LostPrincess
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006, 10:34:26 PM- hey you!!!! | ||||||
I hope you had a great christmas. I was with my family it was ok but kind of lonely. Did alot of crying not just because of you, but lots of things, lots that I went thru and when I need you the most as always you are never around. I did make myself a promise and I am going to try my hardest to stick to it. that means erase your phone number erase my memory of you erase you from my life. I realized things will never change and why should I waste my love & heart on you. I am a very very pretty girl with a sexy body,lots of love to give, I am caring have a great sense of humor and this I know and so much more, I just fell in love with someone who isnt good for me and yes I GOT HURT...IF i continue to waste my time on you I will lose all my self esteem one day and right now I have it. I cant wait around for someone that well isnt coming even tho you tell me you will always love me and always want me ..I got to say ITS NOT GOOD ENOUGH ANYMORE..for you not to even say Merry Christmas to me even if you didnt want to talk to me you knew you could have called my job and left it on my v-mail at work or at the other site. ANYWAY that proves alot | ||||||
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Sunday, December 24, 2006, 3:08:23 PM- MERRY CHRISTMAS | ||
well I guess I will be alone at Christmas, I mean I do have family and will be with them. but I am not with you and that makes my heart lonely, I keep hoping you will contact me but who am I fooling. You have a way of always moving on and going on I am the one that is forever stuck. I do wish for myself to move on as best as I could. I know I have to give up but when love is that real that strong that true its so hard to. Even when I think about all the lies and bullshit you gave me I am still here. OK so I am crazy. As soon as I am ok and can move on a little with my life you will get in touch with me and the "baby I love you miss you never stopped thinking about you" and all that will be said thats how u operate you done it b/4 and you will do it again, but this time I will not be so easy to believe. ONE thing i am getting out of writing here writing all this and maybe you will never see it, but I will keep reading it n it will make me strong because I am getting it all off my chest. Merry Christmas | ||
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Saturday, December 23, 2006, 5:25:01 PM- Again!!! | ||||||
Hi baby, I want to say Merry Christmas to you. I was hoping to say it to you but well we aren't talking and i have no clue where you are, ofcourse all I got to do is make one call or have someone make the call for me and I can find out, but I will not do that for the simple reason , if you want me to know whats going on you will get in touch with me either thru my job or the other site we go to. ANYWAY hope you have a Very Merry Christmas and a Healthy & Happy New Year!!! | ||||||
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Friday, December 22, 2006, 3:35:20 AM- Hi baby | ||
I am sitting here thinking about you again. I am so lost as to what happen to you. I have my ways of finding out things and I do hope you are ok. I am not sure what happen with you and your job, but it doesn't seem like you to just get up and leave. I do hope all is well with your family. If you did leave cause you got a better job than I am so happy for you ,but if its your family and you flew back to be with them then I am so sorry and will pray for all to be ok. We had our differences but I do care and worry about you and dont say no need to cause as you so to me I WILL always worry and care. I went to the mall today to MACYS..if you remember when we where there when we went into the dressing room.. I remember the sign MENS only, dressing room is monitor at all times as you can tell I had a better day today then the last few. I do hope all is well with you and i do love you and miss you. I do know you are thinking about me its just a feeling I have. I can be wrong. | ||
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Thursday, December 21, 2006, 12:41:27 AM- Baby for you | ||
Hinder Better than me I think you can do much better than me After all the lies I made you believe Guilt kicks in and I start to see The edge of the bed Where your nightgown used to be I told myself I wouldn't miss you But I remembered What it feels like beside you I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me While looking through your old box of notes I found those pictures That you were looking for If there's one memory I don't want to lose That time at the mall You and me in the dressing room I told myself I won't miss you But I remembered What it feels like beside you I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me The bed I'm lying in is getting colder Wish I never would've said it's over And I can't pretend that I won't think about you when I'm older Cause we never really had our closure This can't be the end I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me (And I think you should know this) (You deserve much better than me) | ||
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006, 9:44:49 PM- Another day | ||||||
well just wanted to tell you I had another not so good day.I am trying to tell myself we are over, done, but why don't I believe it. I guess I just don't want to..I gave myself to you completely. I done things with you "not just sexual things" that I never done with anyone b/4. You let me be myself, you didn't judge me. I remember all the days, night and the weekends I spent with you and when we would kiss goodbye I felt like I couldn't breathe then when I saw you the next day and we kiss I felt like I was able to breathe again. I can't understand how you can kiss someone as we did and not want more. everything we had was so right. well I guess it wasn't. I hope one day we can talk I do want to be friends ONE DAY, right now its so hard cause everytime we talked we end up talking about what we had and the I love you miss you and all will be talked about. I miss it tho I miss your voice I miss EVERYTHING...to anyone else that reads this I know its confusing and all..but I just want one person one day to understand what he did to my life and how confused he made me. | ||||||
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006, 2:24:34 AM- Shocked!!! | ||||||
From what i just found out we lost all contact. WOW never thought it would be the end. I am not coping right now at all. I guess u packed up and left I can only guess why and you know I am probably right. I guess all my "its easy for you to walk away" is right. You didnt even have the nerve to say GOODBYE u know where to find me or call me even if it was to say BYE. I just dont know if u left the state yet but u r not at the same place and i dont mean house. they say crying heals the pain..thats funny I should be way cured by now. I never thought in my wildest dreams I would ever hurt like this and for this long. all i have is those 2 pictures to look at, I can remember that day so clear. It was the first day I fell in love with you and the 1st time I told you. I will never let go of those. If you could only see me see the hurt feel the hurt then u will know my love is forever. U know my e-mail you know my work# there is nothing I can do. Once again you left me alone. Thinking of you always. I pray to go on and stop with the tears. its so hard how one person can touch you and have this affect on you. all i have is memories, the way we touched the way we laughed and talked even the tears..the way we made love and the hunger we both had, the way I fell into ur arms and felt safe n warm. the way u caressed my body, the look the kisses or just the hugs, how can something feel so right and be so wrong. I have all the questions now I need the answers.. | ||||||
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Monday, December 18, 2006, 9:52:42 PM- I Love You | ||
I wanted to call you today. I won't give in to that tho. I wish I can say Merry Christmas to you. I am missing you more than you will ever know. I am stuck, I don't know what to do. I pray everyday that you will call me. Before we stopped talking you use to tell me even tho we aren't together you think about me all the time, you tell me you can't walk away, well it sure seems like u walked damn maybe even ran. I just need to get out of this feeling, maybe after the holidays I will. I think I might feel alone. I been thru so much since we last saw eachother. I do love you and I do hope you are happy in life. Baby I love you You are my life My happiest moments weren't complete If you weren't by my side You're my relation In connection to the sun With you next to me There's no darkness I can't overcome You are my raindrop I am the sea With you and God, who's my sunlight I bloom and grow so beautifully Baby, I'm so proud So proud to be your girl You make the confusion Go all away From this cold and messed up world I am in love with you You set me free I can't do this thing Called life without you here with me Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you I'll never leave Just keep lovin' me The way I love you loving me And I know you love me Love me for who I am Cause years before I became who I am Baby you were my man I know it ain't easy Easy loving me I appreciate the love and dedication From you to me Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child I see myself being your wife And I see my whole future in your eyes Thought of all my love for you sometimes make me wanna cry Realize all my blessings I'm grateful To have you by my side Every time I see your face My heart smiles Every time it feels so good It hurts sometimes Created in this world To love and to hold To feel To breathe To love you Dangerously in love Can't do this thing I love you , I love you, I love you I'll never leave Just keep on loving me I'm in love with you I can not do I cannot do anything without you in my life Holding me, kissing me, loving me Dangerously I love you Dangerously in love | ||
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Saturday, December 16, 2006, 7:43:47 PM- How I Feel | ||
I can't understand why I think about you 24-7. I think about the good and bad and not sure which out weighs the other. Maybe its even. Maybe its the holidays thats doing it, Ok thats a lie, guess I am searching for a reason why, besides that I love and miss you. I remember our whole relationship, I dont remember dates exactly but I can remember our conversation all of them. I don't understand how you can play with some ones emotions and not think twice about it. You knew from day 1 that I had a hard time trusting and believing and opening up to anyone, you knew that!! yet u promised me forever and I did start opening up and trusting,believing only to have you shut down and leave. NO MATTER what the reasons were. U played with my heart, my mind..WHAT kind of man does that to someone they claim to "be in love with" I told you things about me my life I OPENED up to you. I guess I will never understand, but at least this is helping me to deal to cope, YES i am confused and go back n forth, but I am hoping in time I will move on I mean REALLY move on, so for now I will pretend I am happy around my family and friends, BUT one day it will not be pretend anymore and I will be happy again not because of you but because of ME. You told me everyday how beautiful and sexy I am how caring and loving I am how happy you are with me. Lucky for me I know I am a pretty woman I know I have a beautiful body and I know I am caring and loving, CAUSE even tho u took away alot I will say this YOU DID NOT take away my self esteem.. | ||
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Saturday, December 16, 2006, 5:53:39 PM- Here Without You!! | ||
baby I love this song and I found this picture and OH MY reminds me of u of us..how we use to be..I love you baby and forever will. Its a shame that you will never see this blog..OK so I had to changes some words in the song around!!! A hundred days have made me older Since the last time that I saw your handsome face A thousand lies have made me colder And I don't think I can look at this the same All the miles that separate Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight, there's only you and me. The miles just keep rollin' As the people leave their way to say hello I've heard this life is overrated But I hope that it gets better as we go. I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight boy, there's only you and me. Everything I know, and anywhere I go It gets hard but it won't take away my love And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done. It gets hard but it won't take away my love I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight boy, there's only you and me | ||
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