it's hard to be all happy and cheerful when i'm all crampy and grumpy. and i'm not even on the sugar pills yet. seems these new birth control pills are messin wif ma body and ma mind a bit more than i thought they would. poor dum's ready to take me off of em, just to stop the bitchiness. i figure it can't last much longer, right?!?

well, that weekend didn't go as badly as i'd thought. dum's whole family (mom, dad, and both sisters) were there for his sis's graduation. and it was fun. working out the different ways me n dums could get "alone" time was deffo the most fun part. the basement "party pad" couch late at night, and yes, the backseat of ma truck while we waited for said graduation to get started. hehehehe we're bad. sessy...but bad.

ma cake turned out surprisingly well, especially when considering i had no professional type bakery to do this with. but grad girl and family were all sufficiently impressed.

it's been a few days, and we're slowly workin out the kinks. will take some time, it's never easy when one person moves into a houseful. i just gots to get unpacked. all these boxes are annoying me!

i went 'round to michaels (a craft store) and a grocery store yesterday...BY MYSELF! and i didn't get lost. felt kinda good. here in a few more days, after all the hoopla over dum's sister's graduation and mothers day, i figure i'm just gonna drive....i can't get too lost. got ma trusty tomtom.

speaking of his sisters graduation. i got maself into a great big ole mess. LOL. offered to do her cake. and not just ANY cake, doing a three tier cake, each tier a diff flavor and iced in a diff icing. made to look like a pile of books. yeesh. if i were in ma shop, i'd knock it out in no time. BIG difference between a fully stocked bakery and ma kitchen wif the few tools and utensils i bought. i just hope i don't embarrass dum. he's been crowing 'bout how talented i am....gahhhhh. baked 5 layers of cake yesterday, gonna try icing everything today. wish me luck. if it dosn't look like complete and utter shit, i'll post pics.

well, we made it! it only took 14 hours drive time. no major accidents, no mechanical problems. i drugged maself the entire way. dramamine works wonders for knocking out a nervous passenger. and dum got to giggle @ ma xxxxxx conversation. when i wasn't off in la-la land, i read exerpts from a book, "i hope they serve beer in hell" by a guy called tucker max. i think he's dums new hero.

yes the trip was smooth, other than the one wrinkle...coming into stl, i HAD to pee....like painfully bad. finally threatened dum to pee out the window if he didn't pull over. he wouldn't, so i effectivly mooned st louis international airport and peed on whoever was behind us.

get home and rayce was OMG sooooooo happy to see his mommy. and he's not a lil pup anymore. he did some damage to me, accidently, but still...OUCH



all in all, i'm glad i'm home.

right. so i'm leavin on monday, right? got a million and three things to get done before then AND still work 10-12 hours a day! FFS! ma brother, whom i love dearly, is the original owner of ma trent. that grumpy slobbery old cat i've told ya 'bout. i'd found him a happy home near where i live, wif no other cats, just him, his occasional outdoor excursions.. and ma friend. no........... my brother, his original owner, wants trent wif him. ooooooooookkkkkkkkkkkk...............almost $200 later, got trent up to date on all his vaccinations, AND his "cert of health" up to date.....PLUS a carrier....and i'm cryin.............this has been ma cat for 'bout 3 years now. i'm worried 'bout him flying so very far away. what if something happens to him?!?!?! i know ma brother loves him, but he loves the IDEA of him..........i love him for all his slobbery, insessent ewwwwwww mess............cried when i was fillin out the forms, and will cry saturday when i put him on the plane :*(

was ma first day back at work since dum got here. =( FFS. got a call yesterday from ma store manager, tellin me ma closer (who had her notice in, thursday her last day) had come in and just QUIT. never mind the fact i'd been drinking for a good bit, AND just got done shaggin ma dums for the umpteenth time for the day...i wasn't thinkin clearly when i told him i'd close tonight. COMPLETELY forgot i had to be up @ 5am tomarrow (thursday)

ah well, dum sent me to work wif a smile, damn i love that man, and what he does to me....

closed the bakery early...lol....9pm, rather than 10. there's deli folk who can cover the front that last hour. it pisses me off that i have to be gone from him all day, after being apart so damn long. =( tomarrow i'm opening, mixing AND decorating. FFS....why did i do this to maself???!?

woke up yesterday, drove to the airport, and waited...and waited... finally...he walks up. que movie music and angels singing as we kiss. i came prepared tho. was wearing that green sundress i posted in, with nuffin on underneath. had parked wayyyyyy out in the middle of the parkinglot, and had ma back seats down, with blanket spread out. seeing as how dum had been hard since he left st.louis, and i'd been wet since i woke up. we had the most amazing sex....well...more fucking than sex. forgot to turn on the a/c so it was super hot and super sweaty and OMFGGGGGGGGGGG super sessy.

finally got dressed and started to ma parents house. dum took full advantage of the fact i wasn't wearing any panties, and did regular "spot checks" mmmmmmmmmm

was rough @ the parents house, we wanted nothing more than to be alone and naked somewhere, but had to be sociable. everybody got dum gifts (surprise surprise) and a few hours later we were on our way home. well...almost home. again, dum took full advantage and we found out i can get eaten out while driving and drive quite well. hehehehehehe

stopped @ a local sex shop, got more cockstar pills, this time his n hers. a couple of outfits (there will be pics) and a new toy. waterproof this time, because dum wants to use one on me in the bath. *sighs and can't wait* had to stop @ another store for boxes, but dude wasn't there, so finally on our way home.

walk in the door and perhaps 2 minutes later, dum had me bent over a chair and was pounding me. OMGGGGGGGG i missed this. we spent the rest of the day and night shagging/fucking/making love. with breaks in between to let me come back down from cloud 9 a bit. we wound up going to bed early...lol...we was both wore out. tho dum did wake me up round 2am with his tongue all over my....errr....yea.

so now it's day two, and we still have a bit more sessy time to spend before getting down to business.

*muwah* ya'll don't know how happy i am....

so today was saturday. and busy. but i didn't care. ma mind was (is) on monday, and finally being with ma dum again.

was in a good mood all day. didn't care WHO was bitchy, or annoying, or whatever. fuck em if they wanted to be in a bad mood. wasn't going to let it infect mine.

that, and there were alot of "lasts" the LAST time i made buttercreme, not for nothing, but any decorator i ever worked with only wanted me to make it...so smooth and creamy, didn't need any simple syrup or even need to be whipped.

my LAST wedding cake. (at this bakery anyway teehee) turned out very pretty, three tier, hunter green with white accents...

my LAST cake delivery, the one i made. (again, only here ;P) and one of the best. bride cried, mother-of-the-bride cried, ANDDDDDDDDDD was cuz they were happy! lol... got lots of hugs, and despite ma protests, professional pictures taken of me setting it up, and with the bride and said cake. glad i wore one of ma nice shirts today. LOL

my LAST saturday. the last time i'll have to put up wif the saturday rush, the new tourists wif their questions...

just gotta make it throu tomarrow........then....sleep (if i can) and have ma dums in ma arms.....AND the back of ma truck heheheheheheheheh

two days, cuz i don't count today.........or monday. todays almost ova, and monday will have hardly begun (if i can sleep) by the time ma dums flys in. two days.

it's been two months. since i've touched him, kissed him, hugged him, felt his hand on my thigh.......*sighs* these next two days will be jam packed. tryin to get the house cleaned, as well as sort throu what i want to take wif me, and what get's donated.

two days....it's alot less than two months. and these last two months have been trying....for both of us. we've both said to each other, several times, that if we can make it throu these 2 months, we can make it throu anything.

and i believe we will. two days....when your limited to phone, txt, and the occasional video chat, you have to talk much more than another couple, one who met throu friends, or in a bar. there's constant reassuring, constant doubts. patience, and understanding, and a lack of wild imagination (which, unfortunately, i do NOT have)help.

just two days.......and then no more goodbyes.

i got home too late to blog last night, so ya'll get TWO days worth in one! call it a ROGO (read one, get one free) if you will...

yesterday. got to work and FUCK! not only is the "bakery boss" in ma dept, she's walkin wif the district manager. i kinda hide out in the front office for a bit, till it's obvious i'm avoiding them. finally make ma way over there...they didn't find too very much wrong, but they didn't look too hard. when ma boss lady was told how short i was on inventory, she was astonished. she had thought i'd be MUCH MUCH shorter. "why did i think it was going to be so much worse?" she asks. "cuz ya forgot who was runnin this shop" says i. hehehehe
then mr. district manager gives me ma "exit interview" basicly, a chance to tell him what i think they (as upper management) can do to help the bakery. any bakery. well......you KNOW i was rubbin ma hands together and cackling wif glee. only made two points, but they pretty much cover EVERYTHING that i see wrong with bakery manager's treatment. (i'm paraphrasing here)
1. nothing's ever good enough. if i'm making ma goals on A,B,C, AND D....they come in and bitch that i'm not making ma goal E. one of my exact quotes to him, "when we should be getting a pat on the back, we're getting a kick in the butt"
2. myself, and EVERY other bakery manager i have ever worked with...eat, sleep and BLEED our shops. we come in on our days off, we work 8 days a week, 25 hours a day. our associates, are our family, mostly because we see more of them then our REAL familys. but we love them. understand we're seriously confined by not only our store managers, but the corporation as a whole. understand that we're all doing the best we can with what we have. another direct quote "seriously. there's no 'superwoman' costume under our clothes. we're only human".

he gave me the party line, blah blah blah. but i'd like to think maybe ONE or two things i said have stuck in his brain.

so yea!! that was FUN! and liberating

then today........LOL.......was reading the paper on ma lunch, and read how its now legal for 17 year olds to buy the "morning after" pill w/o a script or parental permission. which reminds me......FUCK! i GOTTA get on birth control!! not for nothing, belly button cum pools rock, but would rather...well ya know. so hit the new dr. office next door. accepting new patients? yep. accept ma ins? yep. k, let's schedule an appt. i figure next week. chick says "how's 2pm?" HUH?? TODAY? LMFAOooooo! never heard of that! so i says okee and lied ma ass off (of COURSE i don't smoke! the last doc i told i smoked, woudln't give me birth control at all) and walked out wif ma script. yay!!!! no lil dummy's runnin 'round

then on ma way home, saw a school bus coming the opposite way...and damn, why they swervin soooo far into ma lane? got closer to the swerve spot and....yep. iz ANOTHER turtle. this time i did it right...pulled ALL the way off the road, turned on ma blinkers, and got out. he was cute. as i was running toward him (there was another car coming) he musta thought i DIDN'T want him on that side, so turned and started going back the other way. got him well off the road and went on ma way.......

i'm such a sucker...........lol