The NN grape line was on fire today. Figured rather than telling the story over and over, I'll put it here.

Last night at 11:30, Dum kicked me out of the house. I had no place to go, no money. I got dropped off at the bakery. I called the only person I could think of, Meaniebutt (Cotton Balls to most of you). My request was simple. Come get me.

And he did. Drove 6 hours through the night, showed up at the bakery, picked me up.We slept a few hours at a motel, then went to Rubens. She took me to the house, and we packed all my things....well, what would fit into Meanie's suv, amd I said goodbye to my dogs, and then to Dum.

It's heartbreaking to call it quits after 6 years, but life is too short to be unhappy.
I'm staying with Meanie for a week or so, then going back to Florida.

It sucks breaking his heart, which I know I did. But it's time to move on.

Keeping my fingers crossed and holding my breath.

Wit h the passing of another member here, I'm reminded of others that passed before him.

Wets, who fought his cancer like a warrior, and who I bribed with ass shots for every half pound he gained during chemo. He always threatened to saw through the leg chain he said Dum kept on me.

Then there was whispers...

What to say about that man? He was beyond special to me, never having to meet him to know his heart. O still read the poetry he wrote and shared with me. The. Self portrait he painted of me is and will always be my wallpaper on my computer.

NN isn't just a place to perve. You meet the most amazing souls here. I just miss some of them more than others.

But I feel the need to post this song....

It's apt in more ways than one.

Ever been so closely connected with someone it seems they know your thoughts before you do? No matter how deep the shit they're wading in, they always have a minute to talk you off the ledge. I almost think we were lovers in a past life, so close we are. He can feel my moods from hundreds of miles away. I can't count the times I've been blinded by rage and get a call or text from him and with a few words, I'm calm again. Or hurting for one reason or another, and he takes it away.

So, thank you. For loving me, protecting me, for having the wisdom to step the fuck back and letting me fight my own battles. Thank you for trusting me with your secrets. Just... Thank you.

So I read a blog recently that stirred up quite a hornet's nest. Apparently, the only women who go on cams do so to suck dick and fuck for nudles. Aka "cam whores". And the ladies (I use that term as loosely as possible) who don't want to get naked find it cheap and sleazy they are gifted wirh automatic nudles, or something along those lines. Or maybe their panties are in a wad because they don't get as many nudles as the women who do put on a sexy show, who the fuck knows.

What I know is this: I go on cam as often as I can. Sometimes I'm dressed and drinking a beer, sometimes I'm stripping down.to nothing, sometimes I'm sucking dick, fucking, or playing with Ruben's tits. I go on cam because, like when I first joined NN, I LIKE BEING WATCHED. Fuck the nudles. And if you're pissy you don't get as many nudles as the lady in the next room who's fucking herself with a 9 inch dildo while you're drinking tea and discussing the latest episode of Real Housewives of Montgomery, put on your big girl panties and suck it up princess.

If you just wanna have fun and don't give a shit about nudles, I'm sure NN can make it so you can decline any automated and/or tips.

True story: When I used to strip, the 2nd club I worked at was full nude
Now, you didn't HAVE to go full nude, and for a few weeks I didn't. Till I noticed the girls that did made twice the money and got three times the attention. So I did too. And I got more regulars and made more money.

I'm not saying you HAVE to get naked and dirty on cams. I would, nudles or no. I'm saying remember where you are. Newbie NUDES. You wanna cam your newest knitting pattern, take it to yahoo or skype. Quit bitching about feeling cheap and sleazy here.

As most of you who follow along in status know, I've been dealing with a bad tooth the past 4 days. Day before yesterday my face was somewhat swollen and I was miserable. A coworker gave me some pain killers, Valium, and a small bit of antibiotics. I figured with swishing with warm salt water and peroxide plus the pills, I'd be alright.

Yesterday I woke up to the right side of my face so swollen, I could have passed as the elephant man's lil sister. Dum wanted to go right then. He was positive I was getting a bone infection or something. I refused. Then he called Rubenredd, dirty cheat.

I'm terrified of dentists. So I cried. And took another Valium. Get there and freak out.

Turns out I have 2 infected teeth. Bottom molars on the right side. Lady dentist said there were 3 options :

A: extract both of them
B: 2 root canals and caps, then start on the rest of my jacked up grill
C. 2 root canals and caps, try to save as many of the bottom teeth, remove what can't be saved, and get dentures.

Option C is by far the most.cost.effective. My new dentist is pretty damn cool. Young. But doing everything she can to help with expenses, even offering to apply for an emergency aid grant.

I'd just like to have a pretty smile for once in my life.....

This was amazing fun, thanks to TWL for coming up with it, and thanks to everyone who played!! Be sure to check out everyone else's!!

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Finally! I gotta say, I love me some Dropkick Murphys. They get it. This is prolly one of my FAVORITE Christmas songs EVER. EverEver.

Tried blogging a song from my phone. 'Parrently, I can't. SoooOOoo....go YouTube "I wonder" by Chris Issac... lazy asses!