So I just watched my beloved Leafs play the WORST game ever. Jesus I can't believe I just paid that much money to see my team be humiliated. *GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR* Oh well they are still my team and luckily being a Leaf fan I know all about the taunting I will recieve in the next few days.
Either way I love hockey and getting to be there is still surreal to me. I am going to go broke if I keep going to games but its worth it --haha and even if I dont end up broke I may end up broken hearted. At least the guys sitting beside me entertained me through the game.

Opps so I forgot to update, its been a busy week. So my date got cancelled at the last minute (effin grrrrr) but as he was cancelling I was talking to another guy online and we ended up going out instead. There was no chemisty but we had a good night and will probably be friends. Now tonight I have another date with someone else. Why does it seem I either have a lot of guys asking me out or no one? It is easier when a lot are asking me out though because then one bad date is not the end of the world.

There is only one small (ok LARGE, GIANT, MASSIVE) issue. For the past while I have been beyond horny. Like I am all the time, 24/7. But I don't want to meet someone and jump in bed. One I don't want to become a slut and two - I know guys say different but for the most part when you sleep together on the first date there is rarely a second date. I have learned that one the hard way for sure.

I need to find a happy medium I think. I have always hated the idea of casual sex because for me its a million times more exciting when you know the person and the sex gets better with each time.

Oh well this is too much thinking for a Saturday night. I am going out tonight and I plan on having fun.

Happy Saturday all

So I have a date tonight *whistles innocently*

He's been asking me out for a while and either I was too busy or just wasn't sure. Finally he asked me out one more time this afternoon so I agreed. I get so nervous when a hottie asks me out I get too worked up so I agreed to go as long as we went out tonight so I didn't have time to dwell...haha and now here I am procrastinating on here...shheeesh

/me saunters out

.........is back

The wedding was awesome. They looked beautiful and not a single thing went wrong. I was a very proud big sister and can't believe my little brother is married

OMGGGGG (lol yeah I keep saying that!) I need to finish packing and take a nap...but! my friends and family keep calling and messaging me. The friends to say goodbye and how much they will miss me (lol i am only going for 2 weeks) and my family to say they can't wait to see me. My brother called me and had me in tears (the good kind) ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDD theres this guy...I have had a crush on foreverrrrrr and he finally admitted he's got one back. We really can't do anything about it but its still an awesome feeling. No matter what we are very good friends and him telling me made me feel incredible.

5 hrs until I leave....one last time....OMG!!!!!

Thanks everyone. I think a letter is a good idea. The reason I wanted to call him is because I don't want people changing my mind while I am away. To them he is still my dad but thats not how I see it. Yes he is my father and always will be but I need him out of my life. I don't wish him unwell or anything like that, I just need to move on.

That being said..........


I leave in like 8 1/2 hourrrrrrrrrrrrrrrs. WOOOOHOOOOOO

Ok so in exactly 24 hours I will be on the plane heading for Calgary.EKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. I have never been on a plane before. I am still not packed and I have got to go to work and the pick a few things up tonight. The past 2 weeks have just been a blur of constant events and exciting things to do that even though I knew my trip was coming I didn't have time to dwell on it....well thats changed now. OMG tomorrow I will be seeing my brother whom I haven't seen in 7 years, my mom who I have seen once in 14 years, some cousins/aunts/uncles I have seen only a few times in my life - and I get to be reunited with my grandparents who are more like parents to me, and an aunt who is like a sister. OMG am I going to be able to handle this? Let the countdown begin people....24 hrs to go!!!!


BTW need some quick advice- My dad is a complete asshole and hasn't been there for me in so long its sad. I found out hes not going to the wedding and this is the last straw. This man used to be my best friend and I am tired of being hurt. I have decided I want him out of my life for good. That being sad - I want to call him and tell him just how much hes hurt me. Should I make the call before I go?? Should I wait until I come back? Or dont make it at all? I think I need to make the call for me. Its time I dealt with this and moved on. The worst part is I am too soft hearted and even though I am the one being hurt I don't want to make the call in case it hurts him. Stupid eh? Any advice?

omg omg omg omg omg OH MY FUCKING GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Tonight was the best night EVERRRRR. I went to another Leafs game and for a while I got to sit in the FRONT ROW. To accomplish this at the ACC basically you either paid $1000 OR you are screwing someone pretty high up the hockey chain. I was mere inches from my idols. I was worse than a kid in a candy store...hell I was worse than a 13 yr old boy at a strip club. I couldn't decide if I wanted to sit down, stand up or what. HAHAHA I took 130 pictures in like 10 minutes. I just kept clicking. My hands were shaking so bad I don't know how any even turned out--but they did and they are awesome. OMG I am smiling from ear to ear and still shaking! Way too cool - This Canadian chickie can now die happy.

To hell with going to Heaven...When I die bury me at the ACC

OK pull up a chair got a mess of things going on. I swear I need one vacation before my vacation and another after

Here is the condensed version

First - HOCKEY is back baby! WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO my team kicked off their season yesterday on my birthday no less. Very sweet. Tomorrow I am going to see a game with SUITE tickets. Soooooooooo excited and then Monday I am going to another game vs the arch rival. I can't wait. This chick is 100% pure Canadian!

Two - I have a million things I need to do - laundry, cleaning, find a fish baby sitter, buy some last minute things, pick up the plane ticket I lost (opps)and on top of that work is insanely busy right now and I opened my big mouth and offered to go in early tomorrow. Duh like the day isn't already going to be long enough waiting to go to the game

Three - I have a ton of plans with friends wanting to see me both for my bday and before I go. Plus I need my hair cut and eye brows waxed and some beauty sleep would be nice lmao.

Now as I am sitting here procrastinating and writting this I could be getting stuff ready for tomorrow, finishing painting my nails and straighening my hair...but thats no fun. I am sooooo happy I am beyond busy in the next week, as it will be the only thing keeping me sane. LMAO unless I can find someone to cuddle with I don't see my next good sleep being until sometime after October 12.

29 has just begun and it sure looks promising

OK so everyone has seen my cherry pic..sorry Its becoming my signature picture. Here is one with the blue cherries from last night