LostPrincess
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Tuesday, February 6, 2007, 1:07:20 AM- Wow | ||||||
here we go again.You can call all you want and do as you wish, but the point is I will never be with you again. I love how you are showing me exactly the type of person you are. Ypu can love me miss me all you want and I see how you are trying to get me to say I love and miss you BUT that will not happen. It doesn't matter anymore. You made your decision, YES i know its all my fault, if it snowed in California in Aug it would be my fault, If the ocean went dry it would be my fault. You see BABY cast all the blame on me its OK. You say you dont want to figh HAHAH you are doing a good job at getting me started.NO MATTER what I say you find some way to twist it. GO AHEAD...I am tired of it. I am not missing out BABY you are. I am getting what I need ARE YOU??? I dont think so as you said people cant change just lieke that or did you mean you can't.. I dont let you get to me as you once did..I AM BETTER.. Happy V-Day!!!!!!!!!!!! | ||||||
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Monday, January 29, 2007, 11:28:58 PM- I am so GOOD!! | ||
You see BABY I am doing so great without you..last time we chatted was 2-3 weeks ago SHIT I lost track, anyway I am fine without you. I do read this when I come on to write more and I am AMAZED at myself. I thought i could never do this never stop talking to you, But I actually good with it all. I will never lie and say I am over you over us, as I said all along I will love you forever and thats ok, I am going on moving on with my life. Like I said I can't just say OH I don't love you anymore for me it doesn't work that way, not when love is real, See with you love was a game a mission a THING. I do think about you hoping you are happy and good with life. I really do but that DOESN'T mean I want to talk to you. I think about us out whole relationship it helps me stay focus not to fall again EVER. I try to see where the lies end and truth starts but I don't see much truth. I will always remember you and what we had. I don't want to forget as STUPID as that seems. I never had one person that made me feel so many different things at one time. there were times I had every emotion you can think of in one day with you,Happiness,sadness,angry,love,satisfied,hurt,unsatisfied,heartbleeding,unloved, I can go on but I guess you get the idea. everyone I guess feels these things but I never felt them all in one day not even one day cause thats 24 hrs will say in 10-12 hours. So you see NO i dont want to forget cause if I forget I am scared I might fall again and THAT CAN'T and WILL NOT happen!! I thank you for doing what you did to me cause it made me a better and stronger person. i don't hate you never can, but I don't want you either!! Happy life to you BABY!!!! | ||
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Tuesday, January 23, 2007, 1:01:42 AM- well well | ||
Hmmm its been a few days that I talked to u NOT on the phone but the other place we chat. You do make me laugh. Ypu got mad at me cause I gave someone my e-mail address SOMEONE i been talking to on there b/4 I met you. But its ok for nasty scanks to e-mail you PLEASE and they were doing it while we were together..WHATS THE BS LINE YOU TOLD ME about E-MAIL..yea you remember..when we were together NO MAN was e-mailing me, and I never said u couldnt U choose NOT to..Dont sit here and hand me BS when all you dish out is BS and the sad part is...I pity you...U want to forget me PLEASE by all means DO!!! CRYING is a thing of the past.. see BABY you played for 2 long..I am done playing..U tried to keep me where u wanted with the I love you I miss you I think about you 24-7 I want you I I I I I I..GET IT!!! the "I" is out... FOR once try taking some blame on what happens..Be happy where you are and who you are with, REMEMBER its the rest of you life...I am on my way to happiest..maybe not 100% but that will take time but i am working on it.. | ||
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007, 10:22:12 PM- I am FINALLY !!! | ||||||
I am finally figuring you out, how you operate, its beginning to be clear. Since we have been talking the last few days NOT on the phone cause as I said i dont want to talk to you that way but on here not this site but on the internet. You get an attitude with me, maybe you do not see it, but I do. YOU get mad cause I will not open up to you anymore and WHY should I..LOOK what happen. YOU get mad cause I am short with my replies to you..WHY should I give you the satisfaction of making them longer. then when I dont answer you get all bent out of shape with FINE dont answer..WTF is your problem..I am not here to keep you company..If i dont want to talk to you I dont have to..SORRY BABY but you arent going to bring me down like that anymore..YOU need to figure out what you want in life and leave me out of it..FUNNY how you always seem to come back just when I say FUCK IT and try to move on..THIS time it wont happen I WILL not fall again. I might have be an asshole a jerkoff a fool whatever for falling for the BS, but BABY no more..I AM STRONGER now..the only time when you are telling the truth is when you MOUTH IS SHUT!!! I am ok living my life without you..I am FINE..I hope you will be tho!! | ||||||
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Friday, January 12, 2007, 2:47:03 AM- HMMMMMMMM | ||
well well ..I just read what you said on the other site, you are such an ass. I guess you like any type of women but please dont compare me with a COW...and you know what I am talking about. I am so grossed out right now. DO you have any respect. you ask THAT thing for stuff..I know you can't be desperate or can you. I asked myself everyday why do I let you get to me but then I am thankful cause it shows me your true self and its not nice..but oh well hmmmmmmmmmmmm | ||
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Tuesday, January 9, 2007, 12:04:57 AM- still thinking!!! | ||
I am still thinking about our talk last night and I cant believe some stuff. How can you say you still think about me 24-7. I am not the one who moved away you are, I am still here. You moved for ONE reason and we both KNOW WHAT that is. You expect me to open up to you and let you in my life tell you how I am and all that..WHY SHOULD I? truth be you cant do any more damage to my heart you cant break it cause its still broken. This just confirms it all. No need to say goodbye to me you already did. go live you life and be as happy as you can and please do not worry about me. I am not a perfect angel and never claim to be. but I dont play with minds and hearts and Yes I made mistakes in life..I am human and I am sure I will make more. one thing I cant deny is how I feel about you. I want to learn how to go on and live just like u did, but if you call going on crying almost everyday then yea I am going on. there is a news reporter than reminds me of you not look wise but there is something NOW I AM GLUED to this stupid fucking new reporter on TV..I cant win can I? anyway thats it for now. Today I was remembering all the times i went to your house b/4 work and we made love in the morning and also that time b/4 u went to Vegas and we..well you remember..or even just the times we lay in eachother arms..REMEMBER!!! | ||
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Monday, January 8, 2007, 3:23:12 AM- amazed | ||
I dont know what to say I just finshed talking to you..Exactly 2 months after we talked...I feel hurt I honestly do...U know I love you and forever will but I dont believe a word u say..I want to but I cant, I guess I got to protect myself.U do not understand what I am going thru...I hate what has happen and U say u thought about me for the last 2 months...Pls i find that hard to believe..If u loved me as u sayu do then u would have contacted me sooner. I love you 100% nd I hate myslef for that..u asked me what my blog said and u want to read it I will never tell my name on here but as soon as i read a few lines from each day u jumped in to defend urself...THIS IS NOT TO PUT BLAME but to put my feelings there how i feel ...right or wrong. FOR christ sakes I love you.. I cant hide that ...U moved on..I always thought about what i would say when we spoke and i said nothing when we got the chance. I am glad to hear u r doing good and u love where u are at, thats all that matters right? | ||
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Friday, January 5, 2007, 2:48:42 AM- I am better!!! | ||
As you can tell I am doing ALOT better. I am accepting that I will have to go on and never have answers or make my own answers to questions that I have. Like what kind of person does what you did and not feel guilt. How can you wake up everyday and look in the mirror and like what you see. How do you still go on lying to yourself and you know who. I bet my life that N never knew a thing, which is another thing u lied about..Anyway I can tell you what person you are..YOU are a lying, cheating, low life, who will do whatever to whoever to get what you want and you do not care who u hurt or lie to..I do hope you get what you deserve in life. you will never be happy and u will do what you did again I ONLY hope the next girl is NOT dumb and blind like I was. The only way you can be happy is be truthful to urself..OPS i am sorry U have no clue what truthful is. BABY your day will come and I wish I could see it. You are a sad sad person. I might be an ass for getting involved with a loser but I am awake now. I hope u find happiness I will say a prayer for you at church..You see BABY i made mistakes in life I can admit them and correct them and learn from them..YOU can't you will never admit to anything and PROOF as I have you will not learn from them. So run away hide as u do. I know where you are at and why you are there..OH I forgot you arent man. you cant even make up ur own mind in what u want to do where you should live. THATS SAD..you had to run again ,JUMP and you say how HIGH!! oh and when u do call me and u will YOU will say I always wanted to go there and do that..PLEASE i know u well enough..have a happy life..as I said I will pray for you casue YOU need it!! | ||
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Sunday, December 31, 2006, 3:40:29 PM- Thank You!!! | ||
Just a Thank You for showing your true colors, HAPPY NEW YEAR to you. I am done and over, yes I will still keep this here and write cause it will help me NOT to make the same stupid mistake again. I look at the few pictures that I have of you and think WTF did I fall in love with, then I remember it wasnt you that I fell in love with, IT was you pretending to be something your not cause if you showed me the real you in the beginning YOU best believe I would have BOOKED ASS and RAN as fast as I can. SO you see BABY "remember that was what you call me" BABY I am over it. I will keep you in my prayer tho cause I am a good person like that!! the difference between us is I am real I never lied to you I never played with your heart.you LIED to me YOU are FAKE and you PLAY with HEARTS to get what you want. Yes I admit u had me fooled I admit I feel for it, BUT never again!! my promise to you, YOU know what a promise is OH thats right you don't know because you broke every one to me and to WELL you know who!!!HAPPY NEW YEAR BABY!!! | ||
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Friday, December 29, 2006, 9:12:59 PM- Happy New Years | ||||||
Well x-mas is gone and New Years is almost here do I expect a call from you? HELL NO!!!! and I am good with that. When you dont expect something to happen then you cant get disappointed. I want you to know that I am doing ALOT better then when I first started writing this to you that you never see. I am realizing what kind of MAN you are and I really dont like it. yes I love you and forever will that I cant change. I cant just turn my feelings off and on like a switch, but I can go on with my life. Its not even about the the hurt anymore and how much you hurt and lied to me, its about how selfish you are and with that I mean all you think about is YOU!!! yeah yeah you told me 1 million plus times you think about me 24-7 even tho we arent apart but BABY words are just that WORDS. If it was true as I said before you would have called or something to wish me a merry x-mas or even a happy new year and nothing. Now all I can say is dont even bother to contact me at all. I will live my life and go on and be as happy as I can. You talk about you want me in your life forever even if its to say hi and be friends..well YOU need to learn what that means. this might not make sense to anyone else but I am sure you know exactly what I am talking about. ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS!!! And it will be a FANTASTIC 2007!! WITHOUT YOU!!! | ||||||
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