.. I would just take it.. and let the sting get me. But I cant handle the stings anymore.. I derails me.. and it really should not.. I am old enough to know to let that shit go..

but it still hurts.

Well.. That all depends on how I am doing.. I have been diagnosed with severe social anxiety.. Now I have had anxiety forever.. but I was not aware it was the social kind.. it makes sense once I looked into the signs and symptoms.
So when I am away.. it is usually because I dont have anything to say.. or I am full of fears that have nothing to do with anyone.. I am trying to not isolate so much.. As it is leading to some serious sadness and depression.. I see that dang hole of despair all the time.. and I do a great job of navigating past it on the regular.. but sometimes.. I fall in. I really should remember to bring a ladder next time.. would make it easier to climb out.

as always I send you some hugs..

I am in search of a short king.. I hate that I cant just call them that.. They have been told forever that being a short king is a bad thing.. They all have to be over 6 feet.. Such a crock!! I have been looking for my very own short king for years now.. Where oh where are they.. and can they not live far away???

Well..

Wendy got herself her very own concussion.. I know.. some of you are jealous.. I swear.. it was not at all fun.. I am just now finding that I am able to stare at the screens for any length of time..
I don't recommend that anyone tries to get their own bang on the head. js

I hope you all have had a great however long I was gone for..

I send you hugs!

Have you ever said something to someone.. thinking you are in the right.. you are totally certain your message will convey just what you are thinking and feeling.. You read it and re read it over and over.. making sure you are clean.. and concise.. You put love into the message too.. just so it is not seen as a horrible attack.. You hit send... You wait for the response.. and then you see the reaction.. It went way wrong.. and then you think.. OMG.. what have I done?

I swear.. bad baggage.. and misguided intentions.. will get ya every time.. haha.. Silly Wendy!

There are times like this.. where I feel I am best enjoyed sparingly..