since i got to work 1st today, iiiiiii got to choose the radio station. heh. no "lite mix from the 70's,80's and 90's!" oh no. it's ma new station. alternative, some metal, and they pepper in some punk. lovely. anyway, it's a "from the past" weekend for them. so they're playing all the late 80's-early 90's grunge, alterntative, punk, etc. etc. etc.

on ma way home i hear "girl, you'll be a woman soon" the urge overkill version from pulp fiction.

[url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rg0Hhmm07VM[/url]

i was 17, he was 26. he played bass guitar in a metal band, had grown up in jamaica, was rastafarian, and was absolutely gorgeous. he introduced me to red stripe, bob marley, and elvis. and while he wasn't my "first", he was the first man i wanted. not a 15-16-17 year old boy, but a man. who lived in a cool apartment, who would wake me up from his couch @ 3am to go swimming naked in the ocean (and that was BEFORE we did anything!), who taught me how to roll a joint.

anyway... you get the idea. i had the biggest crush on him. would skip school, and/or lie to my parents to crash at his appt. we'd hang out, listen to music, get high and write/draw/paint/sculpt. either just the two of us, or his roomie, or a group, it didn't matter.

late late late one night. both of us higher than kites, and drunk to boot, i took a deep breath, and just blurted out "i want to sleep with you. i don't want to date you. i just wanna fuck." he didn't look surprised, in the least. said he'd think about it.

everything went back to the way it had always been, for about two weeks. one day, he was sitting across from me on his bed, and started playing his guitar, singing that song, "girl, you'll be a woman soon" and i knew. it was his way of telling me he'd dealt wif the age issue, the "not" dating issue, all of it.

the next night, we had sex. i was as nervous as i'd been when i lost my virginity. hell, this man had been with plenty of women. i'd been with 2. and both of them under 18. and it was everything i'd wanted. hot and steamy and OMG good. he knew positions i'd never even THOUGHT about.

we carried on like that for a few months. basicly just your basic "friends with benefits" arrangement. i stopped fucking him the day we'd snuck off to his van, ditching the beach and the beer and everyone else. it'd been the 1st time we shagged in daylight. and he said afterward he'd never do it again. lmfaoooooo he said i made weird faces. ya'll can't comprehend how long it took me to get over THAT! but anyway, that was a great spring/summer, with a song that never fails to remind me of those times....

ok, today went as expected. lol. i'm finally allowed to decorate cakes. more out of necessity than what they consider my skill level. they fired ma mentor (this is her 3rd firing, so i'm fairly certin she'll be back.) and the other decorator is still MIA.

so. i'm decorating now. yay. pffft

i iced 100 cupcakes today, and wrote "eat me" on each. in 6 diffrent colors. feckin "alice n wonderland" wedding. great idea. clever. but FFS ma hand is killin me!

work the past two days has been....well. it's been shitty. ma "mentor" was off tuesday and wednesday, which yea. she has 2 days off, but she never GET'S two days off. she's usually called in on one or both of them, and she's always the 1st one to come in when there's an emergency. not so the past two days. no one's spoken to her. today, they talked to her, she said "i'll be there in a lil bit" @ 10am. when i left @ 3 she still hasn't shown up.

nevermind this is the THE chick. but she's also been the only one to tell me what needs to be done. fuck. i'm easy. give me a list of shit to do, no matter how long, and it'll be done before i leave. past 2 days? no list, no direction, no nuffin. so i do what i know i'm "allowed". cupcakes, cookies, ice cakes, dessert cakes, etc.

granted, i could stick 'round till someone says "hey, do this" but i ask, nothing is offered. bah. i'm gone. i hate riding the clock, as it were.

added to the confusion i have, is the ONLY other decorator left. (one of the "head decorators" has been MIA for over a week). she's the one who was afraid i was there to take her job. ffs. i'm not. don't want it. anyway, she's nothing but snotty and bitchy and GRRRRRRRRRR. i'm seriously THIS close to saying fuck this shitty-ass pay job and work at a gas station or flipping burgers or ANYTHING where there's actual direction.

let it be known. i come in tomarrow, and get bitched at for what i HAVEN'T done the past two days? they're getting a great big FUCK YOU and prolly a face full of butterpaste.

aint no toy in this world enough to make me smile today.

k, so thanks to juicy, i've finally broken down and ordered ma 1st glass dildo!! yay!!!!!!

[url]http://www.adameve.com/adult-sex-toys/dildo-sex-toys/sp-cyberglass-four-way-g-12047.aspx?itemtype=85[/url]

now, i don't know if this works for uk or canada. but feel free to try. if you shop @ adamandeve.com for the next few weeks..i have a promo code i heard 'bout on the radio. ANY purchase, 50% off, as well as free shipping, 3 FREE dvd's and a FREE toy (valued @ $19.99). so ma toy, which goes for $34.99 + $8.00 shipping, i got for $17.49, AND lots of free goodies!!

so, if ya got a spare dollar or twenty, check it out. the promo code is "grab" can't possibly get a better deal. i can't waiiitttttttttttttt to get ma toy!!!!

we went yesterday, and other than it being over 100F, and me losing 5lbs due to sweat, was great! i loved the chimpanzees, they were all hanging out near the "viewing" stations as that's where the shade was. the birds were amazing, and just wish i could have gotten more pics of all the primates, and the reptiles, but the glass makes for horrid pics, as you'll see. the bird seen here actually looked brown and drab, until the flash hit him. seeing him through the viewfinder was amazing.

posting this so when i call "bullshit" in the room, there's a visual


random animal pics





all in all, a good day

so yesterday was ma friday, and we took pops out for dinner. afterwards, we dropped the old people off at the house and headed for the nearby elementary school playground. even if there wasn't much of a breeze, we got ma kite up n flying. was fun.

last night, got into it wif dum. got some great advise from a friendly telephone call, ie "go to the garage (where dum was pouting) take off ya clothes. and see what happens"

we made up a few times.

today, been lazy as all get out. we'd planned on going to the zoo, but i slept in till noon. making up is hard on a body, ya know. and by the time i was up and about, it was too hot (106F with the index). so instead dum asked if i wanted to see a movie. yay! AND i got to pick. well, gave him a choice. angels and demons, or star trek. he picked angels and demons. lol

so tonight, a movie, and tomorrow, the zoo. sounds like a good weekend to me

i dunno if i'm sick again...or still. but been runnin a fever, wif the icky body aches, coughing and just blahhhh...

seems i've been sick more than i've been well since i moved up here. i say it's yankee germs attacking ma poor southern body, dum says it's the southerness leaving ma body.

i got a call from ma boss lady today, told me she was giving me the night off, since there aren't any orders for tomorrow O.O ffs!

ah well....i'll enjoy (pffffft) ma night off....

ok, so there's gonna be alot of people who call "bullshit" but i swear this is true. i've never flown a kite before. hell, never owned one. i did however, tie the handles of plastic shopping bags together with twine and "fly" those. lol..nuffin like a white trash childhood, eh?

anyway, me n dums were shopping for groceries yesterday, and we keep walking past this display...of kites....for 99 cents. lol... i guess i walked past it too many times, we were in line, about to check out, and was staring at them again...dum said ya want one? i said sure. lol, we get home and i put it together. we were planning to go to the park, but had to feed the old people. i was still giggling like a kid when i got it 5ft off the ground in the back yard. dum still hasn't stopped giggling.
the lovely shaz asked for a pic, and i took one. i hate it. ya'll can look throu all 300ish pics in ma gallery, and you'd be hard pressed to find a real smile...but....*shrug* was a happy time



and of course, mommy had to play wif the babies too, charlie and rayce gettin their lubbins...

work was great, but this ain't bout work. i just get so tired of people thinking everyone is stupid. obviously photoshopped pics, again, and again, and again.

day before yesterday it was called kandyisdandy. i called it out. it ran away, after putting up a lil fight.

yesterday, it was Karen.J, whom i actually spoke to. checked out it's pics, and they looked a lil fishy. had dum look @ em since he's the expert, and he says the look alright. wasn't paying much attention in the room till i see it tell someone it's other name is kandyisdandy. FFS, again, i call it for what it is..a fake. it says no no no. finally relents and leaves.

and then TODAY! it's back wif a diffrent name, Susan.H. same face badly photoshopped onto some poor woman's body. *sighs and bangs her head against the wall* why am i the only one noticing a pattern? and the only one noticing really really bad photoshop jobs?!? worse than the one of dum....

just pisses me off is all. i'm friends with alot of very real, very awesome people on this site. and i consider things like that ^ to be personal attacks on everyone of us, as well as the site we call our community.

bah.......

lol...i was dreading going in to work after yesterday. but i went. and as soon as i got there, head decorator lady and one of the owners pulled me into the office. they apologized for yesterday. it was crazy, and throwing me into the fire head first wasn't cool. they were actually surprised i came back today. but ya'll know i'm stubborn as hell.

so today, head decorator lady stood side by side wif me and showed me her ways to tame the spackle..errr buttercreme. by the end of the day, i've pretty much got the knack. not perfect, but fuck...it's ma 4th day.

sooooOOOo.....yea. dum was wrong. i wasn't over-reacting. ma feelings were justified. and ty everyone for ya words of encouragement (and ju, for the kick in the ass)

*muwahhhhhh*