That I picked the right house to sit for Open House this weekend!! Today, I was in an "up and coming" part of town. Things are Really Booming around the area. So guess what that means for me??????? hehe....Anyway, So I actually figured that this weekend would be like last weekend and no one would really show up. BOY WAS I WRONG WRONG WRONG. I had at least 17 people there inthe 3 hours.

One guy, owned a house down the street and decided to sell it today. So he was having an "open house" too. Except, he is trying to do it on his own. Anyway, He stopped by, to check out the house, and invited me down to see what I thought about his home down the street. So when I closed up the house, I drove on down. The first thing I asked was if they had, had any traffic through there today. And though I had several, they had only had like 3. SO much for FOR SALE BY OWNER. HA. So I talked to them for a few minutes, and took some information down. I have an appointment with them tomorrow evening after I finish my other Open house. My First Listing Presentation....WOOHOOO As VB says, "I'm losing my Virginity in the bizness."

I have another lady that I am suppose to go see on Monday, for the same thing, and two couples that I will be working with this week to purchase! WOW....I'm amazed at the difference a day makes!

I think it was the Moon last night. Maybe I'm feeling at peace with myself again a little, and things are going to be right! I sure Hope so!

Anyway, thanks soo much for the encouragement everyone!! You'll never know how much I appreciate and Love you all!!!!

-dreamy...reaching for the stars...Now that she's found her moon!

Possibly the most beautiful, serene happening ever!! Tonight, i went to dinner with my friends, Hope, Sabrina, and Bri....we went about 35 miles South of here, to a popular little restaurant overlooking the river. It was such an awesome atmosphere, live music and dancing. The drinks and food were awesome. (DOLPHIN KICKS ASS if its cooked right)
Anyway, on the way back home, Hope commented that since she has been here she has not been to the beach at night. So I took a little detour, and we went to the beach. Just her and I. we got out of the car, to a dark barely lit up at all beach. we walked down to the shore line, sandals off, pants rolled up, andjust stood there...watching the surf hit the shore.
we talked a little bit, about how happy we are to have found one another. Its been so long since I have had more than one person to call a Best friend, its hard for me to fathom sometimes that now i have two. one at home, and one here in my new home.
SO, we're standing there, just enjoying the sounds, and the view, when way over East of us, there is this light, that seems to come out of no where, and it just keeps getting a little bigger with ever passing moment. Until we finally realize, that it is the MOON...OMG...I have watched sunrises, and they are the best, but to be out on the shoreline, when the Moon rises above the water...it brought tears to my eyes, and a warmness to my heart.
I felt him with me. He was there. in the sky, in the water, in the moon, The sand, He was part of it all at that moment. I Know because I felt it.
I've never seen the moon rise until tonight. and it is one thing that i will NEVER EVER forget. I'll always remember the peace it brings unto my heart and my soul.

he's acting very wierd and lovie today, he's usually really hyper, but 2day he's not leaving my side....i wonder if he senses wat im feeling???

Im leaving FL. Im going HOME!!! After the day I had yesterday, I decided its time for me to face the world back home. the 5th will be one year. and I need to be there to put flowers at the cemetary. Even though everyone has offered to do it for me, I NEED TO BE THE ONE TO DO IT! Im very frustrated with myself. I need to see my kids, and my old friends.

I found out recently that a very old friend of mine (that i haven't spoken to in 5 years) has moved back to Texas. The time that she was away was horrible for her, and she was into drugs VERY BAD!! Anyway, I need to see her, and slap her around for not letting me know that she was even alive for those 5 years.

I need to hug my grandmother, before its too late to do so. I need to fight with my mommy. I need to kiss my kids (susies kids) I need to touch base with everything that i used to be, so I can determine WHY i am who I am now, and Where I am going with my life. Its TIME. I've been living on edge for long enough. Its time for me to face the facts. Things are never going to be like they used to be. Its always going to hurt around this time of year. It is not going to go away.
I have to stop making excuses as to why I don't let people in, and why i have this HUGE wall built up.
I'm 23 years old. Its time to grow up and face the world. FULL FORCE...not just a little bit at a time because Im scared. FUCK BEING SCARED. what is there to be scared of? I've hurt enough in my short life for lots of people twice my age. SO.....its time to get over it!

on a Happier note, I will finally get a good fuckin hair cut and highlight job. My Best friend there is the BEST hairstylist EVER. and I can't find one here to do my hair worth a crap. They always cut it too short, or don't cut it right!

Sebastian is going home with me....so thats going to be a FUN ride!! lol

Has been one of the worst days Ever! Not because its Valentine's day, just because its a fuckin day! I didn't want to get out of the bed. Then when I finally did, all I had the energy to do, was sit and cry and feel sorry for myself. Well not really feeling sorry for myself, I just don't want to be here, or there or really anywhere right now. I woke up today, as I have several days in the recent past, and sort of feel like I don't want to be married anymore, I don't want to be around anyone anymore. I just want to be me, without anyone else........

Don't feel sorry for me, thats not what this is about. I don't need pity, I just needed to get some stuff out!

Tomorrow...does that mean I'm getting old? hehehe....anyhoo...Happy V day Everyone. Personally Im not a big fan of Valentine's day. Flowers die, and candy makes me fat, so...I'll do without thank you very much....

But im sending out lots of VDAY hugs to all my friends!! Love ya!!

Reading a few blogs tonight, I cry. It saddens me that my friends, are sad, and that we have lost a dear one. I, myself, only had brief contact with Steph, But the contact that I had, was wonderful. Such a Bright Beautiful soul! I cannot say as much as I would like to be able to. Simply because I do not know her as well as some. However, to know, that dear dear friends of mine, have lost someone so very close to them, breaks my heart. It seems so unneccesary. I know that people come into our lives, and leave from our lives, often, and as part of this Master Plan that we are suppose to have set before us. But Alot of the time it comfuses me. Some people just aren't here long enough!

In less than 3 weeks will mark the 1 year anniversary of my father passing away. And though not in such closeness, it almost seems as though last year is beginning to repeat itself. My mind is boggled and my heart is ever so heavy. I'm at a loss for words.


I will update you all on my goings on though, because i am sure there are a few of you who are wondering. I showed the house on Saturday, and only a few people showed up. which is normal i think. Anyway, i have a few potential clients now. and JP and i spent the day wondering around going to other open houses today, just to get a good idea of the R E market around the area. I saw some GORGEOUS houses today! My dream home is priced at $659,900 and it is FABULOUS!!! I can't wait to start really house shoppin!!

Anyway, JP is leaving tomorrow, headed back to California. I find myself wishing sometimes that I can go with him. Just so that I won't have to be alone on that dreadful day in a few weeks. Lonliness only sets in sometimes for me, I am pretty used to being alone, but i fear the worst this time. I know that I will be ok, but its just dreaded, as I am sure it is for everyone that has lost a loved one!

on a final note--Deba, My heart is with you as are my thoughts...to you and your loved ones. And everyone else that knew this special ray of light! Big hugs!

I think ihave it all together.

Signs-check
Candles-check
music-check (BTW...Thanks Kittenmmm for the suggestions)
Paperwork-check
business cards-check
cookies-check
lemonade-check

Yep i think thats it....O wait...I almost forgot the balloons.



Im so excited about tomorrow!! woohooo I'll finally feel like I'm doing something!

GOOD LUCK to me...and to FLCAMFAN (hope you kick some ass in this competition)

hugs to you all and thanks for the support!!!

Have a wonderful Friday and a peaceful weekend.

Yipppeeeeeeee!!! I'm soo excited. One of the BIG SHOTS in the office called me yesterday and asked me to do an OPEN HOUSE for him this weekend. And by Big Shot I mean that this dude, is LOADED...He has over 50 properties listed by himself. Prices ranging from $200,000 to like 2.9 Mil. SO of course I said YES!! I almost jumped for joy. Anyhoo, its my first real step out into the business cuz I've been in training classes for the past 5 weeks or so. I can't wait. So....Im doin my homework and stuff, and getting everything ready. Keep your fingers crossed for me. Maybe i can sell this kick ass house and finally make some DOUGH!!!!! wouldn't that be awesome!! I have a trip to Vegas I need to start FUNDING soon!!!

Anyhooo....I haven't been around a whole lot, the past couple of days. I've been trying to "market" myself into my "chosen" areas of the county. thats some hard work!! my poor printer is ready to throw itself out the window. Poor things been going almost non stop for the past week printing out postcards, and letters.

Im gona go see what else i can find to get into. just wanted to say HI!!!
and give everyone HUGS and tell ya I miss Ya'll!!!

-a very excited Dreamy!