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Hope everyone is having a good day. The weather has improved very much. Up to 39, almost t-shirt weather.

Yesterday had one call. A guy got kicked in the face by a horse. Dang horses. They can kick pretty damn hard. Probably not the first time this guy had been kicked. He had a saddle bronc champion belt buckle so I would say he has spent a lot of time around horses but got on the wrong side of this one. He was doing remarkably well all things considered. Probably spent several hours in the OR tho.

Went to supper last night with that friend. Had a pretty good time. Been friends with this girl for a long time. She has been farting around with this guy now for almost 4 years and he is an idiot. He is so in and out on her. He stopped coming to see her for a while. They went almost a year without talking, but he was constantly sending her text messages. Would not call her tho or come see her. I don't know why for the life of me that ppl put up with such stuff but then with my history maybe I don't have much room to talk. I think a lot of this girl. I've cooked for her before and took her french toast this morning to work. I wouldn't mind going out with her but she is so wrapped up in this bum.

That's my newest resolution. To not date anyone that is not 100% available for a relationship. No ex's in the wings, no pending divorces, no seperations. None of that stuff. Don't feel that every date has to blossom into a relationship but I want that option open with no strings.

Well, I am cooking lasagna today for my youngest daughter's birthday. She turned 23 Tues. Today was the first day we could get together for supper.

You all have a good done.

Working part of the day and going in early. The ice storm earlier this week really has things messed up around here. Luckily I never lost power but lots around me did. The ice coating everything is so pretty esp with the sun or at night with lights shining through it but it sure makes for a lot of problems.

I have been taking Niki to work with me but I think today we may be gone from base most of the day so I am leaving her home. Just pen her up in the kitchen and give her enough supplies for the day and plenty to chew on. She's so sweet. Had her in bed with me last night and I woke up and she was asleep on my arm. But damn she bites so much. I'm trying to break her from that but know she will outgrow it eventually.

A long time friend of mine called last night complaining about her bf not doing anything with her for Valentine's Day. He told her not to expect flowers because they were too expensive. I thought that was dumb. Anyway, he was not even going to take her to supper. I told her I would take her to supper after I got off work if that wasn't too late and if she wanted to go. She said she would so at least maybe I have somewhat of a date tonight.

Hope you all have a nice Valentine's Day.

Take Care

About taking her stuff to her I mean. She called yesterday and was asking about Niki. She asked if I needed a break and I told her we were doing fine. She said her boys were missing her and asked if it would be possible for her to get her for part of this upcoming weekend. I told her that would be fine and just to call me Friday evening and we could make arrangements to get her. I'm just going to give her the stuff then. If she says anything about about my stuff I'll just take and get rid of it myself.

I'm going to share something only one other person knows. My most embarrassing sex related moment. I had been seeing this girl for a while and we had just had sex. Might have even been our first time. After we finished I got up to go to the bathroom to get a towel. I had on a condom and things had already started to deflate. Luckily the condom was at that point longer than I was. This girl had a little dog. While walking to the bathroom the dog came out of nowhere jumped up and grabbed the condom in mid air. Her spikey little teeth also grabbed a little of me. She pulled the condom off and was gone. It all happened so fast and I was checking to see what the damage was. She broke the skin in three places and I was bleeding. When she bit me I kinda gasp and probably let out a holy shit and Laura ask what happened. I told her and she said well get it away from her. Never mind me. We both chased down the dog but too late, it was gone. Afterwards we laughed but I thought what would I have told the ppl in the ER if it would have been bad enough to go in. She was more worried about what she was going to tell the vet if the dog ended up with an obstruction. To top it off the dog was a miniature dachshund, a real wiener dog.

That's my story now it's your turn

Been so busy last two days. Worked Wed and we were up most of the night, then base meeting Thursday morning, so instead of getting off at 0800 I got away from there at 1300. Came home to find the house a wreck. I had planned to take Niki to work with me when I worked but since some bigwigs from headquarters were coming to the base meeting I thought I might should leave her at home. I barricaded her in the kitchen where I have tile floors which I still cover with newspapers. Left out enough food and water and arranged for my daughter to check on her.

One thing I saw the other night while flying was pretty neat. We see ground fog all the time but the temp and conditions were just right and the fog was up way off the ground. It was like the clouds were falling out of the sky. The pilot had to maneuver around a lot because company policy forbids them to fly into conditions where visiblity is limited so we flew past these clouds. But it was almost like you pulled a plug in the bottom and they were draining to the ground. Pretty neat. In the early a.m. we had another flight and I wore the night vision goggles and it was snowing. The flakes were huge and reflected what light there was and that was pretty neat to.

Well, little dogs can make big messes. She got out of the kithcen chewed up rugs, drug newspaper into every room she could get into. Also left 3 little reminders outside my bedroom door. Also a couple in the living room. She did at least pee on what newspaper she didn't drag out of the kitchen. Now I remember why I have always liked outside dogs. She also has such little wicked sharp teeth.

After getting home I just cleaned up a little of the mess, mostly the smelly stuff and showered and went to meet my daughter for lunch. After lunch we went to order her a bassinet. She is about ready for the baby.

I came home and hit the couch for a nap. Niki took on in her crate. She doesn't like it much but settles down after a few min of crying. Took a good nap and got up just long enough to take Niki out and then went to bed.

Today was just errands and piddly stuff. Did finish getting the house back in order, at least the usual level of order. Tonight I am watching one of the grand boys while my youngest goes out to supper for her birthday with some friends. He will be here soon. I am wondering how he and Niki are going to do together. I would say fine except for Niki's biting. Be so glad when she outgrows that.

You all have a good evening and take care.

T called last night saying her kids had not helped her with the dog at all and if I still wanted her she would bring her to me. I thought girl you don't know what you want. I said of course I'll take her. She just brought her by. Her boys had named her Nico. I kinda like it but my daughter says I should change it.

T said she was really torn about giving her up but she just has all she can handle. I told her she had a month to change her mind. I'm just too nice or too crazy. I'm sure after I get attached to her I may not be so quick to give her up. We joked about joint custody. I have her a week then she gets her a week.

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind.

She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her.
She told her boyfriend, "If I could only see the world, I will marry you."

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.

He asked her,'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?'
The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.'

This is how the human brain often works when our status changes.
Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.

Life Is a Gift

Today before you say an unkind word -
Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

Today before you complain about life -
Think of someone who went too early to heaven.

Before you complain about your children -
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep -
Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive -
Think of someone who walks the sam e distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job -
Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another -
Remember that not one of us is without sin and we all answer to one MAKER.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and thank GOD you're alive and still around







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Kinda quiet today. Worked yesterday therefore no sleep last night. Not that we were busy but the damn dogs out at the airpark were going all night. Good thing for them my Barrett was at the house.

Heard from T thins morning. She had said in the past she had wanted a puppy. Agirl at the hospital had a really cute American Eskimo pup she had to find a home for. I got it for T and told her if she decided she did not want it I would take it because she was a doll. So damn cute and sweetest personality. Yesterday morning she called me if I wanted her because she just had too much to take care of and did not have the time to spend with her. I said sure and was to go get Nico after work today. About he time I was getting off T called and said she had reconsidered because her sons wanted her to keep her and had promised they would help. This girl really doesn't know what she wants. So here I was kind of excited about getting the dog and then once again she changes her mind. Even though it's only been 2 days since the more or less finallity of this relationship I have felt so relieved. I am not sitting around waiting for her to call and being disappointed when she doesn't.

Well, I got my beer and am going to order a pizza for the game. Just going to stay home tonight. Enjoy the quiet time with my new attitude.

Everyone take care.
Nite

I knew she would when she promised last week.
I called her back and told her I was going to leave her alone. She said I could call if I ever wanted to talk but I won't. Might sound odd but we were not friends to start with and if the dating thing did not work out I don't want to be friends. I have plenty of friends and right now I feel she is just another failed relationship. Don't need that reminder. If we ever talk again it will be when she calls me or I just have to see her at work.

Cold and nasty here today. Worked yesterday but the weather had us grounded once again. We had to turn down three calls. One we might could have made but more than likely would have got stuck in Louisville overnight. Not really sorry we missed that one.

Tonight T and I are supposed to go out. I don't know now tho because of the weather. Maybe all this is just an omen that I need to give up and move on. Sometimes she seems to say one thing but her actions tell me something all together different. Which do you go by. I've always heard that actions speak louder than words. I kinda have this feeling. I don't blame her at all and just think the timing of things really sucks. Sometimes I know I need to give up it's just finding just the right moment to that is so hard for me.

Just gonna do some housework and keep busy til time and then see what happens. Either way I am going to tell her I need a little bit more than phone calls and seeing her every 2-3 weeks. I'm tired of going to movies and out to eat alone. Either way things will change. They always do.

Ppl are always changing. Everyone changes. Someone once said that the relationships that last are the ones where the couple accepted the changes. I know I am not the same person I was years ago or even months ago in some respects. There are going to be a couple constants for me but I know there are more changes in store. The person I end up with will change to. Just have to find someone that is willing to change with you and accept your changes. They all don't have to be for the bad.

Actually I think if anyone is dead set against change then they are the ppl to stay away from.

Well, I need to get busy.

You all have a good day and try to stay warm.