WHEN I'M 100, IF I LEAN A LITTLE, LET ME!

The family wheeled Grandma out on the lawn, in her wheelchair, where the activities for her 100th birthday were taking place.

Grandma couldn't speak very well, but she could write notes when she needed to communicate.

After a short time out on the lawn, Grandma started leaning off to the right, so some family members grabbed her, straightened her up and stuffed pillows on her right.

A short time later, she started leaning off to her left, so again the family grabbed her and stuffed pillows on her left.

Soon she started leaning forward, so the family members again grabbed her and tied a pillowcase around her waist to hold her up.

A grandson, who arrived late, came up to Grandma and said, 'Hi, Grandma; you're looking good! How are they treating you?'

Grandma took out her little notepad and slowly wrote a note to the grandson, 'They won't let me fart.'

Came to read blogs this am and 2 people are fighting, arguing whatever it is because of me(I feel like it is so I asked him and he said because of me "yes and no" - I understand that answer).
It's not a happy place here in the middle of those two but you know what? I'm the one he has chosen to meet, spend time with, make love to, tell secrets to, share lifes stories with, etc.... so I intend to let them deal with each other and I will take care of myself and do what I need to make and keep my life happy.
Now to get started on that!! I'm off for a few days to visit my parents and spend time with them and spend a few dollars(right, I've seen teddybear go through the 5's hope I'm not that bad!!)at the casino!!
I do have a quick question though - is telling lies and not saying anything at all about something the same thing??

May Day!!!
I miss being home on May Day - growing up on the farm on May 1st weekend my family would get together and we would go out to the fields and pick May Flowers. Some years you could see the little purple flowers before even getting to them but most of the time you had to uncover them because of the long grass and the pasture being overgrown - but we knew where they would be because Grandma showed us, as a young girl Grandma came to this spot and picked them. Now that we know where they are we will show the next generation where to find them...thank you Grandma for sharing this special spot with us.
My Grandma will probably be the topic of my blogs for a while - she has been diagnosed as being in the first stages of Alzheimers and physically some days are better than others. She lives w/my aunt and uncle and on Tuesdays I go stay with her so they can get into town and take care of things they need to do. How many times can I answer "what's the weather like today?", I guess as often as I have to - she's still with us and am thankful for that. Teddybear lost his Gram a couple months ago and knows what I am going through, when I get back to the room he asks how she's doing, wish he could meet her but even though I've told her about my divorce - I don't think she understands so to try to explain who he is, oh well....
My Grandma is my role model & hero - I wanted to be her when I was growing up and even today wish I had her strength to get through things that life throws at me.
The day that Gram leaves us and goes home to walk the streets of gold will be a very hard day for me and I'm really not sure how I will get through it and the days to follow but with the support of family and friends I'll be ok right??
Enjoy May Day!!!

I've been here w/Teddybear for a couple day and yesterday I think he was truely shocked, stunned, dismayed watever he was it was funny!!!
He left for work in the early morning like usual and I was just going to relax in the room maybe head to WalMart.... well my Mom calls she is in the area "wanna meet for lunch?" sure, so she stops by the hotel and we head to WM first and grab a few things and then head to Perkins for lunch. As we were finishing up Teddybear texts me, they are done for the day and is headed back to hotel. As we drive back to the hotel who pulls into the lot ahead of us yup!! Mom and I chatted before getting out of the car and I look over at Teddybear - we looked shocked that I was w/my Mom!! So we carry things in and chat some in the room and Mom had to get going she was anxious to get home, had been on the road for a few days, and it was a 3 hour drive.
It was good seeing my Mom but on the other hand how weird is it - your Mom visiting you in the hotel room were you stay w/your boyfriend?!?! I think SOMEBODY was a "little" uncomfortable!! Sorry babe I'll give you a heads up next time - maybe!!!
So what kind of trouble can I get into today?!?!

You know he's a keeper when he puts the toilet seat down - WITHOUT ever having to tell or ask him!!!

don't me mad at me or insulted by the fact that I deleted all but one from my friends - it's something that I did for reasons personal to me.
You all are still my friends....
BB

Had a good weekend with teddybear - ok could have done without the snowstorm on Monday!! but it didn't ruin our weekend(extended weekend - 5 nites/ 4 days) together.
Had good laughs, a few tears, good food, fun times and REALLY good - ok awesome sex, he knows me so well!!
Off to unpack my bags...

I can see it!!! Oh happy day!!
Should I be this happy about my divorce?

so is being persistant a good or bad thing?

and more snow!!
The weatherman kept saying yesterday that snow is on the way and a good amount(5"-6" for the part of MN that I am in.
We go out for supper around 6 - yes I said we!! Oh did I fail to mention that teddybear was with me!! Yup he came for another visit Tuesday eve and stayed til this morning. So we go out for supper to the chinese buffet in town and head back to my place, on the way into the aptartment I notice the snow is trying to start. We settle in for the eve in front of the tv and watch the Gophers hockey game - hmm never did see the end of the game, did the Gophers win?! Around 10pm I look outside and we have just a dusting but it sure snowed overnight!! Woke up to around 8" of the stuff.
We had another great visit - I love it when I'm around him. Yesterday was our 5 month "anniversary", we met online and chatted for the first time 5 months ago. I've described all of my feelings about and for him here in my blog and over the last few weeks some feelings have been hard for me to admit to myself and hide from him, yes hide because I just couldn't let him know. From the beginning teddybear has said "just friends" then after Christmas Day it was "friends with benefits" and he kept saying slow down, relax, & have fun neither one of us is ready for more we have things to take care of and deal with. Admitting to my feelings this morning and telling him what I did was very scary for me because by him knowing this I'm afraid this will push him away.
But to be honest, now that he knows my feelings I feel good about things(ok after my hour long cry this afternoon because my feelings scared me and I miss him when he leaves and a couple of other things that just won't be put here in my blog) - it's hard to describe, but where we are right now, me saying what I did and him knowing, it feels good/right and I feel like I don't really need more(right now or maybe never who knows!) and I definately don't want to go backwards.