do ya'll get those door-to-door grocery sales people? out here, they come wif their refrigerated trucks peddling steaks and chicken n such.

k, now that ya'll know what they are... LMFAOOOOOO!!

me n dum were havin a lil...sessy time this morning. and yes, even 800 miles away, the man has the ability to make me scream, moan, sigh...all quite loudly. *sighs wif the memories*

oh wait...sorry...back to the story... we finish up and i'm lighting a ciggy, when i hear something outside. i peek throu the blinds, and the refrigerated truck is now backing out of ma driveway. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! fucker didn't even knock! but i wonder just how long he was standing outside, listening....

i haven't really talked 'bout this.........

but i don't know how much longer i can go on wif it.

i can't sleep. yes i fall asleep fast....... but i'm waking up every hour to hour n a half...i don't stay awake long....maybe 10 mins tops....

i wake up every morning exhausted...i sometimes think i'd be better off not going to sleep at all........

i've tried all the OTC meds. tylonol pm and unisom and well, everything. but i usually can't have 8 hours sleep, so those pills fuck me up worse than NOT sleeping.

if anybody's got some suggestions......would love 5 or 6 hours of shut eye............

to THE bakery BITCH.

i know i'm not there too much longer, and THEY know i'm not there to much longer (ma crew, not ma bosses), so i suppose they think they can get away wif anything, and i'll let it slide.

welllllllllllllll..........i think differently.

i've always been the "cool" boss. let things slide or accept excuses or just ignore when something happens. after today? no fuckin more. i don't care if i'm there for another day, or for another month!!

to explain. 4 times a year this company comes in. the company who MY company pays to check the stores on the same things the health dept. does, but 100 times more in depth. well, once a year, they tell us the exact date, the exact date they will show up. i found out last tuesday they'll be in ma store on april 1st. the next wednesday. since i was off wednesday and thursday, i left a veeeeeeeeeeeeeery detailed letter, giving each associate two or three chores to do during the time i was gone.

guess what? other than ONE of ma 5, NOTHING WAS DONE. ok, i was kinda steamed 'bout this. then.....30 mins after i got to work, mr. boss man comes 'round and wants to do a walk with me... everything wrong he pointed out, WAS ON THE FUCKIN LIST TO DO!!!! grrrrrrrrrr...i get ma ass chewed. ok, i've gone from steamed to pissed. then mr. boss man calls a manager meeting, where he proceeds to chew ALL of our asses again........

kricket went from pissed, to OMFG DANGER levels.....

went back to ma dept, and informed the 3 associates i had there that i didn't care if they had to go to their fuckin mother's funeral after work. NOBODY leaves till that to do list was done. yea. wasn't the "cool" boss anymore. they clean. i'm slowly cooling down.... until ma bestest associate makes the announcement that when she's done wif what she's doing, she's leaving. i ask her if her list is done. nope. but she's leavin anyway.

fine. whatever. she's got a counseling statement on ma desk right now. she'll get it tomorrow. the other two actually stepped up and got it done.

trust. they'll all be pissed tomorrow when they come in and find ANOTHER list. which WILL be completed before they leave. or they will be written up again. i don't care. i'll give em a week off wif no pay.

i've let all of them know, that since mr. boss man has told me if the bakery scores less than a 95%, i'll be written up, if we score less than a 95%, THEY'LL be written up. shit rolls downhill and i won't leave this bakery looking like shit.......

grrrrrrrrrrrrr.... MEAN KRICKET!!!

lol

ok, been up 'bout 4 or 5 hours, and JUST now got dressed. and cleaned up ma empties...

i guess i'm still recovering from last night...mmmmmmmMMmmm... ma baby deffo takes care of me. i can't wait to be with him again, this time, with no goodbyes....

i can finally tell ya'll what i got dummy for our upcoming anniversary. LOL..it arrived 'bout a week early, but pfft, better than a week late! he's always bitchin that he can never find socks long enough for him. he likes em to his knees almost. so i got him 5 pairs of knee high tube socks wif hot pink stripes, and 5 pairs of knee high tube socks wif hot pink n black stripes.

he got em today, and has promised to dig out his sandles for a pic or three and LMFAOOO cuz he thought he forgot the anniversary.....

i've been home for 'bout an hour...and it's been a day....

got to talk to ma dums AND see him......this morning upon waking... ye gods i love that man. i sent him a prezzie....won't tell him what it is, but trust. all of you will know

i love being able to show other people how to do things.... especially something i've always thought i was bad at....like math.

ma (now) not-so-evil bossman came ova to bring the news... this past quarter, ma bakery was NOT the only one in the district, but the ONLY ONE IN THE REGION, to make all our goals for this quarter. WHO'S the bomb?!? i gotta treat ma crew to lunch.....

Orion is so very low in the sky tonight, coming home his belt was only just above the horizon. being a scorpio, it's a powerful time.....for those who don't know, in mythology, orion was a giant, who boasted entirely too much, so a Goddess (grins) sent a scorpion after him, which stung and killed him. since he was neither God nor human, he was laid to rest in the stars.... not to be out(un)done... that Goddess placed the scorpion opposite to orion....so.........when orion is down? the scorpion is up. so said, all ma scorps in this hemisphere should be having very powerful days today.....

wow..sorry 'bout that....LOL.....

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx to everyone

i didn't set out, at 18, with the clear goal of becoming a stripper. no, i'm not sure if i stumbled, tripped, or FELL into it, but i did.

my best friend, i called him "blue-hair-the-baby-smasher" BHBS for short, took me to my first strip club on my 18th birthday. him and ma roommate josh. josh bought me (us)a bottle of voddy for the night, and BHBS had promised to finance the evening for the three of us as my prezzie. after a few shots, they wanted to know what i wanted to do. our threesome usually went to a certain bar and played pool, and i'm sure they expected me to choose just that. but i wanted to enter that sacred space, the inter sanctum of men...the strip club.

we loaded up into the car, and off we went...

i'm in the backseat, dressed in what (at the time) i considered "dressy" for me... a black n white striped tube top, hiphuggers, and ma faithful docs. i was already 8 sheets to the wind drunk, as ma boys thought i was a riot when drunk...the hot pink neon lights around the roof were the first thing i saw, and ma heartbeat quickened...

i was ushered (supported) inside and sat at a prime table. center stage, 1st row. and it's everything i knew it would be. dark, with strobe lights, neon and soft bulbs reflecting off the mirrors everywhere.... and the women! oh my, the women! ladies of every size and shape, some smooth and free of any embellishments, some tattooed, pierced, but all showing amazing amounts of naked flesh.

i sat there, absorbing it all for prolly almost an hour. ma darlin josh had deep pockets, and had a "surprise" of a pint of voddy for me, mixed with my glasses of O.J. in the mens room.

after a good bit, and after i'd gotten an eyeful of massive amount of flesh from the stage, i decided on the female that i found the most beautiful. her name was "faith" yea, i know. classic stripper name, but i was still new to that world, so i thought it perfect for her. 5'2, maybe 5'3 without the typical platform heels, asian, long black hair, thin to the point of skinny, perfectly upturned perky breasts... *sigh* she was a goddess. i worked up the nerve to tell BHBS THAT'S the one i want. that's the girl i want to tip. he comes with me to the rail, as she's dancing to metallica's "enter sandman". as i sit down, she abruptly leaves her station in front of some guy, no tip taken, and makes her way to me....

i have yet since seen a woman move so smoothly, so sexily, so slowly towards me. but by the time she was standing in front of me (all of 20 seconds) i was wet and i'm fairly certain ma mouth was hanging wide open. she spent the remainder of the song moving/dancing/swaying/entrancing me....a good 2 minutes. her next song came on, off came the top and out came those OMG perfect breasts. the song is metallica's "fade to black".

she pushes me back into my chair, pulls my tube top down to my waist and starts licking and fondling my tits. i'm 2 seconds away from cumming in ma jeans, when she licks her way up to my neck, kisses my ear, and whispers, "your going to dance for me."

.....is it any wonder i came back the next weekend, had my interview, and graced the stage for the first time?

and yes, "faith" turned out to be my mentor in several things, least of which was dance. her real name is joy. (i know, i laughed too) and she gave me my first tip my first time on stage. a crisp brand new $100 bill.

i'd forgotten it was saturday.

well...ma entire blog got sent to dums in an e-mail. lol....started writing it, then realized i was writin it to ma dummy.

i wanted to go home early today, as..........well...started being a girl...and was in gawd awful pain. since i can't do that, did ma bestest and got the job done. left on time, only wishing i could curl up in a ball and make the rest of the world cease to exist.

today's a celebration for me...for all pagans, it's Ostara... for us pagans, a new beginning, spring. i had a very loooooooong very magikal celebration planned. but now i can't. some women, while menstruating are all powerful. can make amazing things happen.... others...their powers are out of control, and there's no telling where anything goes. i'm of the latter variety. so i know better than to try to preform anything magikal when i'm being "a girl". so i've given thanks, and given prayers and that will have to do. hopefully next year, eh?

ok, it's been a day, nuffin spectacular, nuffin crazy bad or crazy good...

one of ma favorite venders came in (he's a deli guy) today. *sighs* nuffin like a lil man candy to make the day betta. both me n the deli manager sigh over this dude like crazy... wonder if i slip him an NN business card, he'd get the hint? MD, ya'd love this guys ass...ya could bounce a quarter off it for days...sorry baby, but *sighs*

ma pixies are back...again. got home from work, went to throw a load of laundry in, but the washer door was up, and it was full of water. i KNOW i'm not gonna run an empty washer, then stop it for a soak cycle. *heaves a different kind of sigh*

ma clerk who was in the car accident is back YAY! i've missed her like crazy. nuffin like havin someone you can count on @ night.

i ate entirely too much at "lunch"...wound up having to take some excedrine migraine for ma back, which didn't like the two ruben sandwiches i had in ma tummy, so as i was driving along @ 60, had to make an emergency pit stop to relieve maself of the $12.00 lunch. =( feelin better now....

choose or lose.... i'm linkin this, hope ma 'merican friends will sign, at the very least. you could call, or write your senator or congress person..tho it takes time, enough of us will make it heard. if not, then click the link, and ontop of the video, click sign, and....if you feel the cause worthy, sign your name to something we shouldn't have to be signing anyway. this SHOULD be 2nd nature. you take care of those who take care of you. period. end of sentence. it's a sad state of affairs when it takes the country's efforts to give benefits to those who should be receiving those BASIC fings.

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luff ya all..wanted to blog somethin else, but this takes precedence...

be B.R.A.V.E. and sign..........