I was gonna post all the gory details. But I thought better of it. How bad is it I'll let you see the deepest darkest recesses of my soul... but I don't think it's right to see what's become of me and my Ex-Mr?

Suffice it to say, I had a very long blog detailing all the bullshit that piece of fuck put me through... today. Pfft. The day I get those divorce papers in my hands.... OMG...ya'll wanna see a party?!?!?!

I'm done with it for now. Tomorrow I'll file the paperwork with what I have, and he can feel free to kiss my motherfuckin ass afterwards.

Some GOOD news!!

Remember, back in Florida, that company I was bakery manager for? Well, it's an "employee owned" company, which means the longer you work there, and the higher you go, they give you stock in the company. You have the option to buy stocks as well, but.. They just give ya so much based on length of service and responsibility in the company. I'd amassed a pretty good amount of stock when I left this last time, but I figured when I left, I left the stocks.

Huh. Not so.

Got some mail day before yesterday (I just checked it today). It's the statement from this years dividends. And a dividend check. I've never in my life had retirement fund. Hell, my idea of investment equals buying a lotto ticket or a scratch off.

Stocks have risen 20% in the last year, despite the poor economy. Speaks volumes as to how amazing the company is.

So now I have a nest egg. A pretty damn decent one at that!

It's been one of those weeks, where what could be seen as little bright spots are eclipsed by rotten luck, horrid moments, and drama.

Had to postpone the wedding, lost what I thought was a good friend, the shop STILL ain't where it needs to be. Rainbow's healing, slowly, but we're still worried about permanent damage to the nerves in his right arm.

The one thing that's made me smile this week, even though we had to postpone the wedding until further notice... my parents and Digoree are still coming up to visit. It's been almost a year since I've seen them, so I'm looking forward to showing them the area. Dad-doo's promised to cook me dinner one night. I know Dummy is a fantastic cook, and there's very little he makes me that I don't like.. but my Dad-doo was the first, and those are some awful big shoes to fill.

*hugs and smooches to everyone who's helped, PM'd, talked-me down, distracted me, or in some other way kept me from going postal this week*

But more bad news on top of other bad news. Just a silly piece of paper anyway. =(

He's doing better. They had him sitting in a chair yesterday. His fever's mostly gone, only spikes when he's sleeping. Which I guess would mean his body's fighting back.

He still sleeps a lot, but, I prolly would to if I were in that much pain. We're still worried about perm. nerve damage in his arm, but we won't know anything until they put the plate and screws in his shoulder and start him on his rehab.

We haven't gone to visit him last night or today, but I've got a huge brownie cake on the counter for him. Everytime I asked if the boys needed anything on my way from the bakery to the bike shop, Rainbow would ask for brownies from my work. So I made him a cake from them (about a dozen brownies) and wrote "You're fired" in rainbow colors.

When he get's out of the hospital, he obviously won't be able to go back to his day job. But we've offered to pick him up and bring him to the shop whenever he's up to it. He loves interacting with the customers and such, all of which he can do with one arm, if necessary.

Thanks to everyone here for all the well wishes, prayers, and positive thoughts. He's like our adopted kid or little brother, so this has been super stressful for us.

I'll blog something happy soon.

Such a typical, boring day at work.

Then we get a phone call... our night manager, Rainbow. He's been in an accident this morning. Coming around a blind curve in the road, he came up to a propane truck. He had two options , go around (which he tried, but found a ford explorer in the way) or hit the truck. He turned the bike, and hit the propane truck.

He did a selfless thing, in that split decision. We'll never know who was in that explorer, but at that time of day, I'd imagine it was a mom and her kids.

For a long time we didn't know anything other than Rainbow had fractured vertebrae, a compound fracture on his clavicle, a broken scapula, and severe road rash on his arm and leg. Not to mention the fear of bruising to his brain.

We shut the shop down early (6pm) and made our way to him. He's awake, and joking, and highly embarrassed he's crashed. He's still crushed, broken, and beat up. But I'm happy to report that Rainbow will be back to TOR as soon as possible. And my friend is alive and whole.

Sorta. Me n Dum have a mutual friend I've always thought would be perfect for NN. She's smart and funny as hell and lovely. Last night she was bored, so Dum asked me if we should tell her 'bout NN. I was just drunk enough to throw caution to the wind and say yeah. LOL. She already had an account. No pics or nothing yet (I'll work on that, even if I gotta take em maself) but I'd like to think she had a good time in chat. I was on Dum's home computer, and I'm not used to the keyboard at ALL. So drunk chatting was a bit harder than normal... Maybe tonight. *shrug*

So, if she's reading this, Welcome to NN, Ruben =) I hope you find it as fun and rewarding as I have all these years. Remember, there's always assholes in every aspect of life, and NN's no different. But if you stick around and use all the things NN has to offer (chat, blogs, forum, status, etc) you'll meet some amazing people. =)

It's Monday, so a fresh start. I had the day off yesterday from the bakery, and Dum kindly gave me the day off from the bike shop. It was lovely. I laid in bed and watched movies all morning, not getting out of bed until 4pm. Then I finally turned my computer on, and hopped online. Sadly, my lazy day was ruined when Dum called and asked if I wanted him to grill something for dinner. I said sure, then he let it slip he'd invited "the guys" over to eat with us. O.o So much for lazy day! I had an hour to run around cleaning up AND I had to get dressed. It wasn't too bad. I do have issues talking to people when I've been in my lil cocoon all day.

So anyway, new week. Here's hoping it's better than last week. It got so bad I dug into the archives and posted a few pics that were popular years ago. I needed the pick-me-up. Maybe I'll get around to taking new pics. One day.

It feels like I'm made of them right now. One more thing, one more smack by that sadistic bitch called "life" and I'm going to crumble.

All the kings horses...

I've been holding on by a thread, a very very slim one. Thanks to a random PM from a random member complementing me on my blog, I decided to do what he said he was doing. Starting from the beginning and reading them all.

All the kings men...

The only thing I have in my life right now that's keeping me from cracking, crumbling, and turning into a pile of dust is my Dummy. We've been through so much, come so far. I can't even think about the future right now. Just the moment. At this moment, I have him with me, near me.

Couldn't put kricket back together again.